Trouble in the Terraces of my mind

hey...me writing here is a hell of a lot cheaper than therapy...

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Well I did it. I ordered an Iphone. I went to the AT&T store by my job and put my order in. I now have 10-21 days to clear up some stuff with Verizon so I can port my number over and save myself and a lot of people headaches. I got the 8 gig phone, mostly because of the fact that I already have an Ipod, and I don't need to use the Iphone as one (which would drain the battery). So tonight I went through my address book on my mac, and updated it and made sure I had the right info in there so I can just sync it to my phone with no issues and not missing anyone's stuff.

now for a couple clips-assume they are NSFW:

mashup of “Clerks” and “Star Wars”-


mashup of “Star Wars” and “Rush Hour”-


“Dirty Jobs” host Mike Rowe when he sold crap on QVC, and got fired a ton of times from there due to his selling skills-





Finally go to Lazlow.com to download the latest mp3s of the last show-funny as hell.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I watched a couple movies this weekend on cable that I always find pleasure in. One is called “Network”, a movie about how network television is corrupt in it's ideals, how it influences the viewer's thoughts on whatever it wants, and always has a conflict between news and entertainment. The movie was made in the late seventies, but it can be applicable to today's media. The cast in this movie was fantastic. It starred Faye Dunaway, who was extremely sexy in this film. Robert Duvall put in an awesome performance, but then again I don't remember any bad job he's done in a film. Peter Finch played the madman anchor who the movie was based around. Look up the film and see the list of who is in the film, and then go see it and tell me the movie sucks. My other film I saw was “JFK”, I like the film, even though Oliver Stone did tend to fabricate a couple things and skewed some facts. Beyond that the film is fantastic. Joe Pesci in the hotel room losing his shit alone was an awesome scene, and my favorite scene in the entire film was the one where Kevin Costner's character went to meet Donald Sutherland's character in Washington DC. The entire sequence was amazing work and I always enjoy watching it, as well as the entire movie.

If it seemed I was a little scattered in that last paragraph, well I also had something on my mind today. Today (7/29) is exactly one month until my 30th Birthday. It's starting to freak me out a bit, but I feel weird. I feel a combination of sad, angry, numb, and a little scared. it's an odd feeling to have. I am trying to take advice from someone, where I shouldn't think about “what the hell have/haven't I done in my life”, but rather focus on “where the hell am I going to go?” Not an easy thing to do, but I have a while to let everything settle in. I don't know it's just an odd feeling I have right now

Monday, July 28, 2008

My weekend came and gone, and I don't remember much of it. After my nightmare of a week last week, a lot of drinking happened, and I really don't remember what happened. I do knot it involved me vomiting, screaming a lot in my house, and me passing out on my couch. Still remember what happened last week, so erasing that shit failed. Though it is a good thing-since it reminded me, as I always say, as a human being I am better than 90 percent of people in this world. After the past couple days and the stories i heard and seen in the news, that was really reaffirmed that I truly am better than most people. Not to mention the warm glow of the torches others carry for me (I still see some do check on me-pathetic, but if you regret choosing someone second-rate rather staying around a real man, deal with it).

I have been looking around my basement, and I found quite a bit of stuff I got to sell. Maybe I'll make enough on it to pay for my Iphone. II thought I may suck selling my R/C stuff, but considering I've haven't used it in months, and I just have no passion or motivation to, It's going to be easy to. Like I said, I can use the money I get to my Iphone. I'm still debating if I am going to attempt to get one at an Apple Store, or go to an AT&T store and preorder one. Anyone have any ideas or suggestions (or even any “ins” to get one), let me know. I know Apple has a site that updates what stores have the phone in stock, but I dont know if when it says it has the phone in at the 5th ave store, that it's there NOW, or it will be there at some point the next day.

One commercial I've heard a lot lately on Xm, other than dick creams, porno shops, lawyers getting drunks out of DUIs, and some dog pill, is the promo for the Coldplay channel they have all month. First off, how can they be a rock band if they have ZERO personality, and whatever jokes they tried in their promo was as funny and gleeful as a documentary on Auschwitz. Coldyplay's music is the type that if I were on the fence of killing myself and had the gun to my head, if their music came of the radio at that moment, it would make pulling the trigger easier. Seriously, they are nothing more than a bunch of hipsters who wish they were emo fags, and fail at both attempts. If Coldplay and Radiohead are considered the “new British invasion”, as their success was billed at some point, no wonder we kicked the Brits' asses in the late 1700s and had to save their asses TWICE in both World Wars.

Friday, July 25, 2008

My mind is mush this week after all that I have had to deal with. Some good, which put a huge smile on my face and made me feel real good. Some also bad which proved one of the main points I will be talking about. First I need to plug something THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A, THE LAZLOW SHOW IS ON 7/26 ON XM 202 FROM 9P-12A,

Now with that out of the way, I can focus on what I was about to talk about. Today was the culmination of this past week of bullshit I went through. Nothing really has to be said, but just in the end I was reminded of a simple fact: I am better than 90% of the people in this world, because I live the life of the righteous. I have mentioned this before, and I want to show you what I mean. Someone like me lives their lives with the attitude of everything and everyone can disappear in the blink of an eye, and it's ok. It's meant to be that way. I person who lives the way I live looks at someone they meet, and sees where they can fit into their lives. Then the person is “given” a role in one's life, and nothing short of that role is acceptable. Otherwise the one who lives how I live had no use for the person-we never settle for anything less than what we want from and of a person. In return of these expectations is that people like me will do whatever it takes to do what's right for this person.

honor and trust are key to our lives, and if they are violated, the offender finds themselves without people like me anymore, since we have no time for garbage like that. Also one only gets one shot and opportunity with people like me. If this opportunity is blown, thats it. Why take someone back who didn't want you around or screwed you over the first time? Sure some may choose to not have people like me around, but as I said that means they lost their opportunity, so if they regret their poor choice to go with someone second-rate, it's on them. For myself, I know I'm not second rate or second fiddle to anyone. Some may have thought that, and must regret that choice since they still read this and look at my Myspace, and try to keep tabs on me, maybe to try to live vicariously though me and maybe feel for a moment what it's like to be with one of the greatest people they will ever meet.

Then again people like me can be intimidating. Not just in looks (I am bald with a goatee who just has to stand there without saying a word and people think I'm a psycho), but also we are people who does a rarity-we do what we promise and say. Some say you have to lie a little with people in general, but we don't agree with it since one lie can lead to another, and eventually it can get so complex, the truth could be totally lost. I've always been totally and brutally honest about them and how I feel about them, as well as how I feel about myself. I may feel I am the greatest guy out there, but I know I am not perfect, I have my flaws. the idea that someone like me not only brings the truth, but also brings it with a passion and intensity it deserves, can throw and scare the unworthy off. Yesterday alone I did something out of the ordinary to help out a good friend who was in desperate need. I am not going to tell you what I did, but I did something that if I didn't do, this person would have been in a serious situation. The reaction this person gave me for what I did made me feel good and put me on a high

One thing we, the people who live the way that I live, can not stand is people who lead us on or try to be what they are not. These are the ones who do lie and try to act like they are at the same level as us, only to eventually get found out and left on the side since these people aren't worth the time especially when they had just wasted our time, something we value greatly.
I may be forgetting some aspects to talk about, but this is somewhat an idea on how those at my level live. Seem arrogant? cocky? maybe I am, but so far i haven't been proven wrong. And I'm sure down the road, when I am in front of the gates of heaven, I will be judged like every other ham and egger, but I will surely be allowed in, mostly when my list of good and impact I've had on other's lives is read, it will be rushed into heaven where I deserve to be. After all, some out there consider me a saint for all the good I do. One thing I am sure of is that I fit the saying I saw in an ad. it maybe a real quote but I saw it in an ad. the quote is:

“A hero need not speak. When he is gone, the world will speak for him”

Ok enough about me and serious stuff. Here's some quick things to make some happy

Absinthe Is back-though I may want the stronger one still only found in Europe

and this video, which shouldn't shock anyone that a Jets banner is in on the wall consider ing the actions in the vid

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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

I had three different text message conversations today. Two of which has made me absolutely enraged over a couple subject that really bother me about humanity and how much part of humanity is fucked up. In all honestly, if I didn't have eh third conversation today, which took my mind off all this and made me remember how good of a person I am and how I live the life of the righteous, I would have been in a really bad mood all day. To the person who I had the third conversation with, I don't name names but the conversation was around 10 today, thanks for the slight moment of calming and peace.

OK one conversation that I had was about the question “Is there an acceptable reason to cheat on your mate?” I'll give my answer first. I believe there is NO reason that is acceptable. If you don't like the person you are with, break it off before you start looking elsewhere. How fucking hard is that? When you are with someone, you are saying that you are loyal only to them, and you trust the other person to be that as well. That's something that bugs me about the “controlling” guy/gal. They are insecure that their mate is going to leave them, so they feel they have to try hard to keep their mate near them. That just shows they don't trust their mate that they are going to be loyal. I always have the attitude that if she is gong to cheat on me, she will chose to. If she does, that just shows how much of a skank she is, and how she i the end didn't deserve the opportunity I gave her to be with me. She may not know she lost a great opportunity now, but maybe it will hit her like the whisky bottle that her new lover throws at her head.

Back to cheating. The person I was talking to said that he loves his girlfriend, but lusts for the other person he is cheating on her girlfriend with. That to me is nothing but a cop out in that he is not happy with his chick. I've heard this “have it all” mentality in the past, and I think it's garbage. Like I wrote before, you made a commitment to one person, either fully live up to it, or end it and try to find something better. Keep juggling and eventually they both fall down. Pick one and stay with it. What is even more sad is when the person cheated on that stays with the jerkoff that was cheating. All that proves is that the person has no respect for themselves and chose to settle with this asshole due to the fear of being alone. Look, I've probably said this before, but when my dad died, I accepted the fact that I can find myself homeless, broke, and alone. Do I want this to happen? NO. I actually would like to find that right person, maybe have a family. But at the same time, I will NOT suffer with someone just because that's all I could get. If I were to end up alone, so be it. I don't have the fear to break something off if I don't feel as if something isn't right for me.

Now onto my other conversation, which also involves a commitment and sacrifice that one must have totally be able to give. I”m talking about parenting. I know I have talked about it before, but I given the shitheads out there that have found themselves in the news, I felt as if maybe it's time I revisit the subject. I would like to say that if i had my way, any bad parents that are caught being bad parents would be subject to the community being allowed to bludgeon them to death as to have one less problem in society.

I know a lot of people that re about to be parents for the first time, or are good parents already. All of these people I don't have a problem with for the most part. they know what level of commitment and sacrifice was needed and have met it. I”m talking about the “Parasite” parents, who have kids and suck the money out of all their entire family and not contribute to their child. I”m also talking about the “terrorist” parents, who demand things of their relatives or they don't get to see or visit the child. Another example of a fuckup parent s the one who is angry that the child didn't turn out how they wanted, like they wanted one gender but got the other, and try to make the child “fit” into their ideal picture of what they want. The next example of shit parents are the ones who are neglectful parents due to their selfishness. Look in the media at the assholes who abandon their kids in a car like a dog, or leave them home alone because the parents had something to do or somewhere to go. My other irritating example is the “We're broke and can barely afford one child, LETS HAVE ANOTHER OR TWO MORE!!! Then we get more welfare and government assistance!!” That's responsible, use your kids as mealtickets so you don't have to work, and can raise your kids in filth. On the other end of the spectrum are the affluent parents, who hire an army to take care of THEIR kid. So several others are going to take care of the child, and the parents are just subsidizing this and not putting in ANY work to better and care for, and maybe not even interact with their own child, because their career or fun comes first. How the FUCK is that responsible parenting??? Finally, I hate the “it takes a village” mentality parents, when the parents expect anyone 50 feet around them to help take care of the kid for them, mostly because they don't know what the fuck they are doing.

Bottom line: if you can't sacrifice all you have for a child, don't have any. It's that fucking simple. I hate hearing about all these ill-fit mothers are going to have children. the first reaction after this moron said she was pregnant should have involved either a flight of stairs, a hanger, or a swift action by Dr. Martin. It wouldn't be considered an abortion but more like euthanasia so the id didn't have to be raised in such a horrible way. On top of all this, there are perfectly fit and willing people who want children but medically can't. They try the adoption route, which is cool they still want to mold a child into a responsible person, but that is one ball busting ordeal that doesn't guarantee them receiving a kid.

It just boggles my mind, but me living the life of the righteous shows me how much better I am compared to all these morons. I know a lot of people like what I just described, and luckily they aren't anyone I deal with a lot. I choose not to lower myself to their level, I like where I am. Like I said, if the opportunity did come up, I'd love to settle down with someone and have a family, but the situation has to be right. It wont' be a prefect situation, there is never one of those, but the situation has to feel right for me to do all that. Maybe there will be someone out there that is the right fit for me and feels the same way.

Monday, July 21, 2008







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I am so tired of this bullshit.....

This is what happened at the LA game this weekend. The more and more I think about it, the less fun it is getting to go to Giants Stadium. Ever since this team existed, this is the horseshit the supporters, the ones dumb enough to come to every game of this Titanic of a soccer team, gets treated. The team claims to care, but if they did, wouldn't they have done something about it? Sure it could be said the NJSEA is the landlord and RBNY/Metro are the tenant, but at the same time if the tenant isn't getting anything they need from a slumlord, especially something that they have a right to-in this case better personnel to handle security, the tenant has a right to hold rent and look somewhere else to go. But what the fuck does this team care? they made some good cash last Sat...oh wait they didn't since these morons sold out to the NJSEA for the privilege of playing at Giants Stadium, where all money form food and souvenirs goes to the Authority. In this entire area, they couldn't find a more suitable place to play for the time being before their stadium opens? I've tried and tried to keep the faith that it's almost over in that shithole of a swamp, where 5 things will be planned for the entire complex on a Saturday, and the soccer fan gets shafted over the big flea market or some concert in their dilapidated arena that EVERY tenant there has left or is leaving in the next year or so, despite they only have half the room these days to do so due to the new football stadium going up. The team probably has some stupid thought that they won some new fans, but let's face it. When the next league home game comes around, it's going to be the same 15k there's always going to games.

Some may say this is a special occasion due to the crowd, but that's no fucking excuse. This has happened for YEARS, yet no one does anything about it, despite the ESC leadership having n open dialogue with the teams management, only to get “yes”-ed to death and given empty promises (which also spreads to their season ticket holders like me-who have been sold a bill of good by nothing more than used car salesmen.

I have spent tens of thousands of dollars in my entire time of supporting this club (give or take 7 years now, as an ESC member/season ticket holder, but since it's inception otherwise). Between gas, tolls, tailgating supplies, donations to banners and other goods the ESC needed, not only gone on countless bestirs to DC and New England, even paid for a spot on several buses that i had no plans on going on, just so the ESC had enough spots paid for the bus to take the supporters going on the trip. I've also invested many man-hours volunteering at functions, storing banners at my house, just doing all I can to make things happen. I've stood in monsoons, hailstorms, 130 degree heat in the stadium, and sung my fucking guts out, often not being able to speak the week after and do it all over again the next week. Last week in the heat I had to drag 60+ lbs around fucking Queens to get a ride to the game, all to have numbers in our section since the WHORES who wouldn't come to see this shit team play, but some Limey shitdick and his fucking southern Cali sloppy party bottom, who shit his pants when he had to go play with real men in Europe, is in town to play RBNY, they come out in droves to be nothing but a bunch of starfuckers. And after all this, I have to deal with some North Jersey FUCKING faggots who's insecurity over them being limpdicks can push some of my friends around just because they see people having fun rather being some schlock making AT BEST ten bucks an hour like them. I've lost my “smile” when it comes to this team after the LA game.

After seeing how hostile it is slowly getting the past couple games, I am seriously debating to in the next day or two take all I just said, and maybe add some more, and write to every head muckity-muck at RBNY and no only ask but DEMAND changes I feel as a season ticket holder for several years I, and every single person who goes to games are entitled to. If I don't hear anything solid by the DC game on August 9th, all my season tickets get returned, including all the shit I bought for this team-jerseys, jackets, scarves, EVERYTHING and have it sent right to their fucking office. Those who read this and feel the way I do should do the same. I am really tired of all this, and more and more I am losing my passion to support a team that has been ran since it's inception by some form of glorified used-car salesmen.

Bottom line is that if the NJSEA/RBNY don't want my money or time, fuck them. I can find something else to do.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

It's amazing. This is the first Sunday in a long time where I am not going to go to bed feeling all depressed, mostly because of the fun experience I had today. It really made me feel good today, especially impressing others with my TV-b-gone, but I didn't have the balls to do it in the Sony store, so I just did a bunch of the kiosks around me. Yes I am an ass, but it made others smile, so I'm a justified ass.

Now, as far as yesterday. Yesterday was the big RBNY-Galaxy game, where the game proved why I always wish Jersey is the next target by the terrorists, and that would actually improve the damn state. The amount of fucking whores at the game wanting to see Dave astounded me. If these were “soccer fans” where the FUCK are they any other game? Most of these “fans” were young girls, or more accurately the “future welfare recipients due to them getting banged by some asshole because said asshole had something shiny to get these chicks to spread them” demographic that is oh so attractive to celebrity whoredom.. They sold the shit out of LA galaxy merch at this game....BUT IT WAS A FUCKING RED BULLS HOME GAME!!!! On top of it, the backwards-ass Jersey shitdicks that is hired as security and state trooper harassed and banned a bunch of guys in my group for doing nothing than answering back these starfuckers in the crowd as they talked shit to us about “becks n friends” are better than the Red Bulls. It got interesting in the parking lot when some LA fucks started shit in the parking lot, then ran to the cops when they were about to get the shit kick out of them. One classy move was when a van moved in, and NJSEA assholes came out like a bunch of rodeo clowns and harassed up and gave one woman in our group the finger, which was caught on video so this fucker's going to pay. I can't wait until Red Bull Park is opened and I don't have to go to that dump, so I can get to and form the stadium via train and don't have as much interaction with the “locals”. No wonder I come home feeling so scummy and dirty.

Yes actually I am happy. I had a good day today, and I just had some nice shower time (some may thing it's sexy shower time, but that's their thing).

Thursday, July 17, 2008

I don't know if you have read, the mayor of Belmar, NJ. Is in trouble for writing something bashing Staten Island people, and the “guidos” who come into town over the summer. Is it just me or does a Jersey shore town bashing Staten Island feel like a retard getting into a fight with an Autistic kid? Much like a fight between those two, in the end no matter who wins, I'm still better than either one. Speaking of comparisons that are true, another comparison I heard over the past day that has stuck with me was done by comic Mike Destefano on Opie and Anthony yesterday. He said the war on terror has been like “When an asian guy hits us, so we go beat up a Puerto Rican. It makes no sense.”

How good does it feel that Jessie jackson is more and more being proven out to be a fraud? First it was his “Hymietown” remark that proved he's anti-Semitic, now his tirade about Obama, where he dropped the N-bomb and threatened to rip out Obama's nuts. I don't know about you, but Jackson seems to be a tad angry that on Obama's worst day, he is still 1000 times more popular than Jackson has ever been.

What's with the Homeless and God? All the homeless I see are always thumping a bible, spouting off some verses or psalms, or just babbling how he's found God. Well, apparently God hasn't found them, since I think God has some stroke to help get these bums a job or house. Still it is fun to see what lack of mental health makes possible.

Saturday is the Red Bulls/Galaxy game. I'm going to it only in hopes to see either Beckham or Landonpussy suffer a compound leg fracture, and see kids and women weep. that would be pure comedy to me.

No video this entry, not in the mood to look for one

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

This is how the government works from all that I have learned and read. I hope the following questions are answered that many have of the government:

Why does some of what is considered a “church” issues are dealt with by the “state”, when there is supposed to be a direct separation of both?

Why does the government seem more dramatic over issues or laws than they really have to be?

Why do we deal with states that should in reality be destroyed, and allow them to control oil through an illegal cartel, and then allow them to invest and buy obscenely amounts of money and influence in our country?

Why does whoever claim to be for “change”, in the end help keep the status quo of this government?

How come some in government who can be perceived as failures profit and live in wealth, while those who seem to be making noise, either toil in government or are even killed either by “accident”, or murder?

Why is Scientology bashed in the media?

What the hell is with all the symbols on the money?

How come our form of Democracy has lasted over 200 years with the same basic rules, while other democracies have had to go through at least one reorganization in their history?

  • This country isn't ran by the executive, Judicial, or the Legislative arms. The country is actually ran by a group of the heads of industry and affluent men called the Illuminati
  • The Illuminati were first affluent Englishmen who left England, not just for religious freedom, but also to have control and more wealth, something not allowed under the monarchy in England.
  • When the time came, The Illuminati decided that the time came and decided to declare independence from England, hence the Declaration of Independence and the Revolutionary War.
  • After the Revolutionary War, it was time to form a government. Rather have an obvious totalitarian government, which they just rebelled against, it was decided that the Illuminati would have their power, but hide it under a republic-style government, where the people will have the illusion of a representative government but those who have the power will pull the strings from behind the curtain. 
  • Many of the Illuminati head the largest of industry, as well as control the individual wealth in not just this country, but as well influence and control the rest of this world in economic, military, and social, means.
  • Whenever anyone is chosen by the Illuminati to work in government, but to us they are “elected to office,” even the President of the United States, they are secretly told by the Illuminati what their role is. I they do heir roles correctly, they will be rewarded with more power and/or compensated for their work. If they challenge their role, they will have their lives ruined, possibly ended. 
  • No matter what law is created, voted on, and debated is all one large orchestration of the Illuminati to give the impression of the government that is supposed to represent the American people is working.
  • The heads off all major industries have people in Washington to “sell” their agendas to the “elected officials”, but in reality these people are there to ensure that all the roles defined by the Illuminati are followed. If they are, the “elected official” is rewarded with a bonus under the guise of “contributions”
  • Organized religion also are intertwined with the illuminati, despite the statement that there is a separation between church and state, but some of the issues of the church (ex laws, abortion, etc.) are made into state law to appease religion. But the illuminati conceded the media and entertainment industries to the Jewish, who had grown in affluence themselves. In return the Jews make sure the media and entertainment keeps the truth from coming out to public, as well as the support of the state of Israel in economic, political, and, military means. 
  • The Arabs are also a part of this web. America gives the Arabs money or equity partnership for their oil, but in return, the Arabs reinvest the money back into America in the form of purchasing equipment to drill for oil or other goods
  • Some may say why the Illuminati supports and helps both the Jews and Arabs. First, both have what the Illuminati have to keep their power. Also, the Illuminati and America profits form war in this world, so supporting both sides maximizes profit and power, and when either is exploited they are dealt with.
  • The only real threat today to the Illuminati is Scientology and their followers. the followers of Scientology are some of entertainment's top stars and executives. This is why the media relentlessly attacks them to try to knock them down in their influence.
  • Some may wonder why the Catholics are also a target of the Illuminati due to some of the media attention the Catholics receive, especially if organized religion are in partnership with them. This is more due to the deep seeded rivalry that goes back to when the Church of England as formed in protest of the Pope and the Catholic Church.


There are more things I could put to prove all this, but I will direct you to this link to show some other ideas that have been thrown around that our country is starting to move to the “New World Order.” I am neither for or against all this and how this country works since I have no affect on society, and I can live in the bliss that things are being taken care of.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

I went to a picnic yesterday with some friends and family. Overall it was a nice time. I didn't get sunburned, but bit to hell by the bugs. (hack line alert!) I guess that makes me sweet. There were a few things that popped out at me this day. First, when you invite a Dominican or Puerto Rican to anything, expect them to roll in at least 8 deep with their crews. But they can cook, and I went home happy. My cousin brought some outdoor games to the picnic, and most played with them. This surprised me since I was expecting they would have left those games alone and played the traditional games they play like dominos and/or dice. Speaking of which, I was informed a proper Bocce set was acquired for the Lake George trip, so I will have to explain to those who are at the house that this is a game where stabbing other players due to accusations of cheating or anger is not allowed, unlike how I've seen said dominos or dice game end.

I also got to see a new Iphone 3g in person at this picnic. It looks sweet, and I want one. I'm hoping this September to get one, but I'll even take a first generation Iphone since I didn't think that was a bad phone either. I already have plans to put my family plan into two different plans so I can keep my number.

I will say this: this picnic did show me that there is still family and the love and ideals of what a family should be still exist. Some of it may not be the most orthodox, but in this society where some take parenting like a joke or they have kids just because it's a mealticket to be a parasite off of the government, its still nice to see that the basic idea of family is still around.

Oh yeah, I mentioned my theory on how the country works, which I will write in detail maybe tomorrow, and for some reason, most people think I am batshit crazy. I guess the ignorant are afraid of the ultimate truths in this world. Most can't live or think the way of the righteous like me, which I will go into detail one day as well.

Most of these people I will be in a house upstate for a week...it's going to be a hell of a time and I can't wait.

On a side note. I am glad that no matter how dark my life gets, there are the truly stupid and pathetic that still carry a torch for me that will light the way....away from them, but I will have a light to see where I will not be going to again. I get it, you wish I was still around, but you blew your opportunity with me so move on.

Finally, since I left my last entry with some bad white rap, I thought I would put some finer quality white rap here to even things out.

First, The Beastie Boys:






House of Pain:






and for the hell of it, The Young Black Teenagers:

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Fun with Youtube people!!! here's some videos I've found on the site. most are probably NSFW, so you may want to wait to get home to see these.

Ghetto Sleds and what they used to do with them-featuring Bubb Rubb and Lil Sis:


Best of Tyson:


Rob Paravonian's song "He's got coke"....who hasn't had this happen to them?


Another reason suburbia is a problem and proof why the terrorists thinks we are asses:


As funny as this is, it's almost exactly how commercial/terrestrial radio censors songs:


The Desert Eagle, and how funny chicks with guns can be:




and Lastly, some hardcore rap straight from the streets...of toronto?!?!?!:


On a side note, what was funnier: how many Black kids thought this dude was legit before the video came out, or the faces of shock of said Black kids when the video did come out?

and a response:

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

I want to talk about hope, and how irrelevant the idea of it is now in my life. hope to me is nothing more than just one wishing for an outcome they have little to no control over. So in essence hope is nothing more than wishing for luck to fall their way. I used to have hope like everyone else. I hoped for a lot of things in my life, some came through, some didn't. Hope for me died several times in the past only to come back for me. It first died when my father suddenly died, and I realized all the hope and prayers i did would get me nowhere. It came back late february when someone came into my life and for the first time in months made me feel like I was someone that mattered, and that the possibility of happiness in this world was possible. That hope was dashed when thing ended, and i was a complete mess.

That lasted for a while, but the hope of finding some happiness slowly came back to me, but in that real pathetic way-desperation of wishing something better is coming. last August hope came back into my life, as well as someone I wanted back at the time. The hope lasted for months, and consumed me to a point where desperation to achieve what my hopes put in my head-vivid dreams of what I wanted life in the future to be in the way of what I wanted my family to look like, shut out any rational thought. Well in Mid December in one 15 min phone call, all that crashed and any hope I had died.

Today, i have no hope or wishes for my life beyond just keep on keeping on. I don't sit here wishing for all these things. If I am to have certain things, it will find it's way in my life at this point. Sounds like a shitty way to think/live, but at least I know how things are, and know that now things are what they are supposed to be.

Now onto more links to put smiles on your faces, after reading that dogshit I just wrote.

Analysis of Cosmo

pretty funny prank

Monday, July 07, 2008

Just a short posting. First I tried some of that 5 hour energy boost stuff this morning, and wow does it work. It tastes better than Red Bull, and it doesn't make my heart race. It lasted most of the day, and it wasn't a huge crash, just felt as tired as I did before I took it. Between the energy shot and the humidity, I sweated so much I must have lost several pounds. it was so bad my t-shirt I wore under my work shirt felt like a shirt would feel after being in the washer.

and now some more links I have found on the net:

the anatomy of a douchebag that can be found all over the suburbs-why cant' the terrorist take these jizzbags out?!?!

I want this shirt

Sunday, July 06, 2008

It was a nice weekend of drinking, fighting, and friends. I spent my 4th of July home drinking and clearing out my DVR. I didn't go out since I had no plans, and took advantage of the day to rest and hang around the house. Finished off my bottle of Jager as well Friday night. Spent Saturday getting some stuff done, and that night had my cousin and friend over to watch the UFC PPV. It was the first UFC event I ordered, and it was a good show. All the fights had action in them (which most boxing events don't have these days-and they wonder MMA is making boxing irrelevant). It was a nice night hanging out.

Today was cleaning up and just hanging around the house. Sundays usually are “down” days for me. I've mentioned this before I am sure. I'm not sure why it is, maybe due to the fact my dad died on a Sunday, maybe it's one last day of “freedom” before workweek, I am not sure. I just am in a bit of a down mood, and sometimes that leads to me thinking way too much about myself and criticizing myself and some of the things that have happened in my life. It's not a nice cycle to be in. There were some things that distracted me for a bit though today. My aunt and uncle stopped over for a few hours to see my mom and look at an old TV stand (they took in the end-one less thing to get tossed this week). Also helping out some people with their issues kept my mind off of myself. It really is an odd feeling, and it does put me in a mood. I got to figure out something to make this change on Sundays.

anyway here's some more links to some funny stuff, partly thanks to Firefox's plug in “Stumble upon”, but also Lazlow.com:


10 Signs Of Being In Love That Might Actually Be Symptoms Of Crippling Or Fatal Disease


ecards that are funny

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

I went to the doctor today, and he notices my blood pressure wasn't really changing too much. When I started the medication to now, he said that I may not need the medication I am on. He said to monitor my blood pressure for the next month and if it doesn't skyrocket, stay off the meds. He also said I have to lose weight (I am 240lbs), and just pay attention to my diet. I hope this works, so it just proves the savage I was going to before this doctor was wrong, and it proves me theory that men should only go to men doctors, and women should only go to women doctors.

I have a couple links also here for your enjoyment:

Ghetto Prom-see what happens when the prom gets some “flava”

some unmotivational posters, though there is a lot of truth to them

read this article, and you'll have to agree that Jersey and it's people are fighting with Florida for dumbest state-New Jersey stinks

New episode of the Lazlow show is up. go check it out and enjoy his goodness