I knew this could happen, just thought it would happen later this year or next year. This morning I got the news I was being let go by my company. Got called into a meeting with my bosses, felt the tone of the meeting wasn't good, and it wasn't. So we went through the motions and stuff about my severance package and whatnot. I gave my stuff in, and was escorted out of the building. That was that.

I don't know how I feel. I don't feel sad totally since it was sort of expected given the climate of the job and all. I”m not mad or anything about he whole thing. I just feel numb right now. I”m sure it will hit me Sunday night or monday. I was going nuts today in the house, since I didnt' know what to do with this sudden free time, but I haven't freaked out or anything about the job loss.

What do I do now? I have money coming in for at least this month, then go on unemployment. I am not sure what else to do right now, I may take next week to just rest-haven't had time to for a while. Ina few days I'll look over my resume and stuff, but right now I want to clear my head and also just not focus on this for a few days.

I know I said I took a break form women for a bit, but this is one of the few times I wish I had someone. Not just for the pity bang or pity head, but just someone to be here. I talked to my cousin on the phone about all this, but it's not the same as it would be with someone special outside of family.