I have been enjoying my DSL service a lot. What would take hours to download now takes minutes. There‘s a wrestling company in jersey that puts their shows online, and I downloaded their show for the first time (took about 30-40 minutes to). They do a good job with their production. I’ve updated all my info on all my sites in almost no time. I also emailed new resumes to my temp agency reps so they have my new email address.

Tomorrow I have my phone interview with a client of one of my temp agency that I am up for assignment with. I don’t know what exactly this interview will consist of, but I hope to get a hold of my account rep. So I can find out about it. She sent me the script that I would use at this assignment (which is a Customer Service Rep/ Proxy Solicitor position in Lynhurst, NJ). I am not sure if it’s just a regular interview with the contact there or is it a simulation of what I would be doing there. Ether way, I hope I do well and get this gig. It’s $12/hour for at least 4 weeks (but could be indefinite). It’s not hard to get to this place, only 20 minutes from midtown via bus, and its’ 8am-4pn Monday to Friday. Cross your fingers and hope I get this…I really could use it!!!

Other than that, I’m nervous about one thing in my life that hasn’t been resolved yet. I hope to get a resolution this week, but I have now idea due to lack of communication (which is one of the issues with this thing). I hope that it turns out the most positive way it could (I don’t want to say “turns out the way I want it to be” because that could damage the other side of this). This week should be an exciting week!!!

Oh yeah RON AND FEZ ON XM 202 THIS SEPTEMBER!!! If you don’t have XM, now’s a great time to get it, a roady2 goes for $50, and the home kit goes for about $30-40, and the subscription is $12.95/month or about $145/year. Great value and great service!!!

I got my DSL all running now…IT’S FREAKING AWESOME!!!! Some of the site that took forever to load now comes up like nothing. I got my dads and sister’s computers on it too, and it all works great!!!

I also may have an assignment form a temp agency!!! It’s for a place in Jersey for at least 4 weeks, but could be indefinite. It pays $12/hour from 8-4. I got a phone interview with the client Monday, so if I wow them, I’m probably good as gold. I also have my TSA test on Wed. Things are starting to look up now!!!

That’s all I got tonight.

I can’t wait. Next week I get DSL in this mofo!!!! That means no more AOL for me (my family is going to keep using it, I’m going with the MSN Verizon gives with the DSL). That means I’m getting a new email address and I think I’ll only have one now. I have one for my fun stuff, and the one for my job stuff. I’m gong to stay with just one and play around with Outlook to help file the emails I get. What sucks is all the sites I have to go to now and update my info!!! This also means I have to redo my image links, but that’s no big deal once I figure all that out. So if things seem screwy, it’ll take a little bit for me to fix right. And with DSL I can do it in minutes as far as uploading to the web space they give me and with the FTP program I have. I need to just figure out everything as far as the addresses and all, and I’ll be set. Oh and my cousin also tells me Porno looks MUCH better with DSL…at least that’s what he’s heard of course, he is a married man…you put 2 and 2 together!!!! Only thing of the whole thing that I’m sort of not looking forward to is the networking of all my computers in this house. I was warned that it can be a ball buster, but hopefully luck will be on my side. I’ll let you all know what my new email is soon, along with my new AIM name that I just got but won’t be using for a while. Let me know if you want all that and I’ll decide if you are worthy

Everyday I have this XM free trial I love it even more!!! I don’t know if I’m going to get the roady home kit now, I may just stay with the online stream at home (though I don’t get all the channels, I get enough that I like) and keep the Roady in my car. Maybe down the road I”ll get the home kit, the only thing Xm doesn’t stream are things they don’t’ won outright (the talk shows on their hot talk channel-all owned be Clear Channel or other media entities, and all their sports channels-they are all either Fox, ESPN, or Sporting News, and a couple music channels programmed by Disney and other media companies). What you get online is all the music channels and OPIE AND ANTHONY!!!! Oh yeah, it may also include Ron and Fez, but that’s been speculated for months…and is the worst secret ever since it’s a given they are going to XM as soon as September. Technology is a beautiful thing!!!!

This whole weekend was a fucking waste of time. Last night I had that thing with the dog show and my near breakdown. Right after I posted about that, my AOL program froze up and I couldn’t use that. I restarted the program, and my entire program froze up. After restarting my computer, I tried logging into AOL again. Sure enough after 10 minutes. The same fucking thing happened again. I reinstalled AOL, and guess what, IT HAPPENED AGAIN!!!! I tried letting the program correct itself, but it didn’t work. So now it’s a crapshoot if I can stay online for more than 10 minutes. I HATE AOL AND HOPE THEY FUCKING DIE!!!

Today, I tell my family I would like to get a different ISP in this house, and maybe even DSL. After explaining how it will save them money in the long run (less phone line to pay for), it gets shot down because my dad doesn’t think I know what the hell I’m talking about. He’s worried about the old emails he has saved on his AOL account and getting rid of them would be bad (his genealogical stuff is on there). I told him that he could copy and paste them all onto a WordPerfect Document (mind you he’s printed most of them anyway). So the whole idea is shot down, which means I’m fucked until I get a job. During all this, things were said about what I feel about how my father treats me, and he says he never did. I tried to explain everything to him about all this and how it would work, but of course just like anytime I wanted to do something, he doubts my knowledge and ability. My mom’s staying out of this, which she always does.

I don’t’ know, all this plus a broken promise on top of it (something was supposed to happen this weekend which didn’t) has really stressed me out and has cause me to have an even shorter fuse. In fact, just minutes ago, I almost had a breakdown in front of my mom, but I held together. I also realized that I might possibly came upon something; get rid of the 2nd phone line and get DSL through the primary line (one used for the phone). I still have to see how much more it will be, but with that situation, they all would have their AOL, and I could have my other ISP, and we all would have a faster Internet connection. If anyone have an ideas as to weather or not this is a good idea, please email me.

My head hurts, I’m going to bed now.

I had a weird experience tonight. I was watching a dog show and for some reason I almost broke down and cried. I had to leave the room for a little bit and I came back and changed the station. This happened again while watching a “puppy Chow” commercial. All I kept thinking of was my old dogs and how much work they required to stay healthy. I also thought of how useless I was in helping them. I for some reason kept thinking that if I were to take care of them by myself, they would have been in worse position because I wouldn’t be able to afford the medical care. And seeing the eyes of the dogs/puppies on the screen reminded me of the eyes of my dogs, and how they looked at me like ”you’ll help me, won’t you?” It just tore my heart apart and almost caused me to break down. This also is the same feeling I occasionally seeing a small child. I realized this could just be from all the bad feelings in my head from all having no job and I can’t support myself. I think I am a strong person, but only strong when I don’t have to be relied on by other people to help. It would break my heart if someone looked to me to help them and I couldn’t, that’s what I felt tonight seeing all those dogs/puppies. I am just rambling on now just to get this out of my head

On a brighter side, I’ve been listening to XM’s Internet stream (I get a free 30-day trial through Dell). First, it sucks having a dialup connection when the feed has to rebuffer often, but the channels they offer on their site (half of what’s on their system) is impressive. I can’t wait to get the receiver setup (which won’t happen for at least another week).

Well I heard nothing from any agencies yet. I honestly don’t expect to really hear anything until college starts up and companies don’t’ have any interns around anymore. I’m still stressing out, but I’m trying to put things in perspective. Speaking of job stuff, I finally converted my resume to a web page and it’s now one of the links on the side. I took my home address and phone numbers off it, but if you want a MS Word format version of it, email me and I’ll send you a copy.

I’ll try to write more this weekend, depends on what happens and if it’s worth writing about.

I don’t know if it’s the heat, the pressure I am under to do better (I’m 26, have no career, and living at home for Christ’s sakes!!), or what but I have really been at a point where I’ve almost freaked out on little things lately. I owe people so much, not just financially, but a lot of things. I feel so much pressure to do right by them. Last night I sat up most of the night thinking about the past. I know I shouldn’t since I can’t change it, but I can’t help it to think about all the failures in my past and think about how it’s my fault for all of it. Why have I been thinking of this lately? Since last Friday, one thing has been stuck in my head; my dad who was on vacation last week said to me “I don’t know how you do it all day sitting around.” He meant how can I handle not going out in the heat, but I took it a whole different way. It took me all the strength to hold myself back form verbally going off on him. I did let out a “So you think I enjoy not working and sitting around here on my ass.” He did shoot back defending what he meant, so I was able to diffuse myself from saying/doing much worse.

I’ve been a little more sensitive lately, and I am afraid of going off on someone, it really sucks to be in this position. I really can’t give the reason why I have been pressuring myself a lot more lately. Most I can say is that I owe to others to do so, and thinking of what happens if I fail again is a frightening thought.

Funny thing about my “Studs up” Column on “Metrofanatic.com” (*cough* cheap plug *cough*) happened recently. I’ve done about 5 columns so far, and people seem to like it. I was also interviewed by someone writing an article about “Metrofanatic.com” which I found to be interesting and odd at the same time. I admit some of the stuff I have written has been a little inaccurate, but nothing more than what the average press gets wrong. People have reacted to what I been doing positively, and who knows, maybe some of the local press will take notice and start to pay me for my ranting!! The funniest part is that I really have been doing this column as almost a goof, as in not really doing this like it’s a means to make money. Honestly, there are some other columnists on the site, I thought I could do just as a good job as them, and the guy running the site was looking for more writers. I sent in a sample, and bam “Studs Up” was born. I went over this in another entry, so I won’t go into further detail.

Other parts in my life have been progressing well. It’s been going painfully slowly but it’s moving forward. Hopefully this weekend things will move more forward. I sold my R/C truck, now I just have to wait for the money to come so I can ship it off. The guy was supposed to let me know about the money tonight, but I haven’t heard anything yet (nothing from him or Paypal, meaning he sent the money there already which is what I asked him to do).

That’s all I got tonight, Mets are still doing about .500 baseball. They still suck, but at least this season the Mets can say they were in the toughest division this season..

My thing Northpointe Personnel went well. This was the first time in a while since I had to take the PATH train. I gotta say, I wish the MTA ran their trains system like the PATH. It’s clean, the stations don’t’ look and smell like a public restroom, and it’s just a nicer looking setup. They have a cool thing where ads are on the walls of the tunnels, and are made so they are like a flipbook. Scared the hell out of me the first time, seeing a guy driving staring at me, but it was an ad for a Nissan I think. It’s a cool thing to see. I was tested at this agency for all Office programs, and I did surprisingly well all of them. Word and Excel I did well, and on Access and PowerPoint (two programs I haven’t’ used in over a year), I got over 70 on them. Like most agencies they are impressed with my resume and seem optimistic they can get something for me. Yesterday, a recruiting firm called me and sent me an application about then helping me find a job. They seem legit and I have a phone interview with them this Monday (they are based in Ca., but they have offices all over the US). Here is a list of the agencies I’m registered with:

Goodtemps
Career Blazers
Supporting Cast
Northpointe Personnel


I also have to find the other agencies I was registered with in the past, but forgot who they were!!! If anyone has any info about these agencies I listed that could help me, I would appreciate it

What a lazy day today. I really didn’t’ do much, I was awoken by the USPS guy this morning at 8 with my sister’s copy of “Harry Potter.” After my breakfast, I decided to try to install the antenna to my Roady2. I got it on, but it’s not the cleanest install. I have pics of how I did it, where I had to run the wire from the antenna on the roof around the windshield under the weather stripping, along a small channel where the fender and roof panels meet, down the doorstop, through the door’s weather stripping, and into the car. Once it was in the car, I ran it under the kickguard, then under my seat, along the center console and up to where the receiver will be (on one of the front vents). All that is needed now is for me to activate the receiver and get the home kit (hope to have that done by the end of next week.



sorry for the shitty pic, but it’s off my phone.

I’ve also been playing around with my Mozilla Firefox. It’s a sweet web browser with more security things than IE, and I also like that I can have it set up to update and let me know when some sites are updated with info (like ones with RSS feeds, blogs, some news sites). I’ve been converting some of my bookmarks to this option, and it works well. Makes looking at other’s blogs easier, since I can see if anyone updated their stuff

Ah what a great day. Went into Manhattan this morning to interview with the temp agency Career Blazers. Got out of the train station and the skies opened up. I try to open my umbrella and it broke!!!! You get some attention screaming out loud “Son of a bitch!!!’ in a busy train station….Well I get to the agency soaking wet, have my interview after filling out the mountain of paperwork. The interview went well, and I this was one of the few agencies I have gone to and felt confident in their abilities. After testing I left and came home. Tomorrow I am going to Hoboken to talk to another agency. The funny part is Career Blazers and this one in Jersey, Northpointe, called me after seeing my resume on Monster.com. They both called me yesterday to set up appointments and asked about my work history, which they were impressed with it (long story, just glad that I know people who got my back…). Funny part was Career Blazers wanted me to write all this info down, but the minor fact I was fighting traffic on the Whitestone Expressway meant my hands were full. They were cool enough to email me al the details I needed. Northpointe called me later in the day and when they gave me all the info I needed. I asked the big question; how far are you form the Hoboken train station (if they were far away, I wouldn’t go…I’m not driving to Hoboken where parking is worse than Ridgewood Queens). My luck hit good when they said they were a block from the station.

I’m getting a little excited about the prospects, but I still don’t want to get too excited if things don’t pan out. By the end of the summer, when all the interns that companies don’t pay go back to school, the temp market should pick up.

So I get home and was cleaning out some shelves, and I found something I totally forgot about. It was a gift certificate I got for Christmas from someone (no name on it, but probably my sister). It was for $25 from Circuit City. I decided to see how much left was on it (since places like to rape you and make the value go down without you knowing). Lo and behold, it was still $25. I had some other money in my pocket, so I ran to the XM setup and got me a Roady2…now I’m one step closer to having XM. All I need now is my thing to sell on Ebay or someone gives me the $230 I’m looking for on some other R/C site and I’ll have the money for the home kit to play the Roady2 through my stereo and also the money to pay for a full year subscription.

This day has helped made me feel better than I was yesterday. I’ve been stressed out about this job thing, and I really don’t want to screw things up. The things that happened today has calmed me, and now I’m amped up for tomorrow, especially since this agency looked for me, not me looking for them.

Oh, to top it all off….HOCKEY’S COMING BACK!!! MULLETS ARE BACK!!

As Quagmire from “Family Guy” says:
“Giggty giggity giggity…all right!!!”

I’m in a pissy mood. My auction didn’t fare too well (thank god I put the reserve price on it). I wanted $230 for the model car I was selling, and the final bid was $125. The kicker was that the guy who put the highest bid had the balls to send me a massage about he’ll have the money to me in a couple days. I sent him an email that he didn’t meet the price and he’s not getting it. I said I’d still sell it to him for the price I wanted but he started accusing me of price gouging. Well, he complained to Ebay, and they told him to piss off, saying that he didn’t meet my reserve price and I have every right to refuse to accept his bid and since the auction was over. They also said that since he contacted me, it’s all on him, none on me. This sucks; it delays what I wanted to do with the money I was going to get. I relisted it today, but with a higher starting price ($150), and the same reserve price. I was going to put a “buy it now” price, but I can’t since I don’t have enough positive feedback (I really never use Ebay a lot, so I don’t get much feedback). Hopefully I’ll get what I want as far as price. So I guess it’s a couple more weeks until I get my XM radio…..

Went to the Metro game Saturday. It was a good time. A lot of people there looked at me like I was Lazarus or something, since I haven’t’ gone to a game in almost a year. It was cool watching the US game in the parking lot on a guy’s TV, and then went inside to see the Metro game. The ESC section, where I usually sit, sucks now. All the new-school members have pissed the old-school members like me off to the point where they don’t sit there anymore. Most don’t bother going because the newer members just stand around and do nothing, when they should be ball-out singing, chanting, screaming their heads off. There are some still there, but they are the “star trek” type, where Metro is their lives, and they look down on others who have lives outside of a soccer team. This situation really pisses me off, but its everyone’s fault. By that I mean the leaders of the ESC, the members, he stadium security all have fault in this. I don’t want to get into the issues, but lets just say the wild bus that was the ESC is stuck in neutral and it’s rolling back down the hill.

Other than that, not much happening, still trying to get a temp assignment. I will put my resume up someday, so if you have some job opening, you know someone who may be able to do it. That’s all I got right now. I hope to write more this week, that’s if I got something to talk about.

The past several days have been not too exciting. I really haven’t had a lot to do. I have been watching my auction, hoping the action picks up on it. So far I think there’s about 10 people watching it, and I’ve had a couple bids on it. I hope that I get the money I am hoping for, but I have until Saturday to find that out. I was originally going to get some equipment for my R/C car, but with the sales on XM satellite receivers, I’m thinking different. I can get one of the receivers that are on sale, a home kit (it already comes with a car kit), and pay for a year’s subscription. I got some thinking about this….I miss Opie and Anthony and decent music!!!

I spent this weekend doing nothing. Not that I wanted to, but I didn’t bother calling people to see what they are doing….I am not big on being the third wheel. I did look around Ebay and was thinking of maybe trying to be one of these people that make money off of it. I still have to do some research on it, but not really going to do too hardcore (more “I’ll talk to some people to see if it’s worth it and read a book or two.”-type research).

Speaking of which, I got a book on this subject. I also was praising God in the bookstore at the same time. I was kneeling to see what books are on the bottom of the shelf, and I look up and there it was: a girl wearing a pair of low-riding Valure sweatpants and it accentuated the most beautiful ass I’ve seen in a long time. I’m talking a hot Italian ass. “Oh, thank you God for creating what is before my eyes.” Was all that went through my mind. After I found my book I got up and noticed the woman was wearing one of those chick Wife-Beaters, and no bra….I wish I had a picture to show you, but I couldn’t get my camera phone out and it would look creepy if I did. Its outfits like that is what makes the summertime bearable.

I got to write my third column for Metrofanatic.com. It’s been pretty easy to do so far. I’ve really gotten a lot of subject/talking points from just talking to some friends about the articles and message board postings I’ve read. Only downside is I really can’t talk or post anymore…I’ll be giving my columns away before I write them!!! I could cut and paste what I write on the boards and come up with a column like that, but it cheats both me and my peeps that read it. Plus I did that in college, and as good of a skill it was (I got a Howard Stern paper done twice like that…yeah, I stole material from myself….hoo hoo), It’s more fun to rant and rave off the top of my head…..or out of my ass depending on who you talk to!!!

That’s all I am writing tonight…now take what you learned from this, laugh at me, stop, then go out into the world and pass on my awesomeness.