Trouble in the Terraces of my mind

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Friday, September 30, 2005

Penn State sells crack!!!

Yes Penn State does, and here is a link to it

I went to PSU and this is the only ice cream I would eat.  It’s so damn addictive and it is like Dairy’s answer to crack!!! I may have to order some up for myself and bet my habit back.  

I got an interview this Monday and hopefully it goes well.  Other than that I have  nothing really happening.  I may go to the Metro game Saturday, but I really don’t know what’s going on this weekend.

That’s all I got now

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

**WARNING*** PLUGING MY OWN THING and how i did today

Time to be a whore now.  Here’s my latest column on Metrofanatic.com.

My interview went as well as it does in any temp agency, so it went Ok but there was a lot of testing.  I did well on the tests, and the woman I met with thinks that I have potential (wonder how many times she says that in a day).  I also got a call form another agency that said they may have a interview set up for me, but I should find out tomorrow if I have it on Friday.  

That’s all I got tonight, I’m not feeling well and I’m going to sleep.
Wednesday I have an interview with some firm that could get me a HR position. I was supposed to have this interview Monday, but it got moved to Wednesday. Funny part is that I got calls from my other agencies that had some offers of assignment, but they never got back to me about them (they said they forwarded my resume to the clients, but I never heard back…figure I wasn’t good enough for their client). This is really frustrating me, I spend at least 5-7 hours a day sending out my resume to every job position I think I have a shot at, but I have not gotten any replays from them. Oh well, that’s my problem.

I “acquired” the latest album by Disturbed, called “10,000 Fists”. I got to say it’s a damn good rock album. I think that this is the best album I’ve heard form them. All the songs are really well done, and the best part is that they haven’t “cleaned up” their sound, something that really hurts a lot of bands, and can kill their careers. The best song by far is the title track “100,000 Fists”. It really makes for a great opening track on the album, and sets the tone of the album. A lot of the tracks can be singles (and they have been playing a lot of the tracks on XM, something commercial radio would never do, or at least not after the lawyers butcher the songs to make it unlistenable), and they do a great cover of Genesis’ “Land of Confusion”.

Now let me say how I feel about my sports teams that I follow and love. First up is the Metrostars, who are doing their best to make it look like they are going to make the playoffs and I still think they will not make it. I‘m going to write a column (that’s “Studs Up” that can be found onMetrofanatic.com....yes I’m a plug whore) in a day or two on the GM and the recent remarks he has made. Hopefully I’ll have it up in a day or two, depending on if my self deprecating attitude doesn’t’ think it sucks and I further delay writing my column. I’m still paying close attention to the team. I mean how many times in one’s life do you know that there’s going to be a horrible train wreak and you can get good seats for it?

Next, let’s talk about the Mets…and how much they are more of a cheap skanky tease than a stripper during a lap dance in the “VIP room”. As usual, they blow any shot at the playoffs, and from the day they are eliminated they choose to go on a winning streak and give hope for the future seasons. They do this every year, and somehow they affect the playoff scenarios with teams still in it. It pisses me off to no end that they half-ass it and suddenly get hot when they don’t’ have to. This year was odd that EVERY team in the NL east were so good, that they got lost in the shuffle, if this was any other year, they probably would be in the playoffs.

Now for my Alma Mater, who are undefeated at this moment. Yes Penn State haven’t lost yet, but most of the teams were so weak it was like watching an adult beat up a 6 year old. They did almost lose to the Big Ten’s nerd school last week, but in the end they proved that the cool schools always win. They have a tough schedule coming up, which includes back-to-back games with Ohio State (no, I don’t’ so the faggoty THE…Ohio State crap, they are a cow college and their idea of marrying outside of the family is marrying your cousin instead of your sister) and Michigan. At least the OSU game is at home, so there’s a shot at winning the game. If PSU can play the way they can, and the Defense plays up to the hype, they can make a bowl game this season, and have a good foundation to build on.

Finally it’s time to talk about the G-MEN!!!! The Giants are going up and down, but they do have a good team. Only problem is that the division they are in is one of the toughest in the league. Realistically, I don’t see them making the playoffs, but they could get a 9-7 or 8-8 record this season, which isn’t too bad with how mediocre the league is.

That’s all I got tonight, until another time and check for may column this week on Metrofanatic.com (whoring myself out again…I know).

Friday, September 23, 2005

Who I think is hall of fame worthy

Today I’m going to talk about the Rock and Roll Hall of fame nominees that came out the other day.  I’m sure Blowhard (still one of the best blogs I read/comment on daily) will read this and probably explode when he reads my ideas as to why certain people are being put in, but that’s always fun to read/listen to (like when he and Ron of the “Ron and Fez” show goes at it on the air when it comes to music).  

Lets get to the list:

John Mellencamp I think should be in due to the fact that his music seems more “real” when you put it up against Springsteen (AKA the biggest fraud in music in my eyes, that should be another entry).  I like Mellencamp (or Cougar or whatever the hell he used to call himself during his career) and his music, and I’m sure it has influence many musicians (even if they don’t admit it)

Miles Davis is a hell of a Jazz musician, but Jazz is a different animal than rock and roll, so I wouldn’t put him in.  His music has been the basis of some rock songs, but I don’t’ think Jazz fits in the idea of rock and roll.

Cat Stevens also shouldn’t be put ni the rock and roll hall of fame, I think his music is great and all, but not rock and roll.  It’s more contemporary, “lite” music than rock.

Ok, this is where Blowhard’s hear will explode somewhere in Brooklyn.  I think Rap groups should be allowed into the hall of fame (at least those from the early days and any modern group not from the “dirty south” or pop acts like Eminem and 50 cent).  Rap is punk, as in both were an aggressive form of music that questioned the status quo and the industrialization of the music industry.  Rock and rap need each other to grow and develop.  Many rap groups admit to be into rock music, and I wish more rock groups and mucisians would admit that they like rap too.  This is why I feel Grandmaster Flash & the Furious Five and acts like them should be allowed into the rock and roll hall of fame.  

Blondie, along with punk rock acts the Patti Smith Group, the Sex Pistols and the Stooges should not even be questioned as to why they all deserve to be in the hall of fame.  Any band that has their name and “CBGB” put together in the same sentence should go straight to the hall.  Like Rap, these bands were the ones that made corporate radio/record labels change how they look at talent and how music is made.  I also think that Black Sabboth, and Lynard Skinard should also be allowed in as much as these bands.  They changed the face of music, and opened the doors to real rock music, not what the industry “thought” rock should be.

The other nominees are 1960s beat group Dave Clark Five, Boston-area blues-rockers J. Geils Band, dance masters Chic and Texans Joe Tex, and the Sir Douglas Quintet.  All but the J. Geils band in my opinion shouldn’t be put in.  They really don’t fit with the idea of rock and roll.  This is the major reason why a lot of people don’t’ really pay attention to the hall of fame, most of the people put in are for PC reasons and have no business going in.   Then again, the people who choose who goes in and who doesn’t are the same scum that make people listen to crap bands, and only allow the people in that they either couldn’t control, try to claim they helped “create” them, or made a bunch of money off the “clone” bands they created or found.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

My day Tuesday




Here’s a pic of me with Ron and Fez. I got to meet them in their studio on Tuesday. I went there with Photoshop Mike form Ronfez.net. He had made stickers and T-shirts that said “Fez Whatley has a posse”. It is an homage to Fez’s favorite wrestler Andre the Giant. It’s a funny looking sticker/T-shirt, and the guys like it.

It started with me meeting Mike in Flushing to go to Manhattan where the XM radio Studios are. We get there and as soon as we got through the door to XM, Master Po (a master of martial arts and security dude for XM and their talent) jumps up and says, “Can I help you Gentlemen?” We tell him why we are there and he takes our Ids and starts to process us. After about 20 minutes of waiting and filling out releases, we are allowed into the main part of XM’s offices/studios. We sit in front of the studio of Ron and Fez, and we get to see them do their show. We don’t really get to interact with Ron and Fez during the show (then they were on their 6 minute breaks, they were busy with show stuff and we didn’t want to interrupt them). I must say that when we were sitting there, the people there were real gracious and nice to us. They made sure we had what we needed and treated us well.

The Last 20 or so minutes of the show we got to sit in with Ron and Fez. Mike explained the shirts and gave them each one shirt and a bunch of stickers. I sat there quiet and didn’t’ say anything, since I didn’t’ want to jump in and look a like a moron. After the show was done, I gave Ron and Fez what I brought for them; a couple cigars for Ron and Oreo cookies for Fez (he loves them). We got to talk to them after the show was over and got pictures and some things signed. We were also each given bags filled with XM 202 stuff. I got an O&A shirt, some WOW stickers, and some other stuff (I decided to give my cousin the shirt and some of the stickers, since his birthday was this week…at least I plan when I see him).

Overall it was a nice time, though I wish to have gotten to talk to everyone more, but they had things to do during and after the show and I didn’t want to screw up their show or whatever. Who knows maybe I’ll get to be in studio again, but I am not going to force myself in. I was just happy I was allowed as much access as I was.

Other things going on….well I still have no job. I had a couple calls about interviews with agencies (I have one Monday afternoon), and I was supposed to hear about an assignment that was supposed to start today, but I never heard back from the rep. at that agency. I had been offered another run at the Altman Group, but they wouldn’t let me do day shift so I had to turn it down because I can’t do that night shift. Nothing else is going on really. I am still feeling a lot of stress and pressure on myself, but a lot of people tell me that it’s all in my head. Well, no shit, I know that I put a lot of things on my shoulders, and I do that to make sure that I try to stay focused.

That’s all I got now.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Firs off, let me whore myself out and show you the column I wrote last week

Second, nothing much really going on, just sitting here looking for work form 7am-about noon. I have been getting some calls about my resume and getting some bites, but nothing really seems to be coming from it. I don’t want to hear that “keep you chin up fella” bullshit, it’s been too damn long and it’s pissing me off to no end. I can’t start to tell you how much this has affected me, not just financially, but also personally. I could go into great detail about it here, but I really don’t think you really need to know all that…well at least yet, I’m sure it will get to a point where I rip off a huge ass post where I go into great detail about how my health has been and stuff of that nature due to the overall frustration of my life.

My lower back is killing me. I have no idea what happened, but all of a sudden my lower back has been killing me, and at one point I was in so much pain, I almost pissed myself getting out of a recliner. Today a lot of the pain is gone, but it still affects me a little.

Today was a fun day. I got to see some “buddays” today. When I get the pictures of what happened, I’ll write in full detail on what happened and how cool people were when they treated us.

One more thing: HIT THOSE LINKS ON MY PAGE!!! I don’t make any money off it (wish I did, maybe get a cool nickel for every click or something), but some of those blogs/sites are great to go to. I especially love going to the Bloward’s site. I find that one of the best blogs I’ve read just to laugh or think (next to mine of course). One that fascinates me is The Big Sexxy. The guy who writes it is into death metal (He is the drummer from “Unhollowed”), yet when you read his blog entries and his message board posts, he is a little whiney!!! I say that in jest, but still it is something you wouldn’t expect from a death metal dude.

Lastly, O&A AND RON AND FEZ PARTY RAWK!!!!!!

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Just thought I would ad some site for you to gaze at (not at work though THESE ARE NOT SAFE FOR WORK!!!)

Just a nice spot for free porn
hot chicks I have NO shot at
Random fun
Games to play
to spread your hate vocabulary
Hate cats?? Play this!!!

Monday, September 12, 2005

This entry will cover many things tonight, just because I want to put all these different things I have on my mind into one place, so please excuse the ADD.

First, today at 11AM, Ron and Fez made their debut on XM satellite radio. It was one of the most beautiful things I head, especially when Fez did the first coupe minutes as Ric Flair (his best impression by far). The show they did wasn’t bad for being a first show on a brand new format and situation. Sure they have the kinks and bugs to work out, but it’s still the great show I remember from their WNEW days. Blowhard (I will pimp his awesome blog whenever I get the chance, it’s a good thing to read and he’s just good people) even made a phone in appearance talking football, and got his balls busted as well, but it was a good segment. I was going to call in and mention I am part of “Fez’s Whatley’s Posse” (I got the stickers to prove, I’ll show them when I can scan one in), but I didn’t, don’t ask why…maybe I wussed out, but I will try to call in soon.

Ron and Fez are probably the most genuinely cool guys who treat their fans with respect, provided that you show them respect. I hung out with them in their studio a couple times (where my cousin and I got wasted and escorted out of their studio once after my cousin decided he couldn’t hold down all the screwdrivers he drank), and met R&F at several get togethers with their fans, and everytime both Ron and Fez were very nice and cool to talk to.

If you don’t have XM, you’re missing out on a great invention, no commercials or edited versions of songs on their music stations, and only 6-minute breaks on ch 202 (home of Opie and Anthony and Ron and Fez). There are commercials on the other talk/news stations (XM can’t help that, they don’t “own’ the content on them, they get paid to carry that content from NBC, ABC, and other media conglomerates). Now the big question: what are the presets on my receiver?? Well here they are:

Preset A (there are three sets of presets)
1. High Voltage 202 (see above for what’s on it)
2. Boneyard 41(hairbands and arena rock)
3. Ethel 47(90’s and today’s alternative)
4. Squizz 48(hard Alternative)
5. Fred 44(Deep Classic Alternative)
6. Fungus 53(Punk)
7. Raw 66 (Uncut Hip-hop)
8. The Rhyme 65(Classic Hip-hop)
9. Deep Tracks 40(Deep Album Rock)
10. Lucy 54 (Alternative hits)

Preset B (for others in the car, they may like these and I like them to sometimes)
1. 50s on 5 (50’s hits)
2. 60s on 6 (60’s hits)
3. 70’s on 7 (70’s hits)
4. 80’s on 8 (80’s hits)
5. 90on 9 (90’s hits)
6. Top 20 on 20 (top 20 hits)
7. Kiss 21 (Today’s hits)
8. Top tracks 46(classic Rock)
9. U-Pop 29(Euro and global chart hits)
10. XMU (college and indie radio)

Preset C
1. MSNBC 130 (audio MSNBC TV broadcast)
2. ABC news 124 (ABC news and Talk)
3. XM Comedy 150 (comedy)
4. Fox sports Radio 142(Fox sports Radio)
5. ESPN 140(ESPN Radio)
6. NASCAR 144 (Nascar radio)
7. Xtreme XM 150(“hot talk”, but rebroadcast from regular radio, so it’s got no edge to it)
8. MLB Home Plate 175(MLB’s channel of baseball talk shows)
9. America Right 166(all conservative talk shows)
10. Traffic and weather 211 (traffic and weather for NYC)


See, I am eclectic, either that or I have no damn clue what I like!!!!

What else is going on? I think I need to get out more. I plan on it, but I still need to get some money to do so. I also need to find places to go to. I should try to get to some of the get together that some of the message boards have (like ronfez.net, wackbag.com, and others) and just meet people I communicate with on these boards. Some of the people seem cool and it’d be cool to hang out with others rather than just sit on my ass all the time. Some of the people I talk to online have blogs, and they are on the side of this page, so take a look at them. On another subject my G-Men won yesterday, while the Jets got a nice ass-whooping. Penn State won Saturday, but they did allow a couple touchdowns late in the game. Metros also won, but it didn’t really help their playoff chances. That reminds me I have to write another column like this one here, but unfortunately, there’s no real news for me to talk about, and what I could talk about I already have done. Guess I have to use my writing skills to make what I already talked about seem fresh.

I think I said enough here, so until next time….

Friday, September 09, 2005

The past couple days have been full of stress. Thursday I went to the hospital with my dad and mom so my dad could go get this procedure done. I didn't know what exactly was going on and why he needed it, but it turned out he went for a stress test a week or so ago, and something didn't come out right. We get to Lennox Hill, and sit in the waiting room for about an hour before he gets called in to get ready for this thing. The waiting room sucked, and it had chairs I swear were made by a guy who was a midget, since I barely could sit in the chair comfortably. Eventually, my mom and I get to see my dad before he went to get the procedure done. It was weird seeing him in a hospital bed, and I kept having a bad feeling about the whole thing (but I always do get this feeling when I'm in a hospital, especially after all what I went through with my Uncle a couple years ago).

After my dad went into the operating room, my mom and I went outside for a little (she wanted a smoke and I wanted to check my voicemail). I check my voicemail and I have a new one from someone from an agency about my resume I sent her. I call her back and I have an interview at 2pm Friday in Midtown for a receptionist job. Sounds all good right? Well with the way my stupid brain works, I'm now freaking out about this interview and all the ways I can screw it up on top of my dad in the hospital. So now I got all this on my brain, while making sure my mom's doing Ok. Don't I sound like Mr. positive!!!

After a couple hours, which felt like the entire day, the doctor who performed the procedure came out and said he had to clear up a couple things in my dad’s arteries. Other than that things went well, but my dad has to stay in for the night. All my dad was worried about was getting something to eat, since he hasn't eaten all day. After he gets put in his room and we everything gets set up (including watching the nurses trying to get his IV right), my mom and I help him eat his dinner, and we leave. My mom and I get into an argument about something stupid on the drive home, but eventually get home and order dinner.

Today I had my interview, which went as well as all the other interviews I usually have. It consisted of me filling out paperwork, talking to someone, and taking tests out the ass. A twist to this one was when the person I was interviewing with took me to the back room where she had me stand in the middle of it and introduced me to the people who actually handle the assignments. It was uncomfortable, and they asked me a bunch of questions and then I was sent on my way with the standard “We don’t have anything now, call us in a week if you don’t hear from us.”

So now this weekend will consist mostly of me driving my dad around and do all his errands. It’s going to suck, since I tend to not have a whole lot of patience, especially with my mindset now and how tense I am at this point. The good part is it may break up that whole “sit on my ass and stew in my own hatred and rage” I usually do on a weekend. I’m still sore over the fact that I couldn’t go to the big Ron and Fez event in the city (it was right by where I had my interview, but I was not in a mood to wait in line for an hour to try to get into B. B. King’s). But feeling the way I feel now, I probably wouldn’t have had a good time anyway. I need to find something or someone to get my mind out of this funk I’ve been in. Maybe soon that will happen, but I’m not exactly holding my breath, or I won’t shit myself with woe if nothing happens (job-wise, chick wise, or other).

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Well this whole last week sucked. My birthday was a waste of a fucking day, I spent it in Jersey where I had an interview for 20 minutes for a temp assignment. I didn’t get the gig, which sucks because now I have no work now. On top of it, the one thing I asked for I didn’t get, and was really pissed the entire day because of that. Right now I am really teetering on the verge of just losing my mind. One thing I really lose my cool over is when someone says something about me not working or even joking about it. This weekend for example, my mom said something and I was pissed the entire day. I spent the whole weekend figuring out what I was going to do, why the hell hasn’t anything worked right, you know happy things like that. As usual I am being hard on myself (which people keep telling me I am, but I can’t help it). Tomorrow or Tuesday I have to email my temp reps new updated resumes (with my massive one week employment) and tell them I am available.

It’s not all bad, the US qualified for the World Cup Saturday beating Mexico (yet again, Mexico can’t handle pressure). Metros tied against Kansas City, but that doesn’t help out their playoff situation. I hope they don’t at this point, I don’t need to see them get their asses kicked and waste my time.

I love XM, but their Roady2 receiver sucks!!!!! It works at home on the home kit, after I jiggle the wire to get sound in both speakers. In the car, the cigarette power adaptor and tape adaptor is shit. Every bump I seem to hit jolts the cigarette lighter adaptor and the power goes out for a second to the receiver, and the tape thing makes the music sounds like It’s under water (again after I jiggle the wire, eventually after ten minutes it works), but if I hit a bump right, things go to hell and I’m pissed trying to fix the goddamn thing. I hope that when I eventually get a Myfi, I can leave everything plugged into the car cradle/charger in the car, and I don’t have to really worry about it every time I go for a drive. Plus I don’t have to worry about breaking the connectors on the receiver, like I have to with the Roady. When you go get a XM receiver, save up for a Myfi, you’ll thank me later!!! I wish I did, but I hope to solve that problem in the near future.