Trouble in the Terraces of my mind

hey...me writing here is a hell of a lot cheaper than therapy...

Monday, July 30, 2007

I was looking over all the interests I have, and I do have quite a few. I may seem like i have too many, where some get lost in the shuffle, but really I like it that way. Why do you ask? Because it helps make me a rounded individual. Sometimes I give one or two more attention than others, but when I start to get a little tired of the ones I am into, I can switch to another I'm not doing at the moment for a fresh look, and sometimes one thing I do in one interest can transfer over to another and make both interests more fun for me.

One thing some don't get and try to get me more into is being fully into something, like to the point where a TV/Radio show, sport, or just some hobby just consumes one's life, like where you are spending all your time, energy and money into getting some whole experience that you surround your life with. I know some who are like this and they are good people, but I can never be like that. First it's really cutting off a lot of one's life for some devotion and loyalty to something that in the big picture is trivial. I need many things to make my life feel full and complete, and can't base my entire life on one aspect that can go away as quickly as it comes into my life. There are the people who super happy to have what they are into succeed but get crushed to the point where depression comes in when something bad happens, almost to a point where they shut out the world and wallow in their misery over something they had no control over. I”m sorry, I find that way to live pathetic. I love my soccer teams, but if they lose I'm not overly depressed for more than a day. After that I move on, but there are others who will live with this loss like they are personally responsible for it. I never got that, and that's why people way into religion bother me. What really pisses me off is when some of these people tell me “you're not hardcore like us,” “you're not a real fan”.....fuck you, I choose to have a life outside of your little thing and excuse me if I want to broaden myself to make me a better man and God forbid have fun. This is why I tried not cash in on my writing skills or any of my interests. They are fun to me, and at some point it will seem more like a job and not fun if I tried to make some cash off this bullshit I happen to have some skill at. Why the fuck would I want to ruin something fun for a couple bucks?? I have been offered jobs to write about soccer, but I don't do it since I go to games to have fun and meet some cool people.

“Our team lost!!!” yeah did it? Did OUR team lose? Well I feel no real pain, other than I wasted money and time on watching/screaming at a shitty performance, but guess what? By the time I get home, I have other bigger issues to deal with, not how a team played in ONE game. When a team succeeds or fails, or if one of my favorite radio/TV shows does well or poorly, or if my R/C car breaks or runs well, sure it's frustration or elation at first but I get over it. There are some that can't see past the result and have whatever result just consume and dictate their lives and NOT get past it. I am so sick of seeing fans cry when their team fails and act like it's some sort of great pain. Or worse, when the team wins and they are so happy like THEY did something. To me in the long run all those good feelings are good at first, but what in reality does it do to affect my whole life? Makes me feel better a little, but for only a second. It's not something that is a life long feeling.

You want to know what pain is? Pain is when you see your Aunt's dead body laying in the street right after she got hit by a car when you were a little kid. Pain is when you find your father's body on the floor and no matter how much CPR you do, you can't revive him . Pain is when the woman you can't deny being in love with (but never told her since at the time you thought it was too soon) goes from saying the same goddamn things to you and making you feel this is “it”, to saying she will only give you part of her except her love, and her heart that you think she was going to give you because she is too fucking afraid to give it in case you break it like some of her exes did in the past. And this doesn't happen once but TWICE after some time and you start talking to her again and just when you think you and her are going to get back together, she pulls the same shit again.

It's shit like this that could put someone on the ground for a long time and almost suicidal, but guess what, I got over it and am better than ever. So excuse me if I'm not pissed for a long time if the Red Bulls or Mets lose, or if my favorite radio show or TV programs are suspended or canceled, I got other things to worry about in my entire life more than some trivial show or sport. Seriously, if you are affected by something that is something you choose to enjoy in a good way or bad way when they do good or bad to a point where it controls your actions and life in general for more than a week......kill yourself, please. You add nothing to society. Get hurt/happy, take a few days to get over it and move on...how fucking hard is that?? If all the shit I was into disappeared tomorrow, I would be a little down, but I would get over it and move forward. Sadly there are some in the world would never get over anything....so again if you are one of those type people..die, get in the coffin. You add nothing to the world outside the occasional good song and maybe some comedy, and of course a lot of headaches for those who have to listen to your bitching and moaning.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

I saw the Simpsons movie last night and it was pretty good. It was well worth the money to see it, and if you like the Simpsons, you'll like the movie. I'm not going to give any of it away, but you can tell a lot of the old-school writers that were brought in wrote the bulk of it, and to me that's a great thing. I haven't really watched the show for at least 4-5 years because the show is nothing more than guest star after guest star, and also a “pimp Fox's other shows” show. Then again 18 years on the air is a hell of a thing,and I guess the plot well is getting quite empty.

I also learned last night that taking myself out of the dating game for a bit has freed my attitude and personality up a bit. I feel less pressure and I can be the real me. It's really refreshing. I also learned dhow fun it is to see other couples act and how pathetic guys can be around chicks sometimes. It's really entertaining and damn funny! Now I know why my cousin had such a smile on his face hearing bout my trials and tribulations! But at the same time I was cringing since I saw myself in some of the situations, and I remembered how I reacted in those situations. I guess taking step back sometimes does help give one perspective. It's amazing that it's only been a couple days, but I have learned a lot about things and I feel so freed. My confidence and attitude is getting more and more, and I am almost back to my full, polarizing self again.

I just reserved two games yesterday that come out this fall. I reserved Grand Theft Auto IV for the Xbox 360 and Super Smash Brothers for the Wii. They come out later this year and I can't wait. I really cant' wait for GTA IV, since I loved the entire franchise since the first game, and seeing the previews and trailers for the game, it's going to look awesome. Super Smash Brothers is another game I'm excited for. I played the original game before and the new game looks good.

I finally started buying music from Itunes. I got the new Sevendust album Alpha today off of Itunes, and it's an amazing. I am still amazed the ban doesn't get the respect they should get. Then again they are a real rock band and not a pussy rock band like Incubus, Nickelback, Staind, or Hinder. Rock music these days is pathetic, since most rock stars are more like Metrosexual douchebags more concerned about their image than their music, but chicks tend to like these type of bands. The good thing is that bands like Sevendust, Korn, Hed Planet Earth, Rage Against the Machine, and Skindred are still around so I have something and real men have something to listen to. Also I finished putting all my CDs on my computer and it only is 3 gigs total. But I'm still getting a 30 gig Ipod down the road, since I can still put plenty of other stuff on it.

Friday, July 27, 2007

I made a choice today that I hope helps clear out my head and just settle me about some stuff. First before I say what I chose to do, let me explain why I chose to do something rather than decide to do what I did. In my mind, a choice is something one does of their own free will, and a decision is something one is forced to make. I do what I want in my life, I don't have to do a damn thing. I make choices, and I rarely make decisions. If I am forced into making a decision by someone or something, I will make it a point to make sure as much as the decision negatively affects me, it hurts the ones forcing me to make the decision at least just as much. So if you are thinking of making me decide on something I don't want to, just know it won't end pretty.

With that out of the way, I have chosen to take myself “out of the market,” or whatever the hell he saying is, not actively look for a chick, and just sit back for a while. Why am I doing this you may be asking (that's if you are still reading and care)? Well it seems the “potential buyers” (let's keep the gimmick going) turn out to be a bunch of bullshit artists and never back up all the talk. I always grew up doing what I said, and if some chick can't do that for me, I have no business dealing with her at all. Whatever I said to someone, I meant and I did, no one can deny that. But All I hear from most women is just the “right things”, but when they get called out and told it's time to collect on all the talk, they backtrack and try to get themselves out of the lies they said. Then they get all upset when I go “bye” and leave.

People say that is one of my issues with chicks-that I don't give them a real chance when they screw up. Well, why is it ok for them to mess up, yet we men have been held to some stupid standard that if we slip up the chick can just drop us? I figure if chicks want to be treated equal in this world, then they should be called out about all their talk as much as us guys are. I always thought equality is something that is important as much as communication and honesty when it comes to relationships, and if chicks are still going to hold men to a certain standard, they should be prepared for themselves to be held to just as high of a standard. If I am putting all I can into something, I demand that she at least put just as much in, other than all I am doing is wasting my energy and time. My new thing is that after talking to a chick and eventually letting her know my intentions and how I am feeling about her, it's her turn to prove to me that she feels the same way and prove that she is worth my time. So far no one has, though some have come close and one was even given a second chance, but in the end they all either failed at it or quit all together.

So I'm tired of it! I am tired of the bullshit. So I am going to take a break from actively searching for a while and just relax. Maybe someone comes into my life during this time, who knows. But after a little time, maybe chicks will get it and start acting right....but we all know that won't happen. So ladies (if there are any that reads this): the lesson of the day is simple-you have to prove your worth to me as I do to you, and if I don't feel like I am getting at least as much as I am putting in, then bye nice knowing ya.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

OK so I am in a little bit of a dilemma. I have a ticket to the MLS game where David Beckham comes to town, but I am debating if I really want to go to the game. First parking/traffic will be a nightmare since half the parking is gone due to construction of the new Giants Stadium and train station. Second is just the aggravation of the fact that most of the people at the game are going to be just a bunch of jackoffs not there for the teams, but just because they are sheep and will go because a star is showing up. It's going to be a fucking circus and not one of those going to th game just to see him will come back to support RBNY. Even more sickening is the idea that all in attendance will be cheering AGAINST their local team. I don't know, I got a couple weeks to see what I can do, but if I can make a tidy profit for it, what the hell!

Why do Blacks feel like they have a right to fuck up classic comedies? First they fuck up “Airplane!” with “Soulplane”, then they butcher “The Honeymooners”, now they have the balls to take “Caddyshack” and shit on it by making “Who's your caddy?”. But on the bright side they fucked up their own once when they tried to make “Car Wash” more gangsta by making “The Wash”. At least the blacksploitation films of the 70's were so off the mark it made them funny, but now it seems like they want to make a classic for their own, and they fail big. One other remake that makes me sick isn't a racial thing, but they are going to remake the NYC gang film “the Warriors”, but form what I read they are just using the name and redoing it to make it more modern. On top of it, MTV is behind the idea, so you know that it won't be good since they haven't' done anything meaningful since the mid 90's, and I am being generous with that timeframe.

Sunday, July 22, 2007

First it amazes me how quickly an old pipe can cripple a city. That steam pipe explosion really did a number on Midtown, and it's still having affects on the city. Between the huge hole, the dust and the asbestos, it really shut down part of the city and the sad part is the affects won't be known until after the clean up if that crap shot in the air and into the buildings has had an affect on those in the area and the workers. It could sorta be like when 9/11 happened when months after health issues come up, but then again technology and methods learned form 9/11 may help lessen that chance

Guitar Hero is a stupid game. And those that use the guitar shaped controller look both like a tool and gay. Now they are going to sell an entire band set with drums, guitar, bass (Finally, they think of the Black man!!!-hopefully there's some real funk songs in the song list), and mic. What ever happened to learning an instrument???

Finally became a big boy and got an external hard drive to backup my laptop. Got it at the Apple Store in NYC, and that's a cool place to go to. Got a 250 gig drive, and already backed up my computer once (mad a bootable copy on the hard drive, so my macbook dies, I can boot it form the external drive and fix it). With the extra space, I've decided to start putting my music CDs on my computer. Been ripping some tonight, and eventually I'll have all the tracks I want on my computer and then when I get an Ipod (still debating on the 30 or 80 gig-waiting to see how much my music would take up), I have my library ready to go for a trip, and down the road get one of the home stereos for Ipods, then clear up room on a shelf when I get rid of my stereo.

I would like to address the anonymous poster on my blog that has been talking a lot of shit to me and my friends in comments. I don't know who you are or don't really care. The simple fact I get a reaction from someone shows that my job is done. But form some of the posts, it seems like you are a scorned chick from my past. If so, all I can say is this. Hey, you had your chance, you didn't prove yourself worthy of my time and in fact probably made me feel like I was wasting mine on you. But no hard feelings, I wish the best for you. In fact, I hope you find a guy and are able to hang out with his friends, and I hope one night they all get drunk while you all are hanging out, and your guy and his friends decided to reenact the famous scene from “the Accused” with you. Then as you are in the shower in the fetal position from shame, your man comes in and he decides to reenact the shower scene from “American History X”. So good luck to ya, and stop wishing you still had me. Sure, I am a great guy that is almost impossible to forget, but get over it, you didn't have what it takes and I didn't want to waste my time.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

I had an interesting conversation with my co-worker about a situation in his life with his chick. Long story short he was tired of her negative, stagnant attitude. In the end he and his chick decided to go their separate ways in an amicable way. He is happy and feels a great weight was taken off his shoulders, since he feels he has been carrying the relationship for a while. He also wanted to do this to maybe snap her out of her funk. I tend to agree with this theory.

Think about it, most people find out who they really are after a major happening in their lives. I for example found out a lot about myself after my dad died. I found out what I can take, and how to look at life after it. I have gone through what I feel about like and how I now live and act with people, so if you want to know what I'm talking about, search my other posts here to find out. It's not one major event, but sometimes several are needed to shape all aspects of one's life. I found out about myself with relationships as far as what I want and what I don't want after last year, when someone I was in love with crushed my heart and forced the ending of the relationship. It really made me look hard at myself, and for a while I was so insecure about myself, I didn't' trust my decision to just pick out what T-shirt to wear. Over time I found my swagger back and now know form that experience what I want and need in a woman that I want in my life.

This is all of course under the theory that you are going to make yourself get out of the depths of depression. In the situation when something big happens you have two choices; first run away and go into a shell of negativity, or go head on with what happened, figure out what to do and keep a positive mind, and make yourself learn and grow in to a better person.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

I walked around my building today, and this was something I noticed on one particular floor that's mostly women, and honestly sometimes just walking around the floor and seeing the “scenery”, it makes a bad day worth it and keeps me going at my job!!!

You know one thing I love in women; confidence. I have noticed that there are a few levels of confidence when it comes to women. There is the one level where they are cool about how they are and that they know where they stand in their lives. Then there are the ones who have that aura of confidence like the first level, but they are able to project it out much more intensely. That either is really a turn on for men, but also at the same time it can be a bit intimidating. It's not intimidating on purpose, but it sometimes comes off as she is “too much woman” for a guy to handle.

Then there's the woman with confidence, but it is in a cocky way. Like the “My shit don't stink” attitude, or the “I can have any guy I want at the snap of a finger.” These women are only putting up an facade (that's a false front for the slow readers), and the best way to show how fragile that facade really is by putting her in her proper place (verbally, not physically). An example of this is if you are talking to this chick and she gives you that look like you are garbage, find something about her that is not great about her, look deep into her eyes, and verbally slam her on it. You'll tear down her attitude and see how insecure she really is. Hell she may get off on it and be attracted to you. She may be attracted to you because she sees that you can take control of her and that could be what she is looking for in a guy. Only thing is that in the relationship you would have with her, as nice that you would be the man and in control, you would always have to “check” her to not only satisfy her insecurities and keep looking like the strong man she is now depending on, but also do so that it is fresh and new so she's not bored. At first this may be a fun time for the guy but after a while it an get boring and the inequality between you and the chick will in the end cause the unhealthy relationship get worse and fall apart.

I like a chick that knows where she stands in life and has her “feet on the ground”. That's where I am as far as my confidence, and I learned that equality with someone is one of the biggest things in any type of relationship. I feel good, and I want someone that feels just as good about herself, because if one depends on the other for happiness, that's codependency and that's not a good thing in the long term.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Just popping up a couple things up here since I am bored.

-The US has no chance in winning any international soccer competition. I am convinced of that after the US get hosed out of a quarterfinal game against Austria in the U-20 World Cup yesterday. Even if the US somehow won, the ref made sure that all the strong US players were suspended for the next game due to yellow card accumulations. World Soccer's worst nightmare is the US being strong enough to win international competitions, mostly because soccer is the only thing now the world can say they are better than the US in (well, sportswise, there are many other things the world does better than the US)

-I am always surprised who reads this shit. Doesn't bother me, I just keep on keeping on, just surprises me whenever someone mentions they read this. What really surprises me is that after reading what I write here, people come back for more. Though it would be nice to see others put their opinions on the comments section so I can see what you all think, at the very least something to make me laugh when some of you don't get me and what I am all about. Here's a little hint: if you are one of those who read this and don't like what I say, don't read this...simple.

Monday, July 09, 2007

OK, I am going to speak about something that may pis off some people. Let me just say that first I don't hate kids and I may have them in the future (but that depends on a lot of factors), but now I do have a huge issue with parents and how they parent. I'm just going to talk about one thing I see all the time on the subway.

First, I hate it when parents just assume that their kids are the center of everyone's world, not just theirs. They think that people without kids are going to be considerate and just allow parents with kids on the train rule. First off, it pisses me off to no end when I see parents with their kids in strollers. How lazy are you to just leave a kid defenseless in a stroller that is a fire hazard and illegal to have unfolded on the train, blocking the path and doors. I also can't stand it when these ingrates take the stroller (with baby inside) and try to walk up stairs or down stairs. Think about that, and then you may get a little heated like me about the unsafe situation the kid is put in due to the irresponsible parenting.

Another favorite act of stupidity I love is when the kid is walking and the parent wants their kid to go up and down the stairs.....DURING RUSH HOUR!!! this also goes with the jackasses with the strollers as well. Look, i don't mind if you want to inflate your kid's ego and show him how to go up/down stairs, but wait until everyone else clears the stairway, NOT WHILE A STAMPEDE OF PEOPLE ARE GOIG UP OR DOWN THEM!!! I don't feel bad if I nudge a kid and parent when they are on the stairs holding everyone else up. Hey, why should people look out for a bad parent who wants to put their children in harms way?

But sadly the selfishness and overall stupidity of parents wont' change. I did one day get a big smile when I saw a cop pull over a couple with their kid and not only scolded them for having their kid in a stroller (which was made for twins, but only one kid, the other side was used for whatever crap they couldn't fit in their over sized bag hanging off the back of the stroller) that rolled freely and almost off the very crowded platform, but also for the potential fire and safety hazard they caused when they blocked the stairway with their bodies as they slowly carried down this stroller. What really made me smile was the couple tickets the cop gave them. I wish cops did this more, but that won't happen since the bleeding hearts running the media would shame the NYPD to stop, and in my neighborhood cries of racism would be made.

Again, I don't hate kids. I hate parents who think for some reason those without kids feel sympathy for those who do and are willing to help out. We don't and parents should always know this, it's your problem and responsibility, and if your kid get bumped or hurt due to your irresponsibility, you brought it on him by not protecting him.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Had a good time at Dave and Busters Sat night. Had a good time with some people from FBA.com, and hope to do it again. I didn't mind D&B, i did expect a bigger game area since they do advertise that a lot in their ads, and especially since it is their Time Square location, but then again the arcade industry is almost dead as it is, and most of the space at D&B is for the bar/dining, and considering the traffic through Times Square, I guess it makes sense.

It's weird that there's nothing to be really mad about in my life. That's probably why it seems like I am grabbing at straws when I am writing things on here. Most of the things I should be upset about are things I really have no control over, and what has happened that has had me upset or angry are over now and I am moving forward. Plus thinking about these things are a wastes of time for me, just like apparently all the time I put into what I was angry over in the end. Do I have things on my mind? Yeah, but it's things that aren't anything that affect me good or bad, just things to keep me busy when I am bored.

Friday, July 06, 2007

I was thinking of what to do on my vacation the week of Aug. 13th. I was thinking of just being lazy the entire week, get some things done, and just recharge. Part of me though wants to travel somewhere and stimulate my mind. But where could I go? I don't have a lot of money to spend, but also there are some decent deals out there. I have no clue, and any suggestions would be helpful. Hell if you want my dumbass in your town and don't mind me crashing at your place, feel free to invite. Maybe I'll consider it if you aren't really creepy.

Funny, it's the weekend, but it feels like a workweek....damn that Wednesday holiday!!!!!

Remember that list of qualities I like /dislike in people? Well like I thought, some like i and think 'I'm brave to think that way and respect my stand, and there are some that think I'm asking too much from others and that I come off as an ass. That's par for the course, so I really have no reaction to it. Hey, I know with that mindset I am opening myself up to a life of solitude and loneliness, bu at the same time I legitimately feel that way, and why should I not be true to myself? All I ask of people is to respect me and my ideals, it doesn't matter if you like me or hate me for it. I also just ask form people out of damn courtesy to give me back what I give them. I will say this, if I like you, I'm loyal to the bitter end. If you cross me or burn me in anyway, I will make you cry and burn every bridge possible. Hence why I am never friends with my exes. And in the end, I know I am right, and in the grand scheme of things, that's all that matters since at no time will everyone will be happy with me and my actions but the most important person that matters in my life-me.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Hi all I really got nothing tonight, but I thought I would write. Yesterday I went to an almost of a clusterfuck of a BBQ, but I somehow saved the day with my grill and pop-up tent. It was a great time in the end with kick ass food and some decent people. I never ate so good in a while, but I payed for it today!!!

Tonight was a mess watching the Red Bulls shit the bed and fall 4-0 to Houston. The team looked horrible, I stopped watching halfway into the second half. So I came onto my computer and made a new ringtone. It's based on the A.F.R.O. Theme. What the hell is that you say? I'll tell ya, jackass!!! A.F.R.O. Is the first letters of the hosts of two radio shows Opie and Anthony and Ron and Fez. When all four are on a show together hanging out, it's called an A.F.R.O. Show. The song is a remix by a DJ named Dru Boogie, and is more of a mashup of the two shows' theme songs (O&A's RATM's “Streetfighting Man”, and Ron and Fez's old theme song from WNEW Insane Clown Posse's “Oddities”). Here's a link to the song, and I took the first 30 seconds and put it as the ringtone to my phone:

http://www.foundrymusic.com/audio.cfm?id=10363

yeah I sound like a dork....but me, it's a cool mashup and sounds cool on my damn phone.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Ok today I am going to talk about the two types of people I run into in life: those I can get along to have/thrive under, and those who irritate me and do nothing for me usually. These aren't just friends ad past relationships, but anyone I have ever met. I decided to write this list down so see what patterns I have found myself in, and maybe learn what to look for and avoid in people. I write this to help me remember it (most things you write down/read are more likely to be remembered than just told and tried to commit to memory). Forgive me if this seems a little disorganized, I listed these during the day today and I'm to lazy to better organize it. After reading this, maybe you'll see why I am either loved or hated in life, but honestly I like it that way, keeps the BS to a minimum and things simpler

Without further adieu:

People I tend to like, get along with, and succeed with or under usually are/have:
-Honest
-Knows what they want, and are more concerned with the “endgame” and do what they can to get it, no matter what
-Has a set core of values they won't change, will be open to compromise or adapt their other, less-mandatory values
-”Black and White” view of the world, no gray area in their logic
-If they say that they will do something (even promise to do something), they will make sure that it is done
-Whatever they do, they focus on that and what is happening around them in the “now”, and all their other problems or issues are put on the back burner.
-They “Want” to do things, and only do things they “want” to do, not do things they “have” to do or feel like it's required or obligated to do
-commit to things/people till the bitter end, and not back track, cop out, or BS their way out of it
-When they need to make a decision that involved others, they will talk it over so all are on the same page with the decision, whether the other people like the decision or not.
-they talk to people with the respect the person deserves in the situation
-explains everything so everyone involved is on the same page
-knows not to take advantage of one's patience
-only questions someone in order to understand what is going on
-knows and accepts all the responsibilities and consequences of one's actions and words
-takes their problems, work to solve it as quickly as possible, and then moves forward from the problem
-always looks at the “big picture” in life and keeps a level of positivity

Now for what the “other” people I usually dislike, not really like to deal with and will be trying to get rid of from my life have/are:
-a lackadaisical attitude to life
-no core values and will bend to the needs of others without fail
-only think about themselves and their problems without being considerate to the others around them.
-”drama queens”
-lack of maturity
-can't see past their noses
-blow off responsibilities to others they promised, but at the same time they want you to keep your word
-mislead people and back out of things without taking responsibility for misleading people
-assume things about others when making decisions that affect others but won't discuss things with others first
-show up or do things because they feel like they have to, rather than want to, then get upset when it shows they are half-assing it
-”want their cake and eat it too” mentality
-make things more complicated than they should be
-”What about me?” attitude
-talks down to people like a child
-expects others to have infinite patience with them, but they take advantage of that
-questions others in order to criticize things when they are not how they want it
-almost never takes responsibility for their actions/words, passes the buck to others or blames circumstance rather than themselves.
-wallows in their problems and misery, lets the problems dictate how they live their life, and just hopes it goes away rather than work to solve it.

I am sure you have met and know people like these two. I personally would rather associate with the first list, but I am sure I have fell into the trap of the second from time to time (who hasn't), but as I said, those in the first list will always work to get themselves out of their funk, while those who are associated with the second list will just stay there spinning their wheels. I want to get those who fall into the second list out of my life. As I said a bunch of times, I have a limited time on this planet, why should I waste my time with people who don't make my time and effort feel valued, and just take advantage of my generosity?

Summary: I want to be associated with others who know what they want and are willing to honestly work for what they want, and don't want to waste my time on those who are self absorbed with themselves and their baggage, and do nothing to improve themselves, and all they offer me is drama and stress. If I offended you, tough deal with it. I f I made you think about those who you associate with, good. Maybe you'll do some “friend cleaning” and get your life more streamlined and stress level down.

Does this make sense to you? It does to me.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Just putting some stuff up here since I am bored:

-First, anything grilled on a charcoal grill always tastes better. I don't know why but it just does.

-Why don't people recognize the band Sevendust as one of the best bands in rock today? And I mean real rock, not that pussy rock like Nickelback. Give Sevendust a listen to and you'll see that the contrast of the hard guitars and melodic vocals are amazing.

-More and more this city is making life impossible for the common man. NYC just enacted noise laws that more or less makes it illegal for a dog to bark at night. On top of it, Mister Softee isn't allowed to play his music when he's parked to tend to business. It's things like this, and the rising prices/taxes, on top of the falling salaries (cops barely make $25 grand when they start now in the city) that makes me think maybe I should look elsewhere to live/work. But that would mean I need to save up to do, and with how process are I can't do that. Catch 22 I guess...

-All this soccer going on, and all my teams stink!! The Red bulls sucked las night, the US national team were ran through by Argentina in the Copa America (though it's a young US team, they should have done better), and the US U-20 team struggled against South Korea, a team they should have beaten, but at least hey got a point out of the game.