I don't know why, but this whole weekend was a mess for me. Some plans never came through, but that was not really a big deal considering things weren't really set in stone. Some things went on like planned but were cut short, but at the same time things went ok in the end. One thing that really ruined my day was when I was talking to someone, and they did something I really hate: when they want to bring up part of the past, since I really don't want to talk about my past. The part of my past that was brought up really upsetted me, I am partly glad it was brought up so I can see what happened then, and now I can learn from it. Only thing is that it's a hard fact to take, since I more or less learn that what I do and I think is right is wrong, VERY wrong. But alas, I will learn form it and try to correct it. Maybe one day I'll write about what I think is wrong with how I handle certain things,, but who knows since that would be really opening myself up.

Funny part is that I did get a few things I needed done anyway this weekend. These were a few things I needed to get done, and it felt good getting my mind on something that had to be done. One of these weekends I should just shut myself off from the world and get myself together, maybe take a week to get things done. Also the idea of just taking a week and driving somewhere secluded has crossed my mind, but we'll see about that.

Right now I'm looking into re-doing my budget to help myself figure out what is going on with my money. It's a slow process, but it should materialize soon enough. I need to figure out real numbers as far as expenses and then see what is going on. All I know is that this week part of my money is going to go to a Wii, hopefully I will get my hands on one this week.

Ok here's some positives in my life, getting some fat cash from my tax returns. Most is going to savings, but part is also going to fun. Also starting Thursday my health benefits kick in. That makes me really happy and feeling ok

Ok, since the last time I wrote something here, I had a horrible Feb. 14th, and during that day I kept thinking Capone had a great idea as far as celebrating that day. Nothing starts a day and a 12 hour shift off right when one opens an email to read that you are now on the way side because someone can't handle a small problem in their life. But enough about that, since in the end things turned out OK.

This past weekend was expensive. I spent almost $450 on my car due to a shot starter and new battery. I owe my cousin big for helping move my car to get it towed to the shop, damn near killed him!! Hopefully Friday night things will be considered even, but seeing how half assed the event is being setup, i hope we can get into the place due to the rumored over distribution of tickets!!!

Xm and sirius are getting together, but I doubt it will happen. There's a lot I could write about this but I'm not in the mood to. Simply put, the FCC issued two licenses for that part of the spectrum, and they made a law that said not one company will hold both licenses That means the new company would at least give up one of them and really cannibalize the content and sound quality, but that would lead to a lot of the subs to go away. It should be interesting in the next year to see what happens. Like I said, I doubt it would happen, but with the corruption during the Bush admin. With a lot of the Gov. agencies, I wouldn't be shocked.

That's it, it stinks I know but it's something new to read here

OK this week has been quite hectic. I”ve been going into work earlier the past week since my co-worker hurt herself and I had to pick up some of her shift. Not a really big deal, its OT. Only thing is that today turned out to be a 13 hour day it's usually a 12 hour shift-but I was doing the work of two people), and 13 hours in a place not your home is draining. So tomorrow and Friday I have shifts from 10am-7pm, barring anything major (meetings to setup, problems with my supply order or the building, etc.) it should be the same routine, just with extra hours. My next paycheck should look pretty sweet though!

As usual at my job, I have a lot of time to think (or over think, I am a Virgo and we tend to do that). I was thinking about where I am in my life and is it where I want to me. After some thought, I came to realize that I am where God wants me to be, and I should be glad where I am. By no mean am I a really religious person, but I know there is a higher power and I an just a pawn in his game. I really can't complain about my life. I have a job, I have people around me that support me, and what is wrong in my life are things that aren't important or things I shouldn't worry about. With all that has happened in the past year or so, I see how it all unfolded and now can say that everything worked out the way it was supposed to, and I can't and won't worry about my past anymore.

Ok I just wanted to add something here. Remember, on the 14th of Feb., if that's the one day you do something nice for someone you love, you have a bad relationship. I learned that chicks dig nice things all year round, small and big things, but don't' go overboard with it....you may come off desperate. Like I said in a post a year ago here, I am not big into the whole Valentine's day, but I will do something nice for those I think deserve it....but I do nice things for those people anyway, why should Feb. 14 be different?