I tend to get a lot of emails from people from their job email accounts. Most of the time they are professionally done, including a signature that some also include a closing remark and their name. this could be “Thanks, (name)” or some other form of that, or “have a nuce day”, or something along with their name. I have nothing against these other than it sorta feels a little less personal than something written by the emails' author. Another thing that sorta bugs me is how happy or positive they are, and sometimes the last thing I need is something cheerful to read that's not even directed to me personally. I was thinking of some others maybe you all would like to use, just to set a mood with your emails. Here are some that I came up with:

“I hope you die”
“Hope you are Brutally beaten and/or raped by a large colored gentleman”
“Hoping this email has a virus attached to it that is a computer's version of AIDS”
“May that lump turn out to be inoperable cancer”
“Hoping you commute home involves you, a drunk driver, and a fiery wreck”
“Hoping your kid is found like Adam Walsh”
“Hope you are arrested and fired after all the child porn that is being downloaded since you opened this email is found on your hard drive”
“May all your children have that special extra chromosome”
“Praying the only positive in your day today is that test result from your doctor”
”May your family find you in the garage swinging gently back and forth”
“Hope your company's stock price plummets due to your sheer incompetence as a business person”
“Hope you are not distracted reading this email by the back of your intern, and the back of his head banging the bottom of your desk, where he is 'earning that college credit'”

What a way to spend a day off. looked forward to this day because it would give me an excuse to get some sleep in. Only thing is that I woke up with what I think may be the flu. So since about 6 this morning, my body has ran the gambit of feeling shitty and shittier. I was looking forward to going and getting a new Giants jersey, but I barely got out of my room, let alone the house. When I did get up, all I did was feel the need to lay down. Most of the day has consisted of laying either in bed wishing pain and hurt on those who have pissed me off lately (it was something to keep my mind busy), or sitting on the couch watching TV or whatever I had on my DVR.

I did get to watch a whole episode of that Celebrity Rehab that's on VH-1. It's a tough watch to be honest. I also can't tell who is there legit to get better, who is there to try to restart their careers is a sick way, or who is just there to be exploited. It's not a bad idea in theory, but when you have at best C-list “stars” it loses some of it's impact.

Also been looking around I tunes for some new music. I picked up a Korn Album called “live and Rare”. it's a album they put out full of a bunch of live versions of their hits, and a couple rare tracks that were either hidden on other albums or on obscure soundtracks (“Earache my Eye”-their cover of the Cheech and Chong song, and “Proud” that I think was on the “I know what you did last summer” soundtrack). For the most part, I love it since it shows how good of a live band they are (or were before they moved form being a band to more of an event when it comes to their live shows/albums). I was going to pick up their “unplugged” album, but I can't listen to it. That also goes with their album “See you on the other side”. Not that they are bad albums, but more about what in my past is attached to when I listen to them leaves me in a sad, and quite honestly, an angry place I rather leave in the past.

I”m just trying to figure out what to write here, but I am drawing a blank. So I'll leave you all with a couple videos from Korn and Sevendust-maybe you'll see why I love these bands and see why I think they are the best in rock today. Some of these are the “clean” versions, but that's all I could find:

Korn-Blind



Korn-Shoots and Ladders



Korn-here to Stay



Korn-Evolution



Sevendust-Denial



Sevendust-Ugly



Sevendust-Pieces



Sevendust-Enemy

Haven't put a entry up in a while, so I thought of adding something. I'm getting my tattoo hopefully either this weekend on next weekend. I hope to go to the tattoo artist soon to show him what I want and get a price. Hell, if the price is right when I go in, I”ll just get it done right there. Now onto something that I was thinking about and has enraged me lately that i had to write about.

Barak Obama is no different than Al Sharpton or Jesse Jackson or any “black leader”.

Bold statement? Sure, but I”ll prove it. First, like Sharpton or Jackson, Obama has yet to prove to anyone he has done anything, and somehow has found a way to live off the stupid who throw their money at them while doing nothing to justify the donations. All he has done is said a couple witty things, and the sheep flocked to it without questioning the qualifications of him. Sure Obama is good for a soundbyte or two, but last time I checked you need more to be President. What he does say is vague and not easy to pin down-another tactic Sharpton and Jackson use-and no one who has a brain can clearly say what the hell is his stance on anything, but the mindless sheep act like its the fucking gospel. An example of the sheep who have no spine or stance on anything is John Kerry endorsing Obama, in a move that both proves that Kerry is nothing but a “front runner” who sold out his own friend and also proves that the spineless will always stick together.

One other huge common fact that proves Obama is no better a “black leader” they Sharpton or Jackson is a simple one. When the heat is turned up, they immediately throw out race and use it like a pathetic crutch for sympathy. What happened to Clinton the past week proves that Obama has zero credibility as a politician and as a man in general. For him to try to unite, or claim to, then use the most common denominator that is divisive, proves what scum and a fraud Obama is. I am into a Hillary Clinton supporter by any means, I find her to be just as big of scum as Obama after stealing a senate seat in a state she had no business getting, but its still bullshit that she was labeled as a racist for simply proving she has a slightly more credible reputation.

Now, lets say Obama scams his way into the White House. What happens? I say nothing, because it's going to be found out that he has no real policy of “change” that any other candidate has, and he will also have to try to make sure the black community doesn't tear him apart and the country apart. This is their dirty little secret, that they don't like to see their own succeed because of their selfish jealousy. If Obama wins and does policy that doesn't' automatically favors the blacks he's an Uncle Tom. If he does any policy that makes the blacks have more power than they have now and a step to their “Nubian nation” (or whatever the hell they are preaching about often), he'll have the country turn on him. One thing is for sure is that either way, Racism will come roaring back, and in the old-school way like it used to be in this country. Does this country really need this at this point in time? With the country on the verge of ruin, does the in-fighting that could come with Obama going to help anything? Hopefully it doesn't come to this, and whoever comes out of this election will try to fix the damage caused by the hayseed we have in office that has came exponentially faster than any other bad president has caused in their terms.

-Took down decorations this week, and the house looks really depressing now. It's all dark and cold. On top of this, I get an email from a friend that told me a truth about something going on in my life, and I was put in areal happy mood today.

-Been getting more and more into online gaming with my Xbox360 lately. been mostly playing with friends, but also going online to get my points up and also blow off some steam. The game du jour is “Call of Duty 4”, and it's a fun game. It's one of those games where you earn by playing, and you earn upgrades on the weapons you have, and some skills. Part of the fun is the people you play with and how they talk. For some reason, I find myself in a game with a bunch of hicks and heyseeds who spout off some of the most racist remarks during the game through the headsets people have. Of course you get the 14-year olds who just talk and talk and talk, and won't SHUT UP!!! But mostly I play with people I know, and those games don't' count to rankings, but for bragging rights. Last weekend I spent hours online playing, and it's something I wish I could do a little bit more during the week, but can't due to my schedule. I”m not going to be getting into it to the point where it takes over my life, but just something to do at night when there's nothing on TV.

-I”ve been throwing around the idea of going on a diet. I got on the scale the other day and say that I was almost 240 lbs again. Not sure where the hell all that weight came from, but it did. I was looking around at a couple things as far as diets, and I am seriously looking at the “Slim Fast” ting, where you drink shakes, once for breakfast and one for lunch, then have dinner. Still looking into that, so nothing finalized.

-I heard about this site from the Opie and Anthony show: a test to figure out the right candidate for you. I took it and it said the best one for me to vote for is Rudy Giuliani...must be something broken with this test.....

I watched part of the debates tonight, and I still have no idea who to vote for. I reality I may not vote for anyone this year, since none of any of the candidates fit my standards, which is the same standards I hold for anyone. Most of these candidates either are one-trick ponies (Clinton saying she's the former first lady, Rudy for just happening to be mayor during 9/11, McCain for being a war vet), or just bullshit artists. These guys all have one thing in common; all have talked a lot of talk, and didn't come through in the end, and then had the audacity for not taking responsibility for it and blame others for their fuckup. I”ve had a lot of these types in my life, and usually while I live up to all that I say, and do what I say I will do, these people will talk all this shit, telling me what they want from me, or what they promise what will happen and they will do all they can to make things happen, then when it's time for them to prove themselves, they choose not to, but then won't take any responsibility for their letdown (I can care less about apologies, since those can be hollow-taking responsibility means they accept whatever consequences come from their failure), then they try to blame other things in their lives as to why they couldn't get things done. See, as far as I am concerned, you put yourself in the position of telling me what you are going to do, and the fact you didn't come through shows how little you respect or value me. If you come up to me and say “hey I take responsibility for not living up to what I said”, I won't be as mad at you, though you would still have to deal with whatever comes out of it-which could include me telling you to go fuck yourself.

Now, some may be saying I should compromise and pick someone that is as close to my values to vote for. Well unlike most people, I'm not a sellout. I have tried the compromise route before, even somewhat recent. Know what I got out of it?? nothing that in the end was worth my time, and even got called selfish for my compromises I did. I even got a few people upset with me. So if it means I don't see anyone that fits me and my values, I”m not going to waste my vote on them. Much like I won't waste my time on people who don't fit my values.

Wanna know something funny? Some people who told me to go fuck myself or I've told to STILL read this!!! I don't get it, if I don't want anything to do with them, I don't go stalking them. And Vice Versa. Hey, if you want to know about me and what's going on, you should have lived up to all your talk.

One more thing that I don't get, College football for some reason has gone the way of society and became pussified. they allow half of the Div 1-a teams to have a bowl game. Any team that makes it to 6-6 is able to play. To me, I thought the bowls were a reward for good teams. But now every other team can play, and in stupid gimmick bowls or bowls that happen to turn out to be one more home game for one team. It's like in pee-wee soccer or any sport and EVERYONE gets a prize, which cheapens awards for the good players/teams. When I played sports as a kid, I did get a shitty ribbon, but all the god players and teams got trophies or better ribbons. that's how life works: if you do well you get rewarded. So what College football should do is have it where only teams in the top 25 are eligible for bowl games. First it eliminates the frivolous bowls, and then it means better bowl games overall. On top of it, the BCS is supposed to be the end all, be all games right? So why is there two non-BCS bowl games being played during that time? It should be the BCS only bowls after Jan 1. Any time Rutgers are in a bowl game, there's something wrong with the system!!!