it is what it is...so deal with it

I felt like writing about something that pisses me off when it comes to other people. For most of my life, people think I'm some over sensitive person that gets upset easily. True, I can get really pissed and upset over some things that in the big picture mean nothing, but in reality who hasn't i life. The past year has taught me something that I am now living by: things are what they are, and they are that way for a reason and you just have to deal with it.

I used to sit and worry about a lot of things in my life. I used to worry about the future, or something that is happening now that won't mean anything in the long run. I get this from my family, and this kind of mindset has led to a lot of health problems and death. My dad used to be like this, worried about everything he did and how it would affect the stability and security of the family (a natural feeling, but he took it to a level where he looked so insecure about a lot of what he did). A lot of my relatives are like this as well, guess that's what they learned from previous generations. Along with this, they also worried about the welfare of others before their own, which has led to more stress on them. Most of my relatives have had, have, or may have major problems when it comes to their heart. From all this, i have learned to not be like them. Seeing my dad's corpse on the floor really made me put things in perspective. I now am choosing to not live the way the previous generations have lived. I do my best to not worry about anything at all now. My attitude is it is what it is, and I have to deal with the way things are no, an not worry about how things can end up.

This attitude can be odd for some, and irritating for others. My family thing I don't care about anything, but in reality I just don't worry about EVERY little thing like most relatives do. In the big picture, 90% of what they worry about are things that either are going to work themselves out, or just simply means nothing. On the other hand, some are appreciative that I have this attitude, and that I”m not putting pressure on them to do things they simply can't do at this time. They like it that I”m not upset at them at the situation they are in and that I”m not putting more pressure on them. I know that the situation they find themselves in won't be this way forever, and I just have to take it for what it's worth and work with it.

All I have to say is STOP WORRYING ABOUT THE LITTLE BULLSHIT!!! That's putting too much stress on people these days, and all people should do is just calm down, take a step back and look at what;s going on now and not worry about the past or future, and just handle things as best you can, and accept whatever comes out in the end.

Lookie!!! new blog!!!

Hello all, especially those who I haven't gotten a hold of in a while. Hope all is well and things are going right in the lives you all lead (both good or bad). I have no clue why I am writing right now. I'm really tired form a long ass day at work, and the only reason I'm honestly online and awake right now is because I want to see if a person I want to chat with tonight comes on AIM tonight. But I figure since I am waiting here and watching ESPN overanalyze a World Series rainout, I just throw something together.

Wow it has gotten cold quickly!!! I personally like the cold, but I don't like it when it gets cold too fast and my body has no time to adjust. In a couple weeks I will really like this weather.

It figures that LaVar Arrington would have a monster game Monday night and get a potentially career threatening injury!!! But on the bright side the Giants are looking great this season and seeing how the NFL works, it's a real possibility to see the Giants in the Super Bowl. I watched the jets game Sunday as well, and although they did win, it should be noted they played the Lions, who are the jobbers of the NFL. So in the end the Jets did what amounts to beating up a retarded kid!!

As much as I enjoy listening to Opie and Anthony and Ron and Fez, lately I have been enjoying the Ron and Fez show better. I guess because the attitude if the show is more lid back and more “common talk” like you were hanging out in a bar with the hosts (who act the same way in person, I have met them in the past and are really genuine guys). As good as Opie and Anthony;s show is, they seem to be moving back to the “cringe” radio type of show, and sometimes that can get to be too much sometimes. I still love both shows, but I find myself enjoying Ron and Fez a little bit more.

The best part of TV this time of year is the libel and Slander that is spewed from candidates running for office. God forbid they would tell you what THEY would do in office, bey HAVE to tell you what is wrong with the other guy!!! If these candidates really want to make some money, they should release all their commercial on DVD after the election is over, they'd sell a TON of them!!!

well someone popped on and I have nothing really else to add. Enjoy all!!!

some peace today and some reflection

What a difference a weekend makes. I had a pretty peaceful day I had at work. Nothing major really happened, and I had a fantastic lunch out today. Funny part is that after lunch the day went even faster!!! Helps when one has good company to enjoy a sandwich I had to settle with since they had no white bread but whole wheat!!!!

A little over a week ago I got news of my class reunion is coming up at Molloy. I am not going to it after doing a lot of thinking. It's not that I don't want to see any of the people from HS, trust me I would love to, but at a reunion is somewhere I rather not do it. I am starting to get sick of nostalgia, and I'm trying my bet to stop living in the past and staying more in the present. I have a lot of things about my time in HS that I am at peace with, but at the same time I rather not retread out and talk about. Considering I was a shut-in for the most part and a gimp for a little over two years of school, where I could go out to hang out with my friends (not to mention that my parents worked their asses off and the last thing I wanted to ask them to o is drive my dumbass around to my friends places),I;d rather not relive the isolation I felt yet at the same time I put on myself when I look back at it all. T wasn't all bad, my senior year was one of my best times where I found out a lot about myself and the friends I had in school. I should go to my reunion, but in reality I don't have a NEED to go. Some of you who I went to school with I am sure are reading this, and if you want to see me you all know how to get a hold of me. Wanna hang out? Just contact me!

Thats it as far as any thoughts I have i my head right now

haven't updated this in a while...but I was waiting fo the new toy

This is my first entry done on my new toy. Yes I finally got my Macbook and it kicks ass!!!! I'm still trying to get used the the keyboard and some other minor things, but I love this thing!!!! I downloaded a bunch of programs so I can use some of my old stuff from my windows computer (like the word processor program I got called NeoOffice, it's like Office but free and I can use all my old files and stuff). I still have to learn quite a but about the mac ( well more refresh since I had to use a mac when I work in TV), but I am sure people will give me advice. I am really loving this thing, and I hope o do some really cool things with it when I get a video camera to take advantage on Imovie and the creative programs Apple has for this computer.

Other than that things are going well. My job has been hectic, but I and getting a tom of OT, so it's all good in the end. I learned the past few weeks how much better lunch is when you don't eat it in the building and not alone. The last time I ate out was a 12 hour day, and I really neede the time out of the building just to get my head cleared. But overall my bosses like my work, and hopefully it will translate into something better.

Mets are out, but what do you expect when the team had no pitching (EVER pitcher that was good was hurt). RBNY shat the bed yesterday, and they now go into the second leg of the two-leg playoff down a goal. This team NEVER could beat DC when it counts.

That's it, just wanted to try out the new computer to see how I do with writing stuff.

Columbus Day...why can't everyday be like this?

Today was Columbus Day. It was a day where some jackass took a wrong turn and landed in a place where the people apparently didn’t’ want their land, since they didn’t put up much of a fight.  Being Half Italian, I feel proud today.  For some reason, I had a day that’s rare for me.  I had a mile on my face all day.

My day started by waking up a lot later than usual, since my “early day “ is now on Wed. rather than Monday.  After getting up and having my coffee, I jump on my computer and have another great, mind-stimulating conversation, which left a smile on my face.  I go to work, where I find only half the company showed up.  This was a real good deal since it meant less work for me and less milk consumed (we have enough now to last until Wed. when the next shipment arrives).  So after my shift of doing almost nothing (can’t refill anything if no one is there to use it), I get out early and come home.  One thing that stood out in my head about the whole day was the compliments I was getting some people.  One person noticed I was in a better mood, and was glad to see I wasn’t looking so stressed (apparently I looked like a wreak the last week according to her).  Another person mentioned I looked like I lost weight.  For some reason this made me really happy (sound like a chick I know, but I have been trying to get myself in better health and losing weight was one of the things I ‘m trying to do) and that made me walk a little taller.  No I didn’t have a “Saturday Night Fever” strut, but I did walk with my head a little higher.  So far things are going well for me, and it’s about damn time!!!  This week is looking to be positive, but if it doesn’t, I can still say the first part was good.

How ‘bout dem Mets!!!  Swept the Dodgers, and now they play the Cards to see who goes to the World Series.  I’m going to be at game 2 thanks to my cousin and his luck.  It should be fun, provided the weather holds up.  Oh ad how did the Yankees do??? Well let’s see…
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But at least they weren’t swept…Proof that money buys you nothing!!! Apparently the Yankees haven’t noticed what happened to the Knicks and Rangers the past decade.  At least the Rangers went with youth now and they look never better.  Team sports are NEVER about talent, it’s chemistry of a team that can overcome and succeed.  I bet I can take a team in any team sport of mediocre players who want to play together and can win over an all-star team.  Best example: look at Detroit or Oakland, they have low payrolls but have teams full of players who want to play together and even though they aren’t the most talented rosters, they do know how to play as a team and not for themselves.

Thurs. Update

Ugh this week has been a real shitty week.  It’s like everything seems to be coming to a head at work for some odd reason.  I think it’s partly that some of the things I do are being moved around to different days, and trying to make sure that I can get through the transition with little to no problem is an issue, and just a lot of things that have been building are now starting to become major issues.  I talked to my boss about some of the tings that I have had problems with, and hopefully things get changed.  It doesn’t help where I’m the “middle guy”, which means I am the first who gets the complaints and whatever.  I think also I’m starting to get a little burnt out with the job.  I’ve been working there since January with no real break, and I think that is taking its toll on me.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad to have a job and everything.  I went thorough a long period without one.  I don’t’ know what I’m really saying here.  It wasn’t all bad, had a couple moments of good times, so that helped get me through the week.

Other than my job, things are going well.  I’m watching the Mets play the Dodgers and the Mets look like they did when they were really kicking ass in the regular season.  This is a good sign.  The Red Bulls look like they could back into the playoffs, but it all depends on next week’s game at Giants Stadium.  They more or less have to win both games, but they can still make it even if they lose this weekend, but they have to win next weekend.

OK I’m tired, but I wanted to add something here.

Just a 'lil update

The past few days have been going ok.  This past weekend was a win-some/lose some type of weekend.  Saturday I went to the Red Bulls game, but I didn’t’ get to go to the game due to the fact I was a moron and locked my keys in my car!!   The funniest part is that I took my spare key out of my wallet and forgot to put it back in.  So after calling AAA and getting into my car, it was well into the second half and not worth it to go in.  On the bright side I did get a phone call on my way home that lead to a long conversation that was totally enjoyable, so I guess my “ying-yang” theory worked on that night.  And wouldn’t you know it, the Red Bulls won on top of it!!!

Sunday was another nice day, got some work done around the house and went out for part of the afternoon.  Spent the day in Forest Hills, and it was a most enjoyable afternoon.  Went to a bookstore, and to the park and sat for a couple hours with someone I met up with down there and we had a good time talking and hanging out

Other than that, my sports teams are…..OK.  Penn State won Saturday, but they did beat one of the “jobbers” of the Big Ten (Northwestern).  No matter, a win’s a win, and it’s a conference win also.  The Mets clinch the division and took the last part of the season off for some reason.  Now they only have a couple good pitchers for the playoffs, but a best –of-5 situation in the first round should hide the lack of starting pitching depth…provided the bats wake up.  My cousin got NLCS tickets (the next round) for the Mets, and if they make it I get to go on one of his tickets!!!

Professionally, My job is going as well as it usually is.  The good news is that my early day is going to be moved from Monday to Wednesday. That means my double shift is on Wed., and that Mondays is now a regular day for me.  It’s going to be tough for a couple weeks to adjust to, but in the long run, I LOVE IT!!!  It means on Sundays I can stay up late, and not cut any plans short.  It also means I can take an occasional three-day weekend, which I wanted to do for a while and go traveling to some relatives down in DC or wherever.  It also means if I find someone special, I can take an occasional getaway with them.  SO as long as I can get through the transition the next week or so, I should be all good.

Finally, as far as my Macbook situation goes.  I’m close to having the money for it, but I still need a couple weeks to save up for it and also pay off some expenses like my cell phone bill, My cousin for the Mets tickets-but I’m not dodging him.  Hopefully sooner than later I’ll have my new computer!!!


That’s all I got for tonight.