Today I go to work, and in the afternoon all hell is breaking loose outside of my building. The “Sex and the City” premiere is at Radio City Music Hall tonight, and that's all on the street outside. I went outside to go get lunch, and already a lot of women are out there waiting to see these four hags wearing clothing created by gay men apparently on acid and having the audacity to charge hundreds of dollars for this crap. Being the warmer days lately, the chicks were either hot or....yeeesh. The hot ones dressed how I like them-not tight skirts of at leas medium length and sandals, with a nice top on, but then there are the “larger than life” gals. They had the muffintops that were actually quite impressive. Now, don't get me wrong I prefer a lady with some meat on her bones and some junk in the trunk (hence why I really like Italian and Latin ladies), and a little muffintop is oddly hot in my eyes, but when there's sweat stains on top of low-riding jeans that can be seen when they adjust their pants, that's a little too much. Also these well rounded chicks were the “flatties,” where their gut had a bigger cup size than their tits, something that makes me think tapping that ass is more like tapping that keg. Then again there's the ultra skinny chicks that wear tight clothing that shows off that oh-so-hot skeleton body of theirs. Nothing says sexy than chest plate. Thank God this is only tonight, and not some dumb gimmick all week. I”m so sick of all the hype for this garbage, and hearing women talking about this trite as if it's a Coppola film makes me laugh and realize this is another example why the rest of the world thinks we are shallow assholes.

Reading my description of the women, particularly what I like, I'm guessing those who really know and care about me are saying to themselves “My god he is a mess..”.

As I said in the past, I've been turned onto mashups thanks to listening to “the Lazlow Show”. I've found quite a few good ones, but the one I found that really makes me smile is one that took “Sgt. Peppers' Lonely hearts Club” by the Beatles, and “Paradise City” by Guns and Roses. Here's how much of an ass I am. I scoured the internet for some of these mashups I've heard on the mp3s I have from “The Lazlow Show”'s box set, and I realized after finding the ones I was looking for, I realized I could have simply taken them from the mp3s I had!

Again, go to lazlow.com and check out Lazlow and his work, He has the last radio show he did on Xm up there, and if you like it buy the box set, that has all his shows he has done on XM and K-rock since 2005. You won't be disappointed. He's the guy behind all the awesome production in a lot of Rockstar Game's video games. He also is known for the one minute “Technofile” heard around the country on various radio stations. Also you get introduced on his show to the man, the myth, the legend-BIG WAYNE. The dude is a psychopath, and I have written about him before, but he's got stories about his life in Queens that are hilarious.

Saturday night, I saw the worst movie I think that has ever created. It was called “RoboCop: Prime Directives-Crash an Burn.” It was the late night movie, so you know it was awesome. This had to be a straight to video movie, since no one in their right mind would put this dreck into a theatre. From what I gather as far as the plot, since I was more in shock at the shit I was watching, it's about RoboCop helping some three chicks rebel against a crazy OCP scientist, who was rebelling against everyone himself with a mega virus that can kill humanity. On top of this, the scientist has his own RoboCop (but is a black guy-because you have to have a black guy in the movie), who sometimes wants to kill RoboCop and these three chicks (who look like soft-core porn stars), but sometimes is friends with RoboCop. This film made no sense, and I'd love to know who was the moron who invested his money seriously thinking “I'm going to make a killing on this flick!!!” Steer clear of this garbage, you will feel better about yourself.

Yesterday was a big day for auto racing. First was the Monaco Grand Prix for F1 racing. It's an interesting race to watch. First it's considered the biggest race in F1, but it always looked like crap considering it's on a street course that always look second rate. Being the race course is based on the streets in Monaco, it's ultra narrow, and there's no real racing or passing. The only passing is there is during pitstops, and that doesn't make for good racing. Then there was the Indy 500, or as it has been known lately, the Danica Patrick show, and some other racers 500. It's nauseating how much ABC and IRL is hedging their bets on one woman, that is almost as overhyped as Anna Kornikova, but at least Patrick did win one race. Overall it was a good race, but I thought ABC would have shut the production down after Patrick crashed out. Stories with agendas aren't interesting, and could turn off many people. Sorta like the Galaxy and Beckham and how all that is shoved down the throats of those who follow soccer. I honestly didn't see the NASCAR race because “Recount” was on.

“Recount” was HBO's movie about the 2000 election and what happened between Election day and when Bush was declared winner. I thought it was a fair showing of what happened. All of the acting was top notch, and if there is only one reason to see the film, see it for Denis Leary's work in it. He was really funny as hell. I”m sure HBO will be showing the movie over and over again, so there should be no way not to see it.

This Memorial Day weekend has really bit the big one. I've been sick the past couple days, and today it's gotten worse. My entire plans today pretty much had to not happen, and today involved me sitting in my living room going through my DVR looking at some old shows and being pissed. Tomorrow may not happen, and that would mean another RBNY game I miss, and that's gotten me angry. I probably could go, but going to a sporting event sick really sucks. A 90 Minute game feels like 6 hours when your head is so congested like mine. Also like I was reminded of today, is that when you are sick, your attention span sucks, hence why I haven't really played any video games today or really watched entire shows on my DVR. A soccer game in this state wouldn't help. Last time I was this sick at a game, it involved a crowded bus ride, a shitty club where the teams new owners were bribing the fanbase to accept them, a toilet of a stadium, and a brawl in the parking lot (due to the non-security at the stadium...but my theory is that we are from NY and NJ, and the stadium is on the Va side of DC...do the goddamn math!!)

My head is so congested, the idea of slamming my head into the wall and hope it cracks open to relieve the pressure. What's got me pissed is that I can't use any of the good decongestants due to the fact I have high blood pressure, and the good stuff makes the blood pressure skyrocket. The crap they say is safe for people like me are without the stuff that caused the skyrocketing blood pressure-WHICH IS WHAT MAKES THE MEDICINE WORK!!! That's like when diet pills got rid of the materials that cause hearts to explode, but that stuff accelerates the body to burn off the fat. Seriously, I am really pissed. I hope at least some of the people here have had their weekends be completely destroyed by something or someone. One good thing is that “Uninformed with Bill Burr and Joe DeRosa” is on XM tonight. Something that makes one feel less angry about themselves when others are angry on TV/Radio is amazing.

Other things that are going on include my full goatee is back, and it is driving me crazy!!! At least I have to have it for another week. I have it for something going on next Saturday, which should be a fun time. I had to grow it for a gimmick, and it's a gimmick that's the cheapest one and easiest one I could pull off in all honesty. I usually can't stand gimmick events, but this time I am making an exception and I want to do it. So those who think I do things for others expecting something back can go fuck themselves. Look back at some of the things I have done for others from the writing I did in the past on this thing, then see how big of an asshole I am.

I think I am getting sick, and I am not happy. My throat is feeling bad, I think I am getting the sniffles, and I felt like garbage all day today. These hours don't help matters, but it is what it is. One thing I was looking into lately is getting rid of my Netflix and going and getting an Apple TV ( read about it here: http://www.apple.com/appletv/). It's just more convenient, and not that expensive if you look at the rentals and if I want, purchases. Also means less room taken up by DVDs. I know Netflix has their new set-top box to compete with the Apple TV, but I like Apple products, and it's one of the few brands I am really loyal to.

Watching the Champions League final this afternoon ad enjoying every bit of it, I felt good about my decision to stop following the top division in england altogether, and look for a lower level team to support. Haven't made a final decision, but I like Watford FC. Still open to suggestions, so if anyone want to sway me one direction or another, have at it. The reason I am doing this? First, it's just as easy to follow a lower level team these days as it is a Premier League team thanks to the internet, and also I think it would be more interesting to follow one of these teams.

Finally, as I said, I was looking around Craigslist for comedic value and to see how creepy some of the personals are. I thought of one I would put up to see if I got any hits. If I were to put one up, it would go like this:

Giving an opportunity to a woman to meet a fantastic man, but you must fit the criteria here or you are are wasting yours and mine time, so don't bother responding if you can't meet my standards;
-need to be between the age of 25-35.
-White or Latin only. I don't hate Asians or Blacks. I just am not attracted to them. Besides, I have a better shot passing a Latina as White, saying she's Sicilian....because the Moors did invade Sicily....
-Need to be able to at least not be offended by brutal, “mean spirited” comedy. If you think Brian Regan is edgy, don't bother responding. you may not like my sense of humor
-You need to keep in mind I am a man, and if I do or say something, don't laugh it off or doubt me since I will prove I am right. I want you to show me respect and treat me as the man, not a lapdog or a second class citizen. Any lack of respect shown to me in that manner will be considered a direct insult and a waste of the opportunity you have before you.
-Any baggage that you have from your past should be checked at the door when you and I are doing something. If you do have a family issue or problem with someone from your past, don't have it so that you are so consumed by it where it takes you out of what we are doing. If you do, you are wasting my time and it would make me feel disrespected, and could lead to you being left at where we are (the mall, movie, etc.) If you are so worried about these stuff, call them for a ride home since I refuse to waste money and gas on someone that has no class.
-You must also work and put forth an effort in this relationship to fully take advantage of this opportunity that is being offered. I believe in equality, where both people work equally to make things work. Should I feel if I am doing more than I should, or if I feel as if I am being blown off or you are playing hard to get where I am chasing you, keep running and go away. You will not be missed.
-One thing that shouldn't have to be mentioned, but I will just for honesty's sake, must have decent hygiene I should not find out that you have what would be called a “gynecological disaster area”, where for some reason I am reminded of the Jersey Shore at low tide (or worse, the crab fishing grounds if the Bearing Sea). If I am able to keep myself in decent shape, so should you.
-Bonus if vanity isn't the top priority, I hate shallow people. Also if you are humble and know where you stand in this world, that also is a plus. Don't ever think that you hold any higher ranking/status in this relationship or in the world in general. I will take you down a peg and if that is not liked, there's the door, hit the bricks.
-Finally you must at least respect that I enjoy the following (and bonus if you enjoy them too. But if you try to stop me from enjoying these things, I will stop you from enjoying me and leave you): Soccer, Football, Baseball, Video games, watching TV/Movies, Opie and Anthony, Ron and Fez, Apple/Mac, Rock and Rap music, and may other things I can't think of off the top of my head, but will come up at some time. I will respect your interests and I demand you do the same.

So if you want to take this opportunity up and find out how much of a sweet, sensitive, teddy bear that I am, shoot me an email. Include a pic of you, and not just of your eyes and/or face, I am well versed in the “myspace magic”.


I think I would get a ton of responses if I did ever put this up...I am what every woman wants!!

The more and more I play around with the Iphone, and also read about it, the more I would like one. Verizon sucks when it comes to Macs. They aren't really compatible, and I can't use my music on their phones since a good amount of it is from Itunes, not their Vcast. I would have an Iphone now, but a couple of things are keeping me from having one. First is that I am the primary phone on a family plan I share with my mom. I don't want to screw over her if I were to port my number to AT&T, and either she is stuck with our current plan on her own (which costs over $100 monthly when Verizon adds all those nice extra charges), or they shut off her phone altogether. Anyone that has any idea about what I could do, please let me know. Also, I am not totally sure how's the signal quality with AT&T. Last time I was on a carrier that has the same technology as AT&T, the signal sucked in my house, where I had to climb on my roof to make calls. Again, if you have any idea about he signal quality overall, especially around Queens, let me know.

Just for kicks, I was looking around craigslist, and it truly is a wasteland of the desperate and perverted. It's all damaged people, scam artists, and prostitution ads. it's quite the fun read when one is bored. I would love to meet someone who has met their husband/wife off of that site that didn't end up in an empty bank account or homicide detectives. I never did the dating site thing, where you have to pay to possibly get scammed or meet some psychotic, but I have been tempted to on occasion try it, who knows maybe I will one day, what do I have to lose in reality.

Just before I started writing this, I went to to Itunes and did my monthly “lets see what is recommended for me and maybe buy some music.” They do a pretty good job showing you some other artists. I got some music but not really anything I didn't know. Most of what I bought were albums/singles that came up like “oh, thats something I wanted to get a while ago, what the hell.” It's a little tricky though, because if you don't pay attention, you could spend a lot of money and not realize it.

Ugh, after that dogshit paragraph, I'll leave you all with this. Here are the two signs that the Democrats will not with the election-Ted Kennedy has cancer, and a Klan member endorsed Obama. But what was impressive was the crowd Obama got to show up in Oregon over the past weekend. It was also a little frightening just because there are so many people out there that will follow someone who won't back up any of his vague claims of “changing things”.

Oh, and the Mets should have swept the Yankees, but God felt so much pity on the Yankees he rained the first game out.

First it was a state and one of it's agency I hated, now I'm up to the Federal Government. I am expecting my federal tax refund, and it was supposed to have been here by now according to my tax preparer. Today I got all the info from him to call the IRS to ask about where the hell is my money. I go through all the phone crap and get some hayseed on the line. I say all the info I was required to give, he puts me on hold several times, interrupted with stupid questions like “You didn't get your check, right?”, “When did you file your return?”, and shit like that. After 20 minutes, he tells me that they have to track down my check, and see if it was just lost in the mail (where then they just send me another check), or if it was stolen and cashed (where they send me a COPY of my check and a ton of paperwork for me to fill out). How long should this take.. oh, 45 days....45 FUCKING DAYS!!!!

Some out there are probably saying “chill out, these things happen.” Well, when it involves almost 2 grand, and that it's the government's responsibility to pay me money that they OWE to me and haven't sent it to me in a month, I think I have a right to be pissed at these deadbeats. The federal government runs both the mail service and the IRS, and it involves money, so why aren't they making damn sure the money they owe is sent properly and guaranteed to those who are getting their money.

Fuck Jersey, and fuck the NJSEA. I should probably feel more just for the latter, but both have me pissed. I drove out there for the Red Bulls game. Well, the morons that run the sports complex chose to have three events there almost at the same time: the soccer game, the weekly flea market, and Z100's Zootopia. Usually this isn't a big deal, but since the new football stadium is being built there's almost no real parking to handle all the events. I drive up to the guy by lot 16 (where I usually tailgate for the soccer games), and he says to drive around to one spot to get into the lot. I do so, and run into another guy, who says to drive to another spot to get into lot 16. After a couple more guys, I realize I drove around the complex and is back to the original guy I spoke with. I then went through the same process 2 more times, then demanded to talk to a supervisor. I do, and find out that lot 16 is an overflow lot for the arena, and it won't be opened until needed. I ask to be let in, seeing some people I know in there already, but he said no. So after all this, I said fuck it, and drove home PISSED. Tonight I saw the game, on TV while heavily drinking which I stopped to write this. Thank god the team is building their own stadium and will be out of that shithole soon.

If you were at Zootopia and reading this, stop reading this or kill yourself since I don't think you are the right person to be reading this, and also I hope your kid was raped in the bathroom of the arena by some creepy older gentleman that was at the concert with no kids. Also, this should show how bad Z100 is these days. they couldn't book the Garden or the new Prudential Center to do their concert, but had to settle with the IZOD Center, which is nothing more than a big outhouse that the Devils ran from, and the Nets are going to leave since it's such a dump. Then again, Z100 is owned by Clear Channel, and they have lost the booking rights of a lot of the good new arenas to Live Nation or AEG, and the best the could do is a swamp in the middle of northern Jersey.

Last night at least was a good time. I did the usual hanging out with the usual crew at a cool bar. Didn't get too drunk last night since I didn't want to have a hang over for the soccer game today. Had I known what could have happen, I'd have been doing a ton of shots. I ad a chance to talk to a friend about what happened earlier this week. She sent out a mass email about a get together for Sat night for a friends birthday. I said I couldn't make it, due to other plans. I get an response back saying ;what, you have a date???” After several minutes of laughing, I responded saying I had tickets to a soccer game, and if I did have a date would I I have tickets to soccer in Jersey, and if I had a date, wouldn't she think i would be taking her along to be analyzed/interrogated by the crew we hang out with. She said she understood, and last night she told me how hard she and the other ladies are on the “new chick” to see if she is worthy. I had a good laugh, and left the conversation simply saying “If I am seeing someone, I have to see if she can put up with my bullshit first before I can see if she can put up with you gals.” She laughed and said that is true. Obviously, no ladies I've dealt with has been worthy. I will say this, as much as it would be fun and interesting, I am sort of glad I don't have the type of friends who do try to set me up with friends, considering that could end the friendship of my friend and the other woman if things go south.

also I read this article off of Digg.com, and it's something I can realte to, as sad as it may seem:

Just a few thoughts tonight.

First, this election is so damn annoying to watch and follow. Clinton won't get out of it even though she has zero chance to win outside of Obama getting shot or something, and I think the only reason she is still in it so she can go “Well I was the other viable candidate in the Primary the Democrats could have voted for” if and when Obama loss to McCain. Ironic part is the longer she is still in, the more divided and disorganized the party gets. But hey, it's her money and family she is plunging into massive debt, so it's her choice to do this waste of time. Hell, the whole voting process doesn't matter anyway since the Illuminati runs the country and all the industries in this country. Well, not all industries....the Entertainment and Banking industries are ran by another group apparently. But the Illuminati do run these on certain religious holidays and on the sabbaths of the other group's affiliation to make sure the illusion is kept up.

I started growing in my mustache again to fill in the goatee again. Have to for a party, and luckily I will be getting rid of it the day after said party. This party has a theme/gimmick, and I chose the only one I could pull off without dumping a lot of money on it (rather do that for Halloween). I did get the T-shirt needed for this today, and now I am all set. I prefer to not have the mustache and just keep the lower part, many women have complimented me on the look and I think I look good with my facial hair like that....but then again, when DON'T I look good??

Speaking of women, I have to say this after the past few weeks. Looks alone won't get you anywhere with guys like me (if there are any other out there like me, I think I'm unique and the best of them all, but I”m a tad biased). To me, a woman with a nice set of eyes, ass, and chest are a dime-a-dozen. I can walk around my block and see at least five to six women I would consider attractive. All that is just filler after you open your mouth and reveal your personality. That's when women have to really step up their game and get “right” in the head I feel. “Sex and the City” is a shitty show and soon to be shitty movie, it is NOT reality. Unless you want to be a cougar who comes off as desperate and not sexy, STOP thinking it is reality. Stop acting you like to have a “Strong” man in your life, but still feel the world revolves around you and men are here to be your lap dogs. You can't have it all in life. Men like me won't hang around waiting for you, we got other things to worry about than if we are single or not. We don't need someone there wasting our time with their hard to get crap, or the “I'll just keep a bunch of guys around to take me out on dates because it helps raise my almost non-existent self esteem” crap. Guys like me don't play second fiddle to anyone or anything, plus if women don't put the effort in to make it worth our time to bother with them, we are as soon as gone when something shiny comes by to take our attention away like we have ADD.

I was told by a wise man once “When you chase something, in the end it most likely won't be worth it after all the bullshit you go through to get it. If it something to be attained and caught, it will let itself be caught” A wise man indeed....who also told me that the best way to tell how comfortable you are with someone is if you can drop a deuce in their bathroom and not feel guilty about it. One more lesson I finally learned after a few failures: If someone leaves your life on not-so-good terms and are now in the past, leave them there and never bring them back into your life or let them back in if they contact you/beg to come back into your life. Most likely they haven't changed, even if they promise you they have. Once a piece of trash, always a piece of trash, so don't put yourself through the bullshit.

Yep, I am a tad jaded with the whole humanity thing. But remember I'm always the crazy one, the one who doesn't know what the hell he is talking about, yet somehow whatever I say comes true.

I just got done watching “Deadliest Catch”, and thank God for DVR-that's the only way I can watch TV during the week with the hours my job requires. It's an awesome show, and if you never saw it, it's about the trials and work of some of the ships that participate in the Alaskan crab fishing seasons. It's a show that proves to me hat no matter what manly things I do, I'm still a sissy compared to these fishermen-in one episode last season, one of the sailors pulled a tooth out with a pair of pliers for God's sake. As I was watching the show, I was thinking about something: A crab boat is a lot like how one's life is.

Think about it. On one of these boats there's a close knit group of people that look out for each other in order for all of them to survive and succeed in their tasks. This isn't that much different than in one's life. One has a group of people that they trust and will do anything for them and vice versa. When any new person comes into the group, on these boats they are called “greenhorns”, they have to work hard and prove themselves worthy of becoming a part of the group. Look at your own lives, how many outsiders have you felt like they had to earn your trust, rather than just giving it to them?

Also like on one of these boats, people come and go from one's life. They do in various ways. They either can't cut it, get in over their head and did not realize the amount of work that is required, talked a great game and couldn't back it up, found another opportunity elsewhere, or simply waste an opportunity they are given or take the opportunity for granted.

Personally, I know that I sometimes make people work a lot to gain my trust and friendship, sort of like how one boat in the series, the Northwestern's captain works his crew harder than the other boats work their crews, but are well rewarded in the end and are an ultra close-knit crew. Those who really know me can say this is somewhat like me, where I may ask a lot of others sometimes, but I do make it up to them and make all that work worth it.

Also one major similarity, and the last one I will make considering you all may think I am nuts making this comparison in the first place. When the world around the ship gets rough, the crew buckles down, band together, and works gets through the problem, a lot like how ones' friends and family do the same when things get tough.

OK enough of my rambling.

Before I get into my weekend, I wanted to talk about a trend that is disturbing to me. At work one of the people I talk to was telling me about a meeting he had with his boss, and how he almost got fired. Apparently this guy had the nerve...THE NERVE!!! to go away on vacation last week and not have his laptop and Blackberry with him. The guy's boss was angry with him that there was no way to get in contact with the guy, due to some issue at work last week. the guy was really upset about it and said “There's no reason to even go on vacation anymore if I have to be tethered to my computer!!” I've seen others get into this situation as well, and it just really bothers me how people are being worked to death, and they can't take advantage of one week to relax. I've had my boss call me on my vacation, but that wasn't a huge deal, and he was apologetic to do it but had to be done.

I don't get it. the idea of a vacation is to vacate, be it your job, or the area, for a week or so to just decompress and de-stress to be a more productive worker overall. You would think that with all the work people are forced to do, even on vacations (and when they are sick /in a hospital-God forbid you are allowed to recuperate in peace without more stress on you), the US would be miles ahead of everyone. But it's just one giant meat grinder that we are all being put through these days, without any real compensation anymore, either in pay or retirement when we are ran into the ground.

Now onto my weekend. Friday I just hung out and played video games and got some stuff done. Yeah, I live the high life don't I??? Saturday got some cleaning done, played with my new Phillips universal remote, and after a while of trying to figure out what the hell I can do with it, I got it up and running. Best part is everyone else is intimidated by it, so no one will touch it and potentially screw it up. They got their remotes, I got mine.

Later that night I was invited out to a movie by my cousin. We went to see “Iron Man” with some others. Getting there was no problem. Thank God for online tickets, since when we all got there the show was sold out, and a couple people couldn't get in due to them committing at the very last minute. Also found it funny that the ticket machines were going down one-by-one due to no paper and the high demand. I as waiting for the last one to go down and a riot ensues, especially when I am standing on line on the second level. We get the tickets and we wait up on the line to just get even into the theater. It was an impressive site to see, and we were worried about getting seats together. We eventually get into the theater and our seats, up front. Actually the seats weren't that half bad, since this was one of the newer theaters where it's set up where you aren't destroying your neck just because you didn't get a seat in one of the last five rows. The movies starts and for the most part there weren't any major problems, even the kid that was talking way too much to his parents was drowned out by all the explosions-again, thanks to the modern theaters with their awesome sound systems. One other good thing was no one's cell phone rang, something I told all those I was with that if theirs goes off, their phone gets thrown to a wall. I can't stand phones going off or people talking on their phones where I am paying to enjoy something that should be in silence outside the event I am there to watch. After that, we said our goodbyes, and I crashed at my cousin's place.

Mother's day comes around, and that involved going home and saying happy Mother's day. I did leave a card for my mom the night before, which also had a bunch of lotto instant games she loves. After a quick shower and shave. We head out to a lunch at my Aunt's house. For the most part, it was a good time, and good food. Sure there was a feeling of tension in the house, but it's one I've felt in that house the past 15 years (those who know what I am talking about can figure out what led to said tension). Also a debate about who i paid and didn't over a couple things, and I think I somehow still owe people money, not sure how but whatever.

After this ended all the good of the weekend. I get home and hang out. I listen the “The Lazlow Show” (which wasn't a bad show overall, but not their greatest), and play GTA IV a little, while waiting for a phone call. Needless to say that never came and I just found out why, but that's another matter. Then i couldn't really sleep all night, gotta try to stop thinking late at night since I think thinking/somewhat worrying keeps me up some nights. Today I wake up with my ankle bothering me a little with the weather. Then I get to work with a bad ankle and a lot of walking, so I was in a chipper mood. Then at my job there was some equipment malfunctions, but luckily they were resolved. Finally get done with work, and get some texts form people I was waiting to hear from. Things were said that I'll say that it sort of reaffirms my instincts, but as I said that will be dealt with the next couple days. Lesson I learned, if your gut is speaking louder than logic when it's usually the other way around, go with your gut. I may get into all this another time, but it starting to make me feel even more justified to be how I am these days with people in general.

So that's it, that's what has been going on. I really don't have much else to say, but it's been a few days since I posted so I felt I should.

Have you ever seen or heard about the site ashleymadison.com? In short it is a “dating” site for people who want to cheat, and I'm sure it's for people into threesomes, swinging, or the guy is a cuckle and this makes it easier to find a guy to help him out with his thing. I don't know about this site. I personally am not a big fan on the idea of the site, since I am not one into infidelity and cheating, but to each his/hers own. I can't wait to hear about legal case involving divorces and this site. As much there is a confidentiality clause I am sure with the site and clients, and they could always go “hey were still just a dating site that happens to cater to one niche audience, it should be interesting how a lawyer will try to put these guys liable for a divorce. Besides, it's the other person's fault for not noticing the card charge for the membership to this site. And it would be funny to see how many relationships fall apart when one joins, only to find the other person on the site already!!!

I've been scouring the internet for mashups/remixes. There are some really cool ones out there, like from Party Ben and DJ Zebra. Look up these guys on the net and see some of the interesting combos they have done. Sometimes it's hard to find, but worth it.

What that got me into mashups was The Lazlow Show. It's a show that was on Krock here in the city, and occasionally on XM radio. it's hosted by lazlow, who is known from his production work on GTA series of games, and his “radio show” in the games. He was given a once a week talk show for several months in the dying months of Krock before they went to all talk, where ironically he didn't continue his show. He and his crew as I said still do a show once a month on XM202 (or try to-due to GTA IV Lazlow was tied up doing the production on that and couldn't do a new show for a couple months), and it s a cool mix of tech stuff (from his “technofile” radio bit he still does and is known for as well), web junk, and just humor that is supplied by Reed Tucker his producer, and Big Wayne, Lazlow's friend and carpenter who has had a unique love life and life living in Queens. Lazlow sells a box set of his old shows on his site www.lazlow.com, and he does put up his last show up for free download. I suggest getting the set, and it will entertain you. I listen to all of the shows on my Ipod set to random at work and it never gets old.

Just throwing a couple things up here tonight, because I am bored.

-I am grateful to have a job. I learned something yesterday that was bad news for someone, and it's unfortunate. Hopefully this person can bounce back form the setback. As much as my job sucks it's still better than having none at all

-The more I think about it, the more it's likely I will have to give up my model car hobby. It's partly due to the gas prices, the fact that I really have no desire to do it especially on the same weekend of soccer games, and it's just no passion for me anymore. I don't really feel bad this could happen, but it is what it is

-Sharpton is going to protest this week apparently, and I honestly don't care. As long as he stays away from Rockefeller Center, it's all good. Part of me wishes that it turns into a riot and Sharpton get his skull crushed in by either a wild baton or a tear gas canister flying into the crowd. Seeing the lemmings that follow Sharpton, it wouldn't surprise me if some get a little overzealous and starts a ruckus.

-I love GTA IV, been playing it as much as I can, and so far I have found it to be a fun time. Multiplayer is ok, but something I have to get used to. I've been switching time between GTA and MarioKart, another game that I have enjoyed playing.

-I am still waiting for my universal remote from Woot.com. Woot is a cool site that can have some good deals occasionally. They put something up for sale at an insanely low price, and its only available for one day only. Sometimes what they have up goes fast, but sometimes it won't. I got this remote that sells in most stores for $80 for about $35 shipped.

-It must suck to be a Nets fan. First they suck, and now they are supposed to have a new arena in Brooklyn, but more and more issues come up and it looks like it will be even more time before the arena is built. there is also rumblings that the Devils and the city of Newark want to buy the team and move it to the new arena in Newark (which is a nice place-even though it has all that Devils crap up in it). Makes me glad RBNY at least started building their stadium, even though it did take them several years to even break ground.

Happy Cinco De Mayo-where the Mexicans try to act like the Irish!!!!

So Friday night I went to a birthday party at a bowling alley. I get a ride with my cousin and his wife to the Pallisades Mall in Rockland County. It's not so much a mall, it's more like a complex. It's like one of those “super malls” that is almost a city unto itself. I've never been to this place before. When I saw the place, I realized why people in other countries think Americans are assholes. The size of this place is way too much, and the idea of having a center like this just shows how much of a consumer nation and economy this country has become.

Anyway, we get to the bowling alley that's inside the mall (which also has a ton of gimmick restaurants, among the other stores/places). I walk in, meet up with some people, and we all start to bowl. I suck at bowling, considering the last time I bowls was at least 12 years ago. I didn't care, I showed up to celebrate this person's birthday and just have a good time. I did learn something though. apparently, despite how most who read this think, I”m probably the most mentally stable of those who I hang out with. The three brothers of the birthday boy was there (the same form the bachelors party a while ago), and their sister also. I feel bad for any guys who ever took her out, seeing what they could have had on their ass if they messed up. She also had the same little quirks as her brothers, and you can tell she was related to them. I mean this in the most complimentary way, but she seemed to have that potential to be one of those chicks tat could be outside your house pouring gas all over the place because you screwed up, but she's that hot/crazy so it's ok and you would think “hell, i'd still bang her”. Hey, any guy who HASN'T gone out with a chick like that hasn't really dated!!! There were some others there I met for the first time and I found them quite...unique. but overall I had a good time, so I can't bitch.

After the party was where the real fun came. I was ok, my cousin was ok, but two of our friends who were driving home in another car got tanked. The actual driver was really gone, but the other guy wasn't as bad, but not good enough to drive. the girlfriend of the other guy wanted to drive since she was not comfortable having either one driving. Eventually it led to a fight between them since neither guy wanted her to drive, so my cousin stepped in and said he'd drive that car and I'd drive his behind. We get it all settled, and I had both girls in the car I drove. I barely remember what the two of them were talking about, because I was so focused on getting back to the city. As we all drove back, we run into some nasty fog, where I could barely see in front of me. I was actually able to see the other car, but I was focused on the car in front of them, seeing how that car reacted. Eventually we get back to the city drop people off, and I crash at my cousins.

The rest of the weekend was uneventful, kind of a downer actually. I thought I was going to do something Sunday I was looking forward to and made plans to do Friday, but never got to. Guess the other person wa busy, but haven't heard back about what happened. Sorta sucks but then again I don't bother with that whole hope thing anymore.

Oh and to the observer that seems to be lurking: I don't do all that I do expecting things in return. I do a lot of things just because I want to and because it's the right thing to do, and not expect anything back. In fact in a couple weeks I'm doing something really out of the norm for someone just because they are a friend and I want to do it. My big thing is that there's only so many time I will do things for people before I start thinking that they are taking me for granted. Last time I did a lot of things for someone just because I wanted to and wanted to maybe make them smile through a rough time they were going through, it caused stress on some other friendships and family relationships, and despite all I did, I was called a selfish asshole for doing all I did. When this happened, it was the I decided to stop this crap, I'm a man not a charity, at some point I should get something back, outside of the feeling a good that I did something good and right-but that makes me selfish right? And also the point is missed;it's not just personal relationships, but professional ones as well. I've had a lot of other frustrating dealings with people overall, that was the point of what I was ranting about