I am sitting here feeling proud about a friend of mine. She’s had a shitty job for the past several months that apparently has caused her a lot of problems like panic attacks and illness. All this is due to stress, and she chose to start looking for another job. I’m proud of her because she saw a problem with her situation and chose to do something about it. It shocks me how many people in this world doesn’t do this, and they stay in their jobs and be miserable. A job is just that-a job. There are tons of other things one should focus on in their lives than just a job/career. In the end, what does all that focus on a job really does? To me, someone who chooses to focus all their energy and time on their jobs/career only ends up with little to show for their lives, along with shattered relationships, few friendships, and just an unhealthy quality of life.

I’ve known many throughout my life who had put all their energy into a job that consumed them physically and mentally that it was an unhealthy situation to be in. I’ve also had a couple people say they rather have their jobs their top priority over a relationship with their own family and me. Not only can this be a soul-crushing thing to hear, but also a sad thing to hear and I feel that these people are really pathetic. In the end people choose whatever the hell they want to do with their lives, just that the thing is that they damn sure better be able to live with themselves and be able to look at themselves and accept the choices they made.

I myself, I choose to keep my life and job separate. A job should not take up more than 12 hours of the day (including the commute to and from), and the rest of the day should be left for living and sleeping. I’ve been in situation where I had my workday/commute take up to about 18 hours a day, and after several weeks of that run, my mind was misfiring and I didn’t feel healthy. SO I chose to keep my workday limited to 12 hours, because in life you should take time to live and enjoy things, without feeling you need to produce something in order to get paid. Ay job that made me feel like my entire life and being revolved around a job, I left and got something else. Have I lost out on a lot of money? Probably, but I feel better about myself and can look at myself and feel like I made the right choice.

So I am proud someone at least sees it my way, and I am sure this person will find a better situation to work and live in. I hope some of you after reading this at least thought about your situation and possibly started your way onto a situation that is healthy and good for you.

Now onto a couple other subjects that I isn’t related to what I just wrote/ranted about. First off, I still haven’t heard any answers to the question I asked last week, which is give me one good reason to get a Facebook page since I’ve heard people say I should have one. When I hear a compelling argument, I may get one.

Also, I wrote this question on a videogame site, and I thought I would put it here as well, it also has my opinion on it as well, but I thought I would share:

I am not sure if this was ever brought up, but could one major issue with the PS3's somewhat lack of success be due to the fact that EA, the largest publisher out there, always puts more of an effort into the 360 versions of their products? I mean, it seems everything points to the obvious bias, but that has to be that one of EA's presidents just HAPPENS to have been one of the creators of the Xbox systems. To me as a consumer this doesn't seem right that EA is nothing more than a fair-weather fan when it comes to the consoles-they heavily favored the PS2 the last generation of games-only to slap sony in the face this time around with an agenda to favor a lesser-powered machine that is only saved by the fact they have their online system better set up. Is it possible that EA has told all their developers to push the 360 in both games and in PR or am I simply looking into a non-issue and trying to pass off a conspiracy theory as a PS3 owner?

I used to have a 360, but got a ps3 due to Blu-ray, the exclusive content Sony has is better than Microsoft's, and also looked at the non-exclusive games as the same on both but ran more stable on the PS3. I guess my assumption was wrong, since although the games on a PS3 look and run better, EA seems to think an average powered machine with a vast history of major problems (sony has had their share of issues but not nearly as widespread or serious).

So the holiday season is upon us and I hate it. All those morons and rubes lining up for Black Friday at stores last night made me wish that there is a massive fire in these stores and most of the doors are blocked due to those “great deals”, just to thin out the herd a little. Yeah, the holidays do bring up the best out of me. Hell as I type this, I am watching a great feel-good movie that fits this holiday perfectly-“Scarface”

As far as my shopping for the holidays, I’m still debating if I am going to do what I did last year or actually get stuff for people. Maybe I’ll do a little bit of both, but last year it was so simple, and I didn’t get any complaints or anything given back due to anyone not liking them.

On another subject, I finally figured out what I would like as far as my next tattoo. I know where I want it, my leg, and I have a picture of what I want in my mind I just have to put it into something tangible to show the artist. If I did have some form of artistic skills I’d try to put it on paper, and maybe I’ll try to, but with my luck it will end up looking like dogshit or something that would look better if the artist blindfolded himself and put on the tattoo.

Yesterday was the finals of MLS Cup. I spent the good part of the day in Jersey going to a friend’s place to see the game. To be honest, if I had not taken this job I have now and was still unemployed I would have been out at the game. I knew that the team was going to lose-the Crew had too much talent on their team to not lose. Still for a part of the day, I couldn’t stop thinking, “Holy shit, I may see this team win.” Seeing this team win to me is much different than seeing any team I follow win. See RBNY is a team I saw “born.” I have followed this team since it was first announce as a franchise in MLS back in 1995 (they were known then as “Empire FC”-I wish they kept that name). I wrote about my first ever Metrostars game in 1996 (look it up in this blog, not going to find it for you). I remember the first time I was at most of the games in 2000 after college and then a season ticket holder for this team in 2001 and for several years after. I remember going to Rutgers several times in 2003 to watch them play in US Open Cup games and then the final that they lost in Giants Stadium to the Fire. I also remember all the bus trips to DC and Foxboro all these years, and the infamous van trip to DC where I saw a DC fan get knocked out with the ESC drum. All that I saw and endured with this team, both good and bad could have possibly made to look like nothing in a span of 90 minutes and one victory on Sunday.

For a span of 25 minutes it looked like I was going to see something amazing. But that’s only 25 minutes, not 90 and in the end the team lost 3-1. I will say the time I had at the house I was at did soften the loss, but no matter how ready and accepting I was that the loss was inevitable even before the start of the game, it did hurt. I usually don’t have hope for a lot of things-I rather stay with the reality of what’s going on and go from there-but for a moment I felt like a child hoping to get that big present that I hoped to get for so many years.

After a little time of hanging out, I drove home. Driving to and from my friend’s place meant I had to drive past the Garden State Parkway on 80. This is a significant spot for me and usually I try to avoid this spot. I avoid it because of the time I drove someone home one night from a drive-in just over the Jersey-NY border. The drive up and back from this drive-in, and dropping this person off make me feel at the time something very rare and possibly the first time with someone else: the feeling of that a person was with me and liked/cared about me without any obligation or ulterior motive. It was a magical night that I can never forget no matter how much damage and pain has happened since between this person and me. You would think that driving past this would be something that would make me smile if this was a good memory, but given the events that has transpired since then and also the loss of the game today, I had the feeling of “so close, yet so far” in both the victory for the team today and a personal success with me and this person that, unlike the team that can wait till next year, I know would never happen with me and her since things are pretty much irreparably damaged on both sides. So as I driving through this small part of Jersey, I looked down at the speedometer and I didn’t’ know a Kia Sportage could hit 100, but I got one to!! Outside of that small moment (which was about 5 mins of an hour trip that realistically I shouldn’t have given so much of a shit over), the trip home was uneventful.

(If you don’t know what the hell I was talking about in that last paragraph, go read some of the past entries from about a year ago)

A couple of non-related matters to close this entry. Everyone seems to mention I should have a facebook page. I barely care about my Myspace page; I doubt I would put much effort into that page. Also, what does Facebook have to offer me that would make it worth my time? Also, get jimmy Norton’s book “I Hate Your Guts”, a fine literary work where he talks about the things and people he hates. It’s funny and fun to read if you want to feel better about yourself.

This past week I’ve been in bad shape. I’ve been sick most of it, and I was in such bad shape I had to stay home. In said state I had nothing to do other than amaze how each sip of cold water makes me shiver or sip anything warm makes me sweat like the room is 110 degrees, and also sleep. In between these fun activities I was also reading some books, mostly to keep my mind off my situation and just try to boost my attitude. As I read, what I am about to write was coming into my head.

First off, I don’t know why, but most of my life, but I have had a like of whiny little babies to deal with. What I mean is people who all their lives revolved around wallowing in their miseries and just bitch and bitch and bitch. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been known to complain a bit but at the same time after I get it out, I figure out what I have and what I can and have to do to change the situation. This is what most sane people do but I somehow find those who don’t follow this pattern of action.

I knew someone who had a shitty job, but all this person did was cry that she was just a dumb waitress, she didn’t amount to anything, she hated NYC, and a lot of other petty little problems. Then again this wonderful attitude led to her not having contact with her family, losing a lot of her friends, and just acting that she’s the strong person that is above everything and everyone. In reality, her attitude showed me she’s nothing but a weak person that was a parasite that was sucking the fun and life out of my time I was spending with her. I called her out on all her bitching, and she had no answer to any of her bitching. I’m lying: she did have an answer “Oh well I guess I’ll have to stay as a waitress and just work through it.”

I haven’t talked to her in a while, but I’m sure she’s still in her shitty restaurant working, while hanging out with the people she found immature and beneath her. She was really garbage and was that way because she put herself there. I had a theory that her and people like her actually like to be in that situation mostly because it’s a “safe” place to be since they are familiar with it. I also think some of these sick people actually get off on this situation. These are really sad, weak people that no good people deserve to have in their lives, and vice versa.

Another thing that was on my mind was work and the people that bitch that they have no time for those they love or care about because they work so much. I’m sure those who are reading this crap can understand whom I am referring to. These are the people who choose to work 14+ hours a day and/or work 6 days a week, and then turn around and wonder why people are pissed with them or they are pissed that there’s no time for anything outside of work, sleep, eat, shower, and shit…not in that order.
See, here’s my theory on how a job should work. On one’s average day, work should take up no more than a total of 12 hours of your day (and this includes all time commuting). Sometimes it’s cool to rack up some OT, but for the most part, 12 hours is more than enough. Then there should be 6-8 hours for sleep, which means one should have 4-8 hours of time for them to do whatever the hell they want to do. Any job that infringes of this schedule on a regular basis, I then start looking for another job if I am not promised that the higher work schedule is only temporary, and I will start looking elsewhere when I am bothered on my weekends or vacations with work. Most people seem to just “take it” that your life should revolve around your job. If one chooses to live this way, then they should accept that their life and whoever they have in their life may not be what they want. On top of this, the only people to complain to and cry about this if it doesn’t turn out what they want are themselves.

I knew some people that was like that, and although promises were made to hang out or whatever, they “had to work that extra shift” or “had to cover for someone”, all the time. Once again these people I do not deal with anymore, since they are also weak people who don’t deserve anything more than what they happen to get via dumb luck. What do I mean by weak? What I mean is that these people are not good socially, or weren’t in their childhoods, and they finally find a job that they can wrap themselves with and make their lives and not have to worry about the “outside” world. Funny thing is humans don’t want to be alone, and when they want others in their lives, they find it difficult to assimilate them into their lives because they would have to give up some work. That would mean a loss of part of and leaving their “safe zone.” This is sad to me, and I don’t want these sad people around me.

So let me give some words about strong people, and people that are better than most of those who I just wrote about. Strong people are the people who can look at something wrong in their lives and go “I have problem a in my life, now I am going to go and do something to rectify this problem.” Strong people do have complaints, but they put them out there, and then after that it’s done and either they get it fixed or leave it and move on. These people are the motivated ones who will move past from their issues and work to get rid of them rather than sit there and wallow in shit.

I’ve met many of these people, and some recently that in reality they are one mishap away from another line, another drink, or even simply blowing their brains out, but they are still out there trying to better themselves, moving past whatever there was in their past that caused them to do damage or be damaged. These people may seem fragile, but at least they had the strength to at least try to elevate their lives.

If this seems like nothing but ramblings and poorly written, well it was poorly thought out. Hey I was sick as hell and dehydrated when this was thought through.

I think I am starting to get a cold. I figured out why I may be getting sick, and I have a theory why it is happening. At my job there’s a keypad and scanner for my hand to sign in and out. Next to this is a Purell hand sanitizer. Now, the first couple days I didn’t use it and things went well. One day I start to use it and now I may be getting sick. Now I don’t use it after this. I am starting to think that the companies that make the sanitizer products are in cahoots with the drug industry to make things so clean that we get sick easier due to the lower immune system and then the drug industry can profit in making us better again.

Here’s my theory-the Purell people and the drug industry saw people healthy and that means no real money coming in. The drug industry got the Purell or the cleaning people to make their stuff strong enough to make it so out immune systems are weakened, so disease can get into us and then the drug industry can sell us the cure and make money. Don’t’ believe me? Explain all the sudden outbreaks of staph infections, and some of the old-school afflictions coming back. Not only are they coming back but even stronger, which means the drug industry has to make different drugs and then can sell them to us at a premium.

When I was a kid, I played in the dirt and mud all the time. I was a kid. I mess things up with other kids and I didn’t worry about getting sick. I myself had to worry about other things, like making sure I can see the ball coming to me when I can barely see. When I was a kid, we didn’t have to worry about allergies or getting sick from eating something we shouldn’t have to. Today, if some kids eat something that happened to be in the vicinity of a peanut and their immune systems are so piss poor due to the over protective asshats called their parents, their throats slam shut and die. It amazes me how parents freak if their kids walk off he path in the park, or if kids play baseball they are not to slide or play in anyway that would be considered “aggressive” not just to cultivate a nation of pussies, but so they may not get dirty or scraped up. Seriously parents, once a week, throw your kids into some mud or something filthy, let them play in it or sit in it for a while. Kids have to have their immune systems worked out and strengthened, especially since there are things that they could potentially contract later on that will slowly take it away from them, usually somewhere in the range of ten years.


So people get dirty, and stop cleaning yourselves with that sanitizer shit. You’ll live longer

I spent the night here trying out the level creator on LittleBigPlanet. It’s a real time-consuming thing, but in a fun way. I spent two hours and I barely got much of it done. Most of the night was experimenting and figuring out what to do. It’s probably going to be considered “simple” to most of the created levels I played already. I played levels based on “American Gladiators”, “Ninja Warrior”, and “Ghostbusters”. Along with them, there were some real innovative levels that involved escaping prisons, storming castles, and just some real creative stuff. Two levels weren’t even levels. One was created by a guy who figured out how to make sound with the switches, and re-created the background music to the Airman level in “Mega Man”, and a calculator that actually worked. The amazing thing was with these two levels is that you can see the switches and triggers that make it work. The attention to detail and amount of work blows my mind. Look on Youtube and I’m sure there are videos of the levels. Unfortunately the creators of the game are turning into Youtube and cracking down on questionable levels due to copyright stuff and content, but also like Youtube it is possible to find what you are looking for. I feel humbled as far as my level and how it’s going to look, but hopefully it works out and people will like it.

I can’t wait for my copy of “Mirror’s Edge” to arrive from Amazon. I chose this week to stop going to Gamestop after my experience today at lunch. I went to the Gamestop at the south street seaport to get a copy of “Motorstorm: Pacific Rift” (which I’ll talk about it in a bit). When I got there and asked for the game, the guy wouldn’t’ stop trying to sell me a used game they had. I said I wanted a new game, but he kept trying to push the used game on me. They do this since they make money off of used games than new games-since they don’t have to pay the game companies as far as used games. Finally after a couple minutes of this crap, he reluctantly got my “new” copy of the game, which was the disc, put in the case on the wall, and sealed in plastic…..well before he got to it I said forget it, and left. I wanted a new, ORIGINALLY SEALED game, and he said what he was doing was normal and ok. I left the store after explaining to him the misleading and probably illegal practice he was doing. I am not sure if this is a new thing, but I never saw it happen before. After a little back and forth, I left. I then went to J&R and got my game. It sucks Gamestop is monopolizing the game store business, but I will never go to their stores anymore. If I want a game, I’ll go to Best Buy or order in off of Amazon.com. Another thing to look up on Youtube or the net are the videos of ex-Gamestop employees talking about some of the practices of the company. It will amaze and maybe anger people.

Like I said, I got the new “Motorstorm” game, called Pacific Rift. It’s a lot like the first game-where several different type of off-road vehicles race on courses with several different paths, some are better for some vehicles than others. This version of the game has more than just desert races, but tropical races in jungles, volcanoes, mountains, and beaches (the premise of the game is that all the races are all held on a tropical island). The game looks amazing, and the diversity of the terrain blows away the first game. The developers improved everything about the game, from the load times, to the frame-rate, and how you progress through the game (all of which were really pains in the asses during the first game). This year also has online racing, which I haven’t tried yet but I hear it works well. I played a little of it tonight, but time issues meant I couldn’t play a lot.

It’s a good time to be a fan of videogames.

The Red Bulls somehow pulled a win out of their asses, meaning in Hell I hope my dead uncle didn’t piss away his money down there on golf gear and can afford a jacket, but then again fuck him. That was a high point of the sports aspect of the weekend, which there was a small dark point late Saturday afternoon. Hey, the Rose Bowl is JUST as good as the national championship game!! Next weekend has the big UFC event and I’m pumped for it. With that and the RBNY game, it’s going to be a busy Saturday, on top of all the cleaning I have to do.

Speaking of last weekend, I went to a birthday dinner for my cousin’s wife’s birthday. It turned out to be a surprise birthday party, which everyone found out it was around lunch time Friday due to the awesome planning of the party organizer. Anyway I go over to my cousin’s place since he said to come over and we will go from there. I was shocked to see his wife there, since I though she would get there from work. We start out to the restaurant, and my cousin gave me his phone to make sure people who text/call know what’s up. I had to text the name of the place to someone, and just blurted out “what’s the name of the place?” My cousin caught on and gave me the entire address and everything. Yes, sometimes I’m as smooth as gravel. We get there and have dinner. It was a Filipino restaurant, and the food was quite good. I had some BBQ pork, but a lot of the food there looked good. It was a good size group there, and I did find at least one person agreed with my theory on the government. He truly is a wise stable man…..at least compared to the rest of his family. The place was also a karaoke bar, and not just English songs. They had a lot of the hits from the Philippines (I guess they were, not exactly up on my Filipino pop).

Amazon.com is like the Wal-Mart of the Internet, just less evil. I can find anything on that site. I bought a few things off their site, and since one of their warehouses is in Jersey, it gets here real quick. I haven’t really looked at the music part, though I hear it’s a pretty sweet setup. They make it worth it to shop on their site with the discounts and shipping prices, and they carry some obscure stuff one could need in whatever category you can think of. The ratings system is hit or miss, but that’s every site. There are sites where they say what thing to try to get the rating as low as possible, but most of these people are mindless sheep fan-boys of some videogame systems. Although I did find some really dumb things on the site I may have to write about and how stupid it looks and how it will NEVER be successful. Take this Rubik’s cube that is supposed to be revolutionary. First off it looks stupid with its blinking lights you are supposed to hit in time…I think that was revolutionary in the ‘80s. Looking at the “positive” reviews, it’s obvious that the people who make this piece of garbage are stuffing the ballot box. I’d love to hear the line of bullshit from the sales department that got this thing off the ground.

Gee, I wonder if I’ll be getting any phone calls/emails after that last rant. Apparently I may have to avoid 23rd street in Manhattan due to the sniper fire that will be coming from an office building. Then again it would be easy for one employee of the company since he will be at my place this weekend. Oh joy!!!

Lazlow.com has the latest “Lazlow show” episode up. Check it out, and buy something from his site!! Sure he’s made thousands off Rockstar Games and the games he’s worked on, but his radio show is awesome and he deserves to get money for it. Plus proceeds of the show got to help out Big Wayne, who is THE MAN if you’ve heard him on the show!!! I make no money off this pimping, just want to spread the word

So the Illuminati have decided to put Obama in as the leader of the puppet government. Apparently Obama had his “meetings” with the FBI and several other government agencies to get brief on things. I think it was the Illuminati’s meeting with him to show Obama what really happened to Kennedy and to mention that if he doesn’t stay in line he’ll get it like JFK.

One note about the election coverage. I listened to the “Ron and Fez” show and their “Political Thunderdome Show” where they were on from 7-midnight covering the election and just entertain people through all this. They are truly the reason I keep my XM, their show never disappoints as far as comedic value.

I’m excited to see this inauguration. I was thinking about all the white presidents had their fossil rock bands to play songs of their day at these events. With Obama, there’s a chance of getting some nice Funk up in that party. Just think of the possibilities. Maybe Kool and the Gang, or the Ohio Players will be dishing out some nice jams for the event. I would love to see George Clinton and Parliament Funkadellic play just so I can here the phrase “the mothership has descended upon the White House.”

They already are starting to make some modifications to the Presidential motor pool:




And of course I found video of a preacher, a true man of the cloth explaining Obama’s struggles during the campaign and how God helped him rise up above it all to succeed:




Yeah, I’ve posted these before. So what, I find them funny, and as far as this thing goes if it makes me laugh it goes up on here!!!!

Hello all. I am sitting here in bed just getting ready to get to sleep, but not sure if I will be able to. I am still a little nervous about this whole job. I’ve been reading the laws about no-fault insurance, and looking at all the forms I am to look at to make sure they are filled out correctly when they come in. It’s a little daunting and intimidating. I tried using the computer system last Friday and I did ok with someone there helping me, but I have to get used to the whole thing. All last week I was observing people do the job, but I never really had anyone go through the whole thing n detail, it was more like as they were going through it they would quickly say why they did what they did. I have no idea what’s happening this week, maybe it will be a slow process to make things easier for me, but it’s still a little overwhelming. I might look over all this stuff again before I go to sleep. I also have to fill out some forms when it comes to my direct deposit and some other things when it comes to some of the benefits I get with the job (also this is assuming I survive the probation period).

I also have to get my money order for my NYS security guard license and get all that stuff together to have sent out this week. I figure at least get it to have something to fall back on, and since I did go through all the classes and stuff I might as well finish off the whole process.

Some of you may be reading this going “Well, he’s talking out his ass again, this seems like a normal thought process of someone at a new job.” If so, then at least you can understand what’s going through my head right now. I really haven’t felt this before when it came to a job. Usually I would feel a little nervous about a job, but I would “get it” right away and do well with it. I guess we’ll see what happens.

One last job related thing: Downtown NYC has a real depressing feeling, at least for me. It’s not so much from the fact that I am a couple blocks form the WTC site, but just the architecture and layout just seems to give a depressing vibe. Also the fact that with the buildings set up the way they are, there’s almost no direct sunlight. As much as I don’t like sunlight, it is nice to have hit the skin every so often.

Now for a couple things non-job related. First off it was nice to see that the Giants smack around the Cowboys like the bitches they are. I was worried about the Giants’ defense when the season started, but it seems like they are playing better now than they did last year. That’s saying something considering the amount of turnover in the lineup from injuries, free agency, and retirement. The other tenant of Giants Stadium, the Red Bulls, almost shocked the MLS world by beating the Houston Dynamo last night. In the end the game ended tied 1-1, and now for RBNY to advance to the next round of the playoffs they have to win in Houston next week. The first round of the MLS playoffs is a two-game, home-and-away format where the winner is determined by total goals scored in both games.

There’s nothing to say about Penn State this weekend since they had a bye week. I still think that they are in a no-win situation. If they win the national title, there is going to be bitching about how they had a weak conference and no conference title game. Even winning the Big Ten will be a hollow win since the entire conference sucks. Now if PSU loses a game this year, then everyone will be like “see, they didn’t deserve to be ranked so high, they were overrated and paper tigers, blah, blah, blah…” Honestly, how would it be PSU fault if they do win it all when the system that is in place allows it, and all PSU did was play all the games in front of them and won them all?

Finally, I downloaded the demo of the game “Mirror’s Edge”. It is an amazing concept of a game, and I hope the full game lives up to the demo. Here’s a link to some info on the game:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mirror%27s_Edge

I played the demo and it takes a little getting used to the game mechanics, but after a little practice, it really is an amazing game. I can’t wait for the full version of the game. It could be one of those games that will lead to tons of other people stealing the concept for their games.