Missed writing something yesterday because I wasn’t in the mood to write something. I shouldn’t skip because it’s one less day of a “workout”. But I really didn’t have anything to write.

Ever thought you may have missed your true calling? I was thinking of it the past couple days, and I was thinking I should have gotten into a more writing major (like journalism or something like that) in college. Here’s the funny thing, I sometimes can’t get myself motivated right away to do something, but most of the time when I do start something, I don’t stop until all my thoughts and whatnot is on paper. In college, I would get my term paper done in a couple hours nonstop (other than the occasional piss break of course), but It could take me days to get myself motivated enough to even start doing the paper. Even with some of my posts here, I would sit here in front of my computer and have nothing to offer, but once I do get started, I can knock out like 400-500 words…just whether or not they all make sense is another matter!

Now for a A.D.D-esque swerve….I was watching “Dog the Bounty Hunter” last night and notice that when they go for a deadbeat that may have a gun, they wear bulletproof vests, but they wear them over their clothes. Many law enforcement guys do that. WHY??? That’s just telling the crook where to shoot the cop!!! Is it so hard to take the extra minute or two to take your shirt off to put the vest under it?!?!?! On a side note, “Dog” isn’t a bad show, I just hate his bible thumping to the crook. I prefer the HBO show (hope it comes back) “Family Bonds”. Not just because they are New Yorkers (they’re based in Queens by the courthouse in Kew Gardens), just they aren’t afraid to kick the crook’s ass, then talk trash to them after the capture.

On the subject of cops and cameras, NYPD wants to put monitoring cameras all over the city in the bad (Poor, immigrant) neighborhoods. I read that they want to put on by my house (90th Street and Roosevelt Blvd., and on 90th and Queens Blvd. I think). This is really going to piss off the drug dealers in my neighborhoods, but they will just have to move over one block and things will go back to normal

I was looking through my CD that I burned with all the data I had on it (I was looking for some files for a soccer management game I play with, tactic files to be exact), and found a bunch of mp3 files I downloaded many moons ago. Most of them are rare tracks from some of my favorite artists (from soundtracks, remixes/mashups, etc). SO I added them to my library of files on my computer. I have over 1 GB of music, but most are from CDs I own. I take some CDs every so often and put the tracks I like on my computer so I have all of them in one place. The other tracks on my computer are all remixes/mashups of songs I found on the net (my favorites are a Nine Inch Nails “closer”/Super Mario soundtrack mashup and at Nine Inch Nails “closer”/Beatles ”Come Together” mashup). I also plan on getting an mp3 player one of these days and plan on putting the music on that. I’m either going to ask my parents to get me that or the MyFi XM receiver for my birthday at the end of the summer (that’s if I don’t get one of them sooner when I get work).

I didn’t drive around today, my car is technically illegal to drive right now (until I get it inspected again). I wanted to go out to get something for my cell phone, but I kept having this picture of me getting pulled over, the cop seeing my car is illegal, and him giving me a nice $100+ ticket. They do that now. In fact, they walk up and down the streets here looking at the registrations and inspection stickers of the cars parked and put tickets on the offending cars. I see them in the morning, and it’s usually the fat cop in the tiny scooter, the ones you see getting destroyed in riots, swooping up and down the street. He has the engine pegged and it can only get 5 mph out of it. While he’s slowly making his way up the street, his accomplice, a fat chick that has an attitude somehow goose-steps and waddles on the sidewalk putting the tickets on the cars.

The fun is when the person who owns the car finds out he has a ticket. Usually they freak and drive off in a huff. One time I saw some guy take the ticket and try to put in on another car. When he lifted the wiper blade to slip the ticket under it, the alarm when off with that bad horn/beeping combo. So people start running to the windows of their houses/apartments with their key rings, thinking that it’s their car alarm. I once had a ticket placed on my car that wasn’t for me. I did the right and noble thing with it…I took it off my car, read it, and threw it into the sewer.

MTV should be renamed the ADD network. It’s programming will go from something serious, like a documentary about some major issue, to the next show being something that involves that moron Ashton Kutcher. Also, how are they MUSIC television, when the only music they play is the same loop from Lil’ Jon or Ludicris in the background of “MTV Cribs”. Even MTV2, something created to play only videos is getting bad, first it’s like any other radio station, playing the same 6 videos (all rap, and even the stupid “I got money and I’m going to throw that fact in your face”-type rap), and in between the videos they have 20 minutes of commercials. The only shows they have on are shows about how THER VIDEOS THAT THEY PLAY WERE CREATED, where not only do you get to see/hear that obnoxious shit that they just got done playing, you get to see who is responsible for it and you get to hear them explain why they did what they did.

One station I like to watch is the History Channel. Where it’s WWII everyday!!!! I’m a little concerned about the owners of the station though; they like to play a lot of the “WWII from the German’s perspective” documentaries. One thing that really got me was on Martin Luther King day this past year, the entire day was dedicated to Hitler and the SS….because nothing says unity of the races and acceptance is HITLER!!!!

Speaking of skinheads, I get some interesting looks from people with my bald head. Naturally, the ladies think I’m the sexiest man alive and want to rub my head. But I find enjoyment when I just sit somewhere and not do anything and watch the people react after seeing me just sitting there. One time I’m sitting in a food court of a mall, and this Hispanic dude was talking to his friend I guess and kept looking back at me. After I finished my food and got up to leave, the guy comes up to me and says, “you hear to take me in?” I was like “no, what are you talking about?” After I said that, he looked relieved and he said, “sorry bro, I thought you were the bondsman I’m running from.”

Another time I found funny was I was walking down the street, and a black woman saw me, got visibly upset and crossed the street in a hurry while looking at me as if I was going to attack her. Good thing she did cross the street, because I didn’t feel like running across the street since I was thinking she was going to jump me!!! Living as the minority in my neighborhood I now know what the ethnic communities go through. One day I was stopped by the cops because I matched a description, but the bad part was I thought they were there to stop the Mexican dude walking by me. The Mexican guy turned around, smiled at me, gave me the finger, and said, “How does it feel gringo”!!!!

I’m going to bed

one last thing, got rid of that tagboard, so if you want to leave a message click on the "comments" link at the end of each of my postings

I saw the funniest thing today…a midget with a mullet. I see this midget with the most redneck-looking mullet (hockey player has less stupid looking mullets.) The little fella was getting out of his car, where I saw he had broomsticks to help hit the pedals. I kept thinking, “What happens if the stick breaks or if the stick slides off the pedal?” I wouldn’t want to be in the car in front of him, where one moment there’s a midget with his huge head driving behind me, holding the wheel with his sausage like fingers, next thing you don’t see him and his hands flailing as his car comes barreling at you as he tries to reach the stick used for the brake.

So after he gets out of his car, he closes the door and waddles around to the sidewalk. And he tries to go into a store, and his head just reaches the handle to the door. He reaches up to pull on the handle, when some dude opens the door and hits him in the head. The midget falls and the first thing that came to my mind was “How was the guy going to walk when his already huge head is going to be swollen, he’s going to be like a inflatable clown punching toy!!!” The midget tried to get up, but his little legs and arms had a hard time pushing his body up with his head on the ground. To top it all of, the guy who hit the midget with the door say’s “sorry kid, didn’t see you there little guy.” The midget gets up and with his fat pudgy hand, swings right in front of him, and lands a perfect shot to the other guy’s nuts and walked away with mullet flowing in the wind. The guy falls and was holding his left arm like he was having a heart attack while his right hand grabbed his nuts.

Why is it that getting hit in the nuts sends the pain to your left arm like and you look like you’re having a heart attack???? Between the face of pain, the falling on the floor, and the “I can’t breathe”, you can’t really tell the difference. I’m afraid to see someone having a heart attack now, probably start laughing thinking the guy got hit in the nuts. If I saw my dad like this, I may make the mistake and tell him “Well wear a cup next time!!”

Well, like most things I’ve done in my life, my car failed inspection. Wanna know why? The “check engine” light was on and that fails a car now in this state. So I spent $120 to get the computer code cleared but I have to wait a couple days to get it reinspected again. Everything else is good on the car but this thing. To make sure that it’s all good, I have to drive my ass around all day tomorrow.

One thing I noticed was how the schools in the area were set up. Talk about spoiled brats!!!! First they are setup like college campuses where like every subject had their own one floor building, green lawns, clean walkways, modern buildings (probably with ultra modern equipment inside). And on the far end is all these sports fields that are kept perfect and have all the PC safety crap (padding on the equipment, sawdust and woodchips on the floor, etc.) And on top of it it’s all open, no real gates, perfect for the kid-touchers to just walk in and be like a kid in a candyshop. There’s security, armed only with a walkie-talkie, something that naturally strikes fear in the most hardest of punk kids.

When I was a kid, you went to school, but it was one building that was a crapshoot if it’ll still stand by the end of the day, one gym that was the auditorium, basketball court, dancefloor, meeting room, and finals testing room, and the annex that looked horribly out of place with the disaster called a main building. And all fenced in like the prison some of these schools should be. You could play in the parking lot at recess which was the abrasive asphalt that was like a cheese grader when you fell on it. The only playground was the park across the street. Now that was a real park; cement under the metal swings and slides, rusted over chains on the swings, sharp edges everywhere…something to really toughen up a kid. The ball fields had no grass…just rocks and dirt. And if the ball goes into the street through one of the several holes in the rusted out fence, it’s usually the busy street where everyone goes at least 50 MPH down it. That was the real fun game….find the ball under the car and get back to the park before that delivery truck with the diver hopped up on coke hits you. And all over the park, you have a chance of falling on a needle, used condom, a homeless drunk. Security was full-blown cops all around not afraid to smash a kid’s skull in if he got out of line or mouthed off, and if he’s asked about it the cop can just say, “Well, he fell playing on the swings”.

Speaking of getting hit by cars, there have been a few people killed the past couple days by hit-and-run drivers. Mind you some of the accidents were the result of drunk drivers, and most of these people didn’t deserve to die that way, but I bet you could chalk up to “thinning out the herd”. I drive down Queens Blvd. (known as the Boulevard of Death”) and I see these old people with walkers just walking out against the light and expecting all 12 lanes of cars to just stop and let them through. Word of advice, if you need a walker, do NOT act like that will deflect the impact of a full-size car or truck like it’s a shield deflecting an arrow. I swear, I don’t stop if I have the green light anymore at intersections, I should not be responsible for the death of someone too stupid to realize that flesh and bones will not survive when it gets hit by steel, plastic, and aluminum. My favorite are the parents who take their kids along for the chance to cheat death, especially when they have the kid so that if a car hits them, the kid gets hit first. What the hell parenting is that!!! Smart if you ask mine, but that’s another story.


one more thing: I would like you all who read this to please leave comments/smartass remarks. I'd like to know (as a former NYC mayor used to say) "How i'm doin'?"

First off, I’m writing this on my Word program, so I can get this all down before I forget when I sit down to write this and then I sound retarded (more than I do now). I decided to try to put more humor into my blog. Don’t worry, I’m still going to have some inane crap on here that you have all grown to love/hate (I don’t give a rats ass either way, the worst part would be if you were indifferent about it). I was inspired by my trip to the comedy club last Fri to try to develop my sense of humor more. I know I sort of have one, people tell me I’m funny and do laugh at what I say, but I want to try to make it more developed. Usually about 70% of what I try to say that’s funny goes over OK. The rest of the 30% either makes me look retarded, or people look at me in horror that I said something that stupid, given my educational background (graduated from a top HS in NYC, Archbishop Molloy, and I am a graduate of Penn State University). This usually doesn’t bother me, since I say things to get a reaction. If I get a bad/negative response, I’m happy just for getting some response from it. It kills me when I get nothing at all. That says to me “I don’t get what you said, and I won’t give you the satisfaction to fake it either way.”

I got a book about comedy writing…. Hey, I won $40 on a lottery game, and I got the book and a magazine and had enough to put gas in my car!!! So I got this book and now I’m starting to read it. It’s given me some great ideas on how to develop my ideas. It’s made me realize that I should write more, everyday, and not when I damn well feel like it. It also gave me a cool exercise that not only helps with comedy writing, but also analytical ideas. Take a newspaper, or anything you read and pick out random nouns. Then take those nouns and write something that pops in your head (what bothers you, your opinion of it, etc.) It really does make you think, and impresses me how much I can think up of.

Like I said, this is a new thing for me, and I’m not looking to get into comedy, but maybe if I get my skills good, maybe I’ll go do something stupid and try out at a comedy club…. then you all can go and yell “You suck! stop talking jackass and die!!” at me in person than at your computer screen when you read my thing here!!! Then I get to rip into you for doing it, and then it’s all good…

Now the usual crap, nothing else is new. I have to get my ride inspected. I hate this, I have chest pains thinking how much I’m going to get screwed by the shop. First it’s $40 bucks just so they can take my car after me waiting for 2 hours in a waiting room with horrible coffee, and stupid people with their stupid kids running around, and look at it and figure out what can they get me on. Then they put my car on a computer to make sure my car ain’t spewing out horrible gasses into the air. Ironic, since it’s usually a Mexican testing my car right after eating 10 burritos and scarfing a ton of beans for lunch…. and my car’s the one they’re worried about being a environmental hazard!!!! Then they go through the underside of my car to see what’s leaking or not right. Then the pull start (Indians come in two varieties, turban=pull start, forehead dot=push start) that owns the shop tries to sell me other services on top of trying to screw me out of $200 for some little part that I can pick up at the auto store for $20 and put in myself. After the whole ordeal, no matter if your car passes or not, the car feels different driving…. I don’t care, I was just told by a state computer that my car can start, stop, hold up under the weight of the car, and it’s not belching out a death cloud that can kill.

I remember my friend who had an RV fail because the trim was sticking out and was considered unsafe. Never mind that RVs are rolling bombs between the gas in the tank, the propane in the tank for cooking, and all that weight on a chassis that’s barely able to hold together a regular truck, Trim sticking out is the real danger…YOU CAN GET CUT!!!!! My friend told the guy “take some fucking nails and screws and fix it!!” The guy did it (halfassed, I saw it before he sold the RV), and had the balls to charge him LABOR AND THE PRICE OF THE SCREWS on top of the inspection!!! That’s like when you go to the doctor and you get a band aid to cover a small scrape, then get charged for the band aid AND the visit.

Wow, guess the Doctors and Auto mechanics are one in the same…. MONEY ROBBING SCUMBAGS!!!!

This won't be long since I can barely sit still here. My stomach is killing me from gas, and it's the painful type that moves on you. This is one of those rare times I'm glad I don't have a chick here, since the next stage could be considerd abuse if a woman was in bed with me tonight!!!

Mets won today, and Metros tied today. So at least both teams got something out of their games today. I got nothing else tonight, so I"m goign to lay down.

Went to the comedy club tonight, got there just in time to see the entire show. It was a good time, other than the frustration I could feel coming off my cousin (bad back and horrible timing by his wife really put him in a less than jolly mood). Now I'm home and I'm going to bed.

I would go to the game tomorrow, but I have NO passion to. One day I'm going to put all my grivences down and let people know how I, along with many people, feel about the club and the current situation it's in.

can't write any more, so i'll do more tomorrow

So I'm feeling better, my past is behind me, and I'm feeling better. Tomorrow I go to a comedy club, and hopefully that'll put me in a better mood. Still waiting for a couple things, but hopefully next week (Hell, even tomorrow) things will be cleared up.

Mets/Jankees this weekend. Finally, the Mets get to show who's the real team in the City here!!!

I want to go see the new Star Wars, film, but not for a couple more weeks....but if I had a broadband connection, i'd already have the film!!! Speaking of Star Wars, R2-D2 is the "Kenny" of the series...every film he's killed and comes back for the next flick!!! All I needed was the other castmembers to go "Oh my God, they killed R2-D2." "you bastard!!!"

When I said "Unfiltered", this is what I meant....

Ok, I've had some time to think about that chick who Immed me earlier tonight, and all I can say is that I've had EVERY BAD FEELING I'VE HAD ABOUT THIS SITUATION come right back to the surface.

I've probably mentioned some of the things I've beengoing through, and probalby said something about this chick too. For what she did, she deserves whatever bad happens to her. She played me and just left me to wallow inall the bullshit I was dealing with. It crushed me, and I was a emotional (and Physical) disaster for about a week and a half. I told her everything I felt about her, and she just seem numb to it all, and even got pissed when I sent everything she sent me back. I didn't want anything to remind me of her. I even told her that I didn't want to hear from her anymore. Now out of the blue she writes to say hi....and I felt such a rush of emotions (all bad, like when my old computer died, real bad). So I told her off and she jsut signed off, guess she couldn't handle the truth.

Simply put, and I rarely call a woman this, but that cunt is dead to me, and like I said before if there is justice or Karma in this world, she will has a miserable life for tryin to have her cake and eat it too

Went for my interview today...first off Long Island sucks driving around in. If it wasn't for the service roads on the LIE, I'd still be on the road GOING to my interview.

So I get there, the world headquaters of Weight Watchers, and it's a standard industrial park building on the outside, but inside it looks nice...especially since I think the ladies/men ratio is like 3:1. So I go in and this hot blonde hands me a application to fill out. As I'm doing it, I"m trying to write on this clipboard the application is on, which is almost imposible left-handed. After I get the thing done, I put my resume under the paper and return it to the chick. Soon after sitting there for a couple minutes, the woman I was to interview with comes out and takes me to her office. Not a bad looking MILF, i'd say early 40s, so at least this interview won't be all bad if I bomb. For the next 30 minutes, she asked me about everything in my employment past, which meant I had to come up with some stuff. I don't know how well it worked, I suck at assessing my performance on things like this (don't ever ask me how a date went....). She told me that she has other people to interview with, then she'll make a desision by next week. I'm not holding my breath about this, and I won't be weeping if things don't work out.

Other than that, I won $40 on a Win for Life ticket today. And the rest of the day was just long and boring. As I said, I'm waiting for someone to get back to me about something big, but it seems everyday that it's not going to happen, and it really saddens me, since I was looking forward to all the tings I was told could happen would

now someone in the past just Imed me, and now I'm in a bad mood...may have to drop the hammer tonight, since I am sick of ths part of the past....but like a weed it keeps coming up. This was a person that at my lowest turned her back on me and showed no remorse for it, since in HER mind it was my fault I couldn't go see her in Oh., yet she NEVER showed any effort to come see me, which she tells me in the end she wanted to see me, but I let her down. So what does she do? not tell me and goes out and sleep with this guy, then tells me "he gives me something right now you can't"....WHO THE FUCK IS SHE TO GET A HOLD OF ME TO "JUST SAY HI"?!?!!? she's dead to me and I hope she ends up with the most miserable scumbag that beats her on a daily basis...now I got all these fucking emotions coming back up...

what a way to end the night!!!

Tomorrow's a big day. I go to a temp agency in the morning to retest, then go in the afternoon to my interview on the Island. I hope I can get home in time to get my car to drive out to this place. Who knows, maybe I'll do so well on my tests, this agency gives me a assignment and I won't have to go to this interview!!! I"m nervous as all hell for this, but if nothing comes out of it, it's no big deal to me.

Newsweek should be shut down for that irresponsable dribble they reported. It cost people lives, and people got further enraged ober what was found to be a lie. You know damn well the Arabs won't accept any appology, since when it comes the the US, they are closed minded and just assume all we say has false intentions.

another day, another day of silence....

What a waste of a day. Slept in till 11, got up and just loafed around the house until 1. Then went out with my parents to the Island jsut to get out of the house. Eventually we got back home and still just sat around the house. I did Nothing that I wanted to do, so my trip to the temp agancy will probably be Wed. since I haven't really re-read my book on Office for the retests I was going to take.

I don't understand my attitude recently. It seems like I have no energy or desire to do anything. I have no idea what's going on, and it bugs me. Maybe if by some miricle someone hires me and I get some money, this will change. I still haven't decided if I"m gonig to post my resume here, though I'm sure those who read this would like something to actually laugh at!!!

I hope things go well this week, uncertainty is a real drag on one's mind. Maybe the answers i have been searching for will come this week, but if not that's jsut another thing that hasn't gone my way.

Hooray!! Metro won tonight!!!! Maybe Metro should play on the road the entire season...

The only downer was where I was at. Maybe it's because I haven't been hanging out with the guys that much, but I just felt like I wasn't wanted there. I mean, they were cool and all, but I just didnt have a good time. Coming home tonight, I just really didnt' feel any happiness about the game or being out. It seems like all the things I used to enjoy doing isn't important to me, and it's frightening to me. I feel like Howard Stern when it comes to his radio career (guess I'm stealing this from him, hoo hoo!!!)....i don't care anymore, I just don't care....

Maybe ti's just that I have no money to dop the things I used to do, but I hope to rekindle the fire in me for what I enjoy...it's all I got.

Got my room rearrainged this afternoon. Things went well, other than the fact that I didn't measure right, but in the end I got things where they work. As my family says "it'll fit, no matter how much damage to everything around it we have to do!!!"

I'm sick of waiting...but I"m giving things abother week to change....

I don't know how to feel about Malcom Glazer buying my team, Man U. (my team in that I have shares in it). He is going to take the club private and control it outright, but it means the team will have almost 550 milion in debts, and in the economic climate of soccer in Europe, it's no guarentee that the money will be made back. Chelsea went through the same thing recently and just destroyed the EPL this season, and made it deep ionto the Champions League and FA Cup(semis for both), so I'll have to hold judgement on all this.

I have a huge headache. I coughed hard earlier tonight, and I've had a headache since

Note to our federal Gov......if anyone flys into the "no-fly" zone in DC, SHOOT THEM DOWN ON SITE!!!! Seriously, it's been an established zone for years, there should be no reason for people who fly to NOT know it's there. But since this world is so pussified and PC, I guess we should let potential terrorists just fly around DC adn we should go "hey,. please fo away, or I'll throw a flare at you!!!" Only time that works is at soccer games done by drunk Europeans...

I got a Mach 3 M3 power razor. It is an intersting thing to use. It vibrates which makes younot relly feel the razor shave. I must say that it does a great job, and I feel it's worth it. I did notice when I got this razor, that the female version was all gone...I hope the women don't hurt themselves "shaving"....

that's all I got now with my head hurting, but it also doesn't help that I got other things on my mind. Right now, I'm lost and frustrated about the lack of information I'm getting about someone. I"ve been wating patientl for a while to hear back about their situation. I dont' know if i'm gonig t just give up waiting, since the last time i was in this situation I lost the opportunity at something special, and I still regret it to this day. This is why I'm most likely going to continue to wait to see if anything new develops (hopefully for the positive, since it's a bad situation now and I've bene told me "being there" has helped aliviate some of the negative and painful thjings related to the situation this person is in). People who know about this situation think I'm setting myself up for a bad ending in all this, but I have a feeling things are going to be allright if/when this person gets a hold of me....

Here's some things I found on the net I'd like to share:

Friend of mine did an interview with the GM, who took the lazy way out and cut-and-pasted his answers from past chats/interviews/press releases. But he did go into detail about his "pro" career that no one can officially confirm if it's true

I wish I could make my blog as good as his!!!

Can the Rangers get this guy to coach?!?!?!

allegedly Jenna Bush...(NOT SAFE FOR WORK UNLESS YOU'RE LOOKING TO GET FIRED!) I don't think it's her, but still nice pics anyway!!!

Got an interview coming up next tuesday. Part time gig with Weight Watchers on the Island. Maybe I'll have to splurge for the "no fat chicks" shirt if I get the job. I also may go get retested for MS Word and Excel at a couple temp agencies. WOuldn't hurt plus gets me out of the house at the very least.

Christ what a night....I get a IM from some broad saying some inane, racist stuff. I should have just shut the IM down and blocked her screen name, but she apologized and then showed me her site...whaddyaknow, a live cam site of her....just went to the homepage and she kept asking me what I thought of her, I said she was not bad, then she freaks and starts with the racist remarks....so I told her off and blocked her screen name and reported her to AOL.....pussy move I know, but when you start using racist remarks with me, especially after having some jerkoff go all around Queens saying I shave my head because I'm a part of the Aryans, I have to draw the line. Now I admit I say some remarks, but that's ONLY when I know I can, like hanging with your friends busting balls), but I haven't used it in a mean derogatory way. And if I was a racist, would I hang out with my half Puerto Rican cousin and his Filipino wife all the time, while being cool about my other cousin married to a black dude? Along with all my friends in interracial marriages/relationships? Hey, I'm cool with whatever match in a relationship...if they make you happy, who am I to say what's right or wrong? But on the bright side, I still have my way with women!!!

I still am out of the loop with this one person I'm waiting to hear back from, getting irritated and worried. Hope I'll hear something this week

So what else is new...got MSG/FSNY back last night, and the first thing I see is "classic" Metro games..one against the Rapids in 96 (Gio Savarese's hat trick) and the famous playoff game against the Scum which went to the old shootout and Peter Vermes limped up and scored the winning goal to give Metro the first game in the best-of-three series. Seeing both games brought back a lot of memories, and I got pissed over both, because the crowd was hot back then, grass field at the stadium, and some decent soccer (NONE of which is at Giants Stadium now). Eventually I got upset enough to go to FSNY to see the mets/cubs game....well part of it since they were in a rain delay for a couple hours.

I got to see the Jenna Bush pics on the net...dont' think it's her, but damn!!!! at least we know now "jenna" wears a thong!!!

my head huts, I'm going to bed

-OK, Metros suck, but it shouldn't surprise me since they've been sucking all 10 years of their existence. I still support them because I'm loyal like that. I'd go to all the game s(and probably be aseason ticket holder) if I had the money and the atmosphere wasn't so combative thanks to a bunch of assholes that think their all big now because the made ONE trip to Columbus for a Metros game (like that's a big deal; in college I made a couple trips to Columbus with friends during summer session to see the then-new Columbus Crew stadium...and it's always fun driving around OSU with Penn State stickers on a car...). Now I hear that the morons are allowed back into the stadium with no more penalties on them...personally, if I was in charge of the ESC, I wouldn't have lifted a finger to get them back in after all the trouble they have caused for the club since they became members. It's funny, I got a message from the ESC leader adn he told me that he doesn't like the feeling of "being a den mother for 100 people that cant' act their age."

-Mets lost, but that was alradty decided when the pitching matchup was announced (Mets still believe in a broken down, decrepid has been named Tom Glavine). Mets can't get something started, they get a bunch of wins and before they make some progress in the NL east, they lose and stop all momentum.

-I'm looking around my room now, and I'm debating if I'm going to move my room around. If I do, it's goin gto be one HUGE ballbuster since all my stuff in my room weighs a ton!!! But I'll have to put some thought into it. Also have to get some measurements to see if any of my ideas are going to fit.

-SO far, I have about 4 other people that most likely go with me to the comedy club hopefully on the 20th (can't do the 13th, club's doing some charity gig, and I still have to call to see if it's cool to do the 20th) I have one or two others I jsut asked and still have to heaer back from...so that's 7 maybe, that means I got 3 spots left.....have to see who I wouldn't mind hanging out with that won't make go out of my mind and irritate the hell out of me.

-I'm so sick to my stomach. My dad took the family out to Outback tonight, and I gotta say they make some of the best steaks out there. Only problem is that all their food is too good, and since dinner I've been in a pissy mood sucking down the Pepto to be able to function. Well that worked till about an hour ago. But the prime rib and bloming onion I ate was damn worth it!!!

-Today I chose to listen to Pink FLoyd's "The Wall" in it's entirity tonight. I haven't head the entire album in a long time (usually hear a track or two on the radio to something). It's a good album, but not like what I remember the last time I heard it in college.... One night a couple months ago, PBS had the entire concert from Berlin on. It was quite impressive watching them build the wall the first half of the show, then the second half of the show is done from behind the wall for the most part until they break it down. This was one of the few times they did this show ever (I think they only did 5 total in the world-all in Europe), and the show did overshodow the actual music, something I hate most performers do now-shows how big of hacks they really are, but this was one of those rare bands where the music was jsut as good as the theatrics.

-I won 10 free tickets to a comedy club!!!! the guy calls me up telling me that, since I filled out a form for a raffle to win the last tiem I went. Now I just have to find a date to go, and nine other people to go with!!!!

-Tomorrow Metros pay the San Jose. Don't know if i'm going to watch the game. I"m not going to the game at Giants Stadium, due to the potential security/dumbass conflict that may come up this week even though the ESC leader sent me a message saying he told people to chill with the problems. I'll probably cave in and see at least part of the game, unless some miracle occurs and I somehow have plans to go out in the afternoon.

-Mets won tonight, Yankees are in last place in their division (and clost to the bottom in the AL), things are good...

-Still nothing about that person I'm waiting to hear from....i'll go into a full panic halfway next week if I hear nothing, then take a few days to decide my next move.

that's all I got now...

-I got to get a DSL line in this house, it's getting nuts trying to download things...I cant' download any pits form Ron and Fez or O&A. I can download music and such (LImewire kicks ass for this BTW), but it takes a little bit. I did get the Pat O'Brien voicemails off the net (the uncensored version). Probably the funniest damn thing I've heard in a while!!!! Nothing beats hearing a coked up, boozed up, horney guy talk about every nasty thing he wants to do to a chick (and in a couple messages, to TWO women..Pat keeps the pimphand strong!!!)...but isn't that they way a man should talk to his woman??? HAHAHAHA And what a crock that interview was last night...typical post rehab whining and maoning "oh, that wasn't me, that wasa different person." "I didn't run to rehab because of the tapes and all the facts coming out...", etc. I wish the guy well, but I hate the fact that his thing is being exploited (both by Viacom, the owners of his show), and himself.....I bet in one year he'll be back to the booze and Drugs (I bet Heroin, he'll want to kill himself from all the stress and bullshit he'll have to endure from everyone).

-I mentioned last night about the pissing contest on the messagboard at Metrofanatic.com so I won't retell the stupid story. Well it seems that now a lot of people arent' talknig to me now, but I also get a ton of messages from people supporting me (all the old school ESC members, the people I usually hang with). On top of all this, I get a message from someone telling me to watch my back..well isn't this a nice pile I stepped in just BY STATING A FUCKING FACT!!!! Ah well, at least I got some people there who got my back, wish the leadership did, I I can't say anything about that since they never return my messages about my suggestions or what I warned them about with this situation potentially getting a whole lot worse..trust me, there's a real good chance things can get FUBARED and the group could get kicked out.

-I rather not get into the other thing (about my waiting for info on someone I care for). I just dont' want to dwell that since every senerio has been rolling around my head...

-Hey did you hear about the bombing of the UK's offices in Midtown??? I woke up today hearing about this bombing infront of the building where the UK consulate is....turns out some fake grenades with gunpowder in them (like a M-80) was thrown at thei building and the "explosion" damaged a whole pot where a tree is planted, and a coulpe windows.....but if you saw the first reports without pictures, you'd think the whole goddamn building came down!!!! And this whole thing tied up the streets and trains for like 10 square blocks....wonder if my cousin's wife was pissed off by that (I think her train goes right by there). Seems the hubub has doed down for a bit....I keep thinking if this was by the Israeli consolate, every cop in this city would be questioning everyone, and the national guard would be stationed outside their offices, since the Jews in the city gets a lot of preferential treatment in this city, You should see the police presence in front of a Jewish center/synogougue on a Jewish holiday....you never see the city/state/ Federal gov't bend over backwars to protect the Catholics do ya!!! I'm not against the Jews or racist in anyway, I just wish they realize they are a religion not a race (technically, the race they are is actually Middle Eastern...ironic aint' it!!!!), and they are no more important than me!!!!

redid the site a little (actually different template). Thought this could use some freshening up. I'll work with it to get it the way I really want it.

also, when I say unfiltered, I mean it....so the text may get more colorful......

What's up my peeps

-Today started off in a interesting way. A little background: I have been hanging out with a group of guys I met in a local R/C club for the past couple years. a couple years ago, we left that club and jsut hungout on out own (and sorta made up aclub ourselves, messageboard and all). We left that club because the guy running it was as ass. He would charge us to join and run at the public parking lot he happened to have a permit for (he had to get on his knees with the parks dept. if you know what I mean to get it). This was a big no-no according to the parks dept. (cant' charge money to use a public lot, even if you got a permit). There are other reasons for people leaving (like for me, he went around to hobby shops saying I was a racist), and eventually we all got tired of his BS and left. off and on, he tries to start stuff with us (like calling the police on us about us allegedly being irresonsable with our cars-yet the dingus said we were somewhere we weren't). He has done other things, but it all was childish and got him in trouble more than us.

Well this weekend he started in with another member, because I guess the house arrest he's on for being a deadbeat dad has him a little bored. This is on top of the fact that he's a huge junkie, has no job (claims he's on disability due to his Diabetes, but he can't prove that), and he's his wife's bitch, who is ironicly more manly than him!!! He also stole a bunch of money from members for himself, lied to local hobby shops to get free stuff off of them, but was later cought doing that. He's been trying to make it so he's the only club in town, but thanks to people like me and others spreading the truth and evidence of what he does, everyone knows he's an absolute zero and now has NO ONE in his club (he once in a while gets a newbie to lure in, but the learn quickly ald dumphis ass).

I still haven't gotten all the details on what happened, but apparently my friend said something in response to a posting on a mesage board, and this jackass stared in with trying to hack into our messageboard and mess with the accounts.....childish stuff this 50 year old pot/crack smoking ass is doing, all because he has zero social skills and is a huge loser.

-Other than that things seem ok, still havent' heard from this person I've been waiting to hear from. It's someone special to me, and I'm just worried. I am not in a full panic, since treatments this person has to get is some serious stuff and it does affect their health (soetimes good health days, sometimes bad health days type situation). Oh well, I"ll jstu have to wait and pray for things to turn out OK.

-Mets baby!!! they're kicking ass!!! Although they did almost blow the game tonight, they are doing well. just a damn thing that the entire division sit doing well too!!! It's always a good thing to hear the newscasts talk about how the Mets are doing well, and the Yankees are falling apart!!! Always puts a smile on my face.

-Now for the Metros, they won this weekend, but the Metrofanatic.com message boards are STILL talking about how the security at GS is too tough on certain members of my group the last home game. I don't want to go into details, since I'm sick of thnking about it since my position on it has made people a lot more angry at me.

Here's what I'll say about it: the people that got in trouble have for YEARS been warned about their behavior, and at this one game, they wore shirts antagonizing the security at the stadium. After the game and another couple of warnings, security took the people into their office, and allegedly really gave them a hard time about it and apparently they were aggressivly taken down to the security office. I (aka "PSUDude" on the Metrofanatic boards) pointed out in a couple posts that both were in the wrong, and now people are PISSED at me. Should make going to a game next time fun, that's if I go to a game this season....I have enough stress in my life, I don't need more at something that's supposed to be a place where I escape it!!!


sorry for the rambeling as usual, but my mind doesn't do well in organizing things off the top of my head. I don't think these things out when I write them...makes these entries more real and legit. It jsut sucks that now all the things I enjoy are not jsut ANOTHER ste of issues and stresses...I CAN'T HAVE FUN ANYWHERE THESE DAYS!!!!

Spent Saturday at my cousin's son's communion party. Damn I'm old. all of my cousin's kids are all teenagers, and apparently they all got all the good looking genes. It was nice, but also sad considering I realized how little comunication I have with these people. I felt so lost at this event. So I did what most people who feel uncomfortable at a party does...sit at the bar and take advantage of the free booze.

Sunday consisted of me hanging out doing nothing. eventually I went out to run my model car for a couple hours. At dinner time, some assclown kids decides to play baseball infront og my house and they break the stormdoor window, shooting glass all over my portch and living room. For the rest of the night I not in a good mood. I hope those kids don't show up near my house again.....

I haven't seen or read anything really interesting, other than the highlights of the Metros beating Colorado Sat. night in the snow (would have loved to watch the full game, but thanks to a bunch of morons that run the cable channel and system, I can't). Oh yeah, Mets decide to have the wheels fall off in DC this weekend, but they're still in better shape than the Yankees!!!

Have to thank my cousin Ralphie and his wife for the computer program they gave me Thursday night (and have to thank them for A LOT they have done for me, they didn't have to do anything for me). I also got to see the damage he was telling me about in his bathroom due to his upstairs neighbors' and buildings' ineptitiude. Apparently, a pipe broke upstairs and it leaked into the walls on my cousins bathroom and really did a number on his wall. Think stucco, and you got an idea of what his wall looks like (on top of his medicine cabinet just about to fall and the mold). THis has been going on for a couple weeks and his building (co-op building) and the neightbors have done NOTHING to fix it....needless to say he's been in a bad mood, and hopefully it gets fixed soon and he doesn't have to pay out anything, but sucks he may not have a bathroom to use for liek a week since they probably have to take out the walls at the least (he already pays a maitenence fee, and this is in the walls, so he shouldn't have to pay more to get this done)